TAEHYUNG'S POV

~ play Kung Wala Ka by Hale~

Make things right huh?" Kayden hyung asked me smirking. He turned to Kara. "Does he know already?" He asked her.

Umiling si Kara sa kanya. Anong sinasabi niya?

"I thought he's going to make things right? how can he do that when he doesn't even know the truth?"

"Kuya... please, stop" Kara said her voice almost begging. Lalo lang akong nalito.

"Anong ibig mong sabihin hyung? May dapat ba akong malaman?"  anong dapat kong malaman?

"Of course, you've been gone for quite a long time... you missed out on a lot of things" Kayden hyung chuckled. That was just a simple line but it holds so much meaning.

"Kuya" Kara said her voice is sounded like she's warning Kayden hyung.

"Do you think she's single?" he asked me. "What... What do you mean?" Tanong ko, bakit niya ako tinatanong ng ganto?

"Ahhh... so you didn't know? you didn't meet him yet? that's weird, you were with him at the bar"

What?! What do I don't know? Sinong hindi ko pa nakikilala? Kasama ko sa bar?

"KUYA ANO BA?!" Kara screamed. Bumaling si Kayden hyung sa kanya.

"What!? as much as I hate his guts... I think he deserves to know the truth" He shrugged.

I looked at her confused. "Anong dapat kong malaman? May hindi ka ba sinasabi sa akin? Are you hiding something from me?" I asked.

Ano ba ang dapat kong malaman? What truth do I have to know? Did I miss on something big? or something so important? Nakita ko ang paglunok ni Kara. May itinatago ba siya saakin?

"W-Wala... what... will I hide from you?!" 

She said that looking away from me.Alam kong may itinatago siya.

"Kara tell me" I said and stared at her, but she didn't say a word.

"Sino yung sinasabi ni Kayden Hyung?" I asked. She swallowed hard and shook her head.

"Oh just tell him that you have a boyfriend already, Kara! Bakit ba pinapatagal mo pa? don't tell me ayaw mo siyang masaktan dahil don?" Kayden hyung said.

Hindi ako makapaniwala sa narinig ko.

"Sorry to tell you, but she has a boyfriend already... Ayaw niya lang ipaalam sayo dahil baka masaktan ka... see? ikaw parin ang inaalala niya..."

"What?Totoo ba? " lumabas ang mga salitang iyon sa bunganga ko ng hindi ko namamalayan. Umiling siya at tumingin sa mga mata ko.

"Ofcourse she wouldn't tell you the truth... just go live your life and be an idol and don't come back here to bother her again"

The words that Kayden hyung said broke my heart.Bakit ba lagi nalang niya akong pinagtatabuyan palayo?

"T-Thats not true..." Kara whispered shaking her head.

"Why? why did you lie?" tanong ko. Alam ko namang wala akong karapatang magtanong dahil kahit pamagkaroon siya ng bagong boyfriend ay wala na ako dun, hiwalay na kami kaya malaya na soyang gawin ang gusti niya. Pero bakit ganon? Bakit ang sakit?

"Taehyung... That's not true..." she whispered. I closed my eyes and sighed.

"Pumasok na tayo Kara" sabi ni Kayden hyung sa kanya pero inirapan lang niya ang kuya niya. He  shook his head and went inside. Pumasok na si Kuya Kayden kaya kami nalang ang nandito sa labas.Hindi ko alam kung ilang minuto na kaming nakatayo don at hindi nagsasalita.

Kara reached for both of my hands and stared at me.

"Don't mind what my brother said...hindi totoo yon... please believe me" she whispered and I felt my heart break again seeing her tears flow from her eyes.

"Are you.... are you doing this as a revenge?" But I can't get myself to stop thinking she's doing all this just to take revenge. Ang babaw kong mag-isip pero yun kasi ang nararamdaman ko.

"What?!"

"Do you hate me that much? Para maghiganti ka pa?" I asked her while staring into her eyes.

"NO! I wasn't even thinking about that... Taehyung... please... I love you and you know that" she said.

"Is Kayden hyung lying then?" I asked. Tinanggal ko ang pagkakahawak niya saakin. I was waiting for her response but she just stared at me not saying anything. I smiled sadly and nodded

Kayden hyung is telling the truth.

"He wasn't" rinig kong sabi niya, tumigil ako at unti-unting humarap sa kanya.

"He wasn't lying" sabi niya habang nakatitig sa akin. "Then it's true? Pinaglalaruan mo lang ba ako?" tanong ko. Umiling siya na naging dahilan ng pagkalito ko. Ano bang ibig niyang sabihin? Ang gulo-gulo na.

"I love you---"

"Then why did you lie?"

"I didn't....you didn't ask if I have a boyfriend in the first place---"

But she's right I didn't ask her if she's in a relationship or what. Basta ang alam ko lang hindi sila ni Brax. And nung masiguro kong hindi sila ni Brax masaya na ako don.

"I'm sorry for bothering you all this time, Kara---"I said cutting her off.

"Just... just let me finish first... please" she said. Tumango nalang ako. I want to hear the truth.

"I met him when you left me, and he stayed with me through ups and downs... he cheered me up when... When I felt so hopeless... He did the things you were supposed to do... he comforted me and gave me a shoulder to lean on...And he stayed even though he knows that I still love you."

Napakunot ang noo ko. Ang ibig sabihin matagal na sila? Napalunok ako at napatingin sa kwintas na palagi niyang suot. Did he gave it to her? Siya rin ba ang nagbigay non?

"That necklace..." sabi ko. Napahawak siya sa kwintas niya bago tuningin saakin. "Did he give it to you?" tanong ko. She smiled and nodded.

He must've been so important to him, for her to wear it everyday. Then I remembered her staff at Selene talking about that guy they're referring to as 'Sir'. Siya kaya yung tinutukoy ni Kara?

"He got along with my family, and he even get along with Yareli and Brax... they all love him. I even got into a fight with my brother because he told me that he replaced you..."

Kitang-kita ko ang paglunok niya, she must've rembered him. And it breaks me to hear that she has someone with her nung mga panahong magkalayo kami. But then again it was my fault.
Sinabi ko sa kanyang maghanap siya ng iba. At ngayong nalalaman ko na, na meron siyang kasama bakit ang sakit?

"Is that why you fall in love with him?" I asked. Inihahanda ko na ang sarili ko na marinig ang magiging sagot niya. Pero umiling siya.

"I tried... to open up my heart but I.. I just can't..."

"He was nice, caring, thoughtful, sweet, he also has a sense of humor... honestly, he's the perfect man a girl could ask for---" she smiled and looked at me. I can see the fondness in her eyes pero agad ding napalitan iyon ng lungkot.

"But...he wasn't you. He isn't what I want. " she said. Napanganga ako dahil sa sinabi niya. "What do you mean?" I asked shocked.

"I don't want a perfect man, I want you..."

"What?!"

"Tae, he's not my boyfriend...we're not together" Napalunok ako habang pinoproseso ang sinabi niya. Natuwa din ang puso ko dahil sa nalaman ko. Pero meron parin na kung anong bumabagabag sa isipan ko.

"I don't know Kara..." I sighed. Masyadong magulo. Hindi ko na alam.

"This is all too much---" she cut me off by kissing me. It wasn't the normal passionate kiss. Her kisses meant something. She's proving me that she really loves me and she's saying the truth.

"I love you" she said when we pulled away. I stared at her and swallowed fighting the urge to kiss her again.

"I love you too... but I need to think, I just don't understand whats going on"

It's already been three days since that happened pero hindi parin iyon maalis sa isip ko at paulit-ulit ko paring naalala yung mga nangyari. And it's already been three days since I last talked to Kara.

Yun na ang huling pag-uusapan namin. I don't know how to reach out to her, hindi ko alam kung paano ko siya kakausapin ulit. I know I should believe her. And I do. I trust her and I believe in everything that she said.

Pero ang bumabagabag kasi sa isip ko ay yung lalaking tinutukoy niya.Sino ba iyon? At bakit hindi ko pa iyon nakita ni minsan? Who's that guy that's been with Kara all this time and why do I never see him with her?

"That necklace... Did he give it to you?"

Napabuntong-hininga ako. The necklace she's wearing is really familiar. I know I've seen it somewhere before. It might just be a coincidence but it got stuck on my mind. Hindi maalis ang kwintas na iyon sa isip ko.

"Ganon ba kaimportante ang lalaking iyon para araw-araw niyang isuot ang kwintas na bigay niya?" bulong ko sa sarili ko.

"Hyung! Is something wrong?" tanong ni Jungkook at tumabi sa akin. Nandito na kami sa apartment ngayon dahil katatapos lang ng practice namin.

Bumuntong-hininga ako at umiling. Ayoko ng isali pa sila sa mga problema ko. "You look deep in thoughts though" He shrugged.

Ngumiti lang ako, kung alam mo lang kung gaano kalalim ang mga iniisip ko.

"Tell me hyung" sabi niya. "Malay mo makatulong ako" he shrugged waiting for my reply.

Umiling ako at hindi na nagsalita, iniisip ko parin kasi kung saan ko ba nakita yung kwintas na suot ni Kara. Bigla akong napatingin kay Jungkook.

"Have you seen the necklace that Kara has been wearing?" tanong ko. Nag stay naman si Kara dito ng isang gabi, kaya napansin naman siguro ni Jungkook yung kwintas niya. Kung hindi si Jungkook siguro naman may nakapansin na isa sa kanila dun sa suot niyang kwintas.

Napaisip siya." The one with the moon shaped pendant?" tanong niya habang nagtatakang tumingin sa akin.

"OH! THAT'S RIGHT!"

He nodded still looking at me with a confused look on his face. "Why hyung? why are you asking?" tanong niya..

"Did you give that to her?"

Umiling ako. "Nothing....but don't you find it familiar?" tanong ko. He shook his head.

"Doesn't it give you a familiar feeling? Like you've seen it before or something?" tanong ko uli. Hindi siya sumagot at mukhang pati siya ay nag-iisip na rin kung saan niya ba iyon nakita.

"Ah! I remember!" he said smiling. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. I knew it! The necklace was really familiar!

"See! I know I'm not the only one who thinks it's familiar!" sabi. Tumango siya. "Where did you saw it?" tanong ko.

"Now that I think about it... it kinda look like the one Eunwoo bought for his 'girlfriend'." sabi niya.

Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig dahil sa narinig ko. Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko. Napalunok ako nung maalala ko na rin sa wakas kung saan ko nakita ang kwintas na iyon. Jungkook was right, kay Eunwoo ko nakita ang kwintas na iyon. Yung kwintas na ibibigay niya babaeng gusto niya.

"Hyung!" tawag ni Jungkook saakin pero hindi ko siya pinansin.

Hindi maproseso ng utak ko yung impormasyong nalaman ko. Is it really him? Is it really Eunwoo? Pero paano? Paanong siya? I mean... paano naging si Kara yung babaeng tinutukoy niya? Is it just a coincidence?

"He was nice, caring, thoughtful, sweet, he also has a sense of humor... honestly, he's the perfect man a girl could ask for---"

Napunok ako. Every detail that Kara said perfectly describes Eunwoo.

"HYUNG!" Tinapik ako ni Jungkook.

"Are you thinking that it's Eunwoo who gave that necklace to Kara?" tanong niya. Tumango ako.

He laughed and shook his head. "Hyung, impossible naman yang iniisip mo eh. Alam naman nating lahat na may anak yung girlfriend ni Eunwoo" sabi niya.

"Well technically, hindi niya talaga girlfriend kasi.... hindi pa naman talaga sila. Kailangan niya lang iconfirm yung rumor kasi para sa kaligtasan nung babae...pero yun nga may anak yung girlfriend niya hyung, nakalimutan mo na ba?" tanong niya.

Napakunot ang noo ko. Tama naman si Jungkook. Alam naming lahat na may anak yung babaeng gusto ni Eunwoo. Maybe I'm just being paranoid about it, I'm a fool to suspect him. Baka magkaparehas lang ang kwintas ni Kara sa kwintas na binigay niya para sa babaeng gusto niya.

"Hyung! Don't tell me pinaghihinalaan mo si Eunwoo?" tanong ni Jungkook.

"I don't know...." bulong ko.

Pero sa totoo lang malakas ang kutob ko na parang si Eunwoo yung taong tinutukoy ni Kara. Pero kung iisipin mong mabuti impossible din namang mangyari yon dahil may anak yung babaeng gusto ni Eunwoo.

Tsaka isa pa kung si Kara nga yung tinutukoy ni Eunwoo, at si Kara nga ang babaeng gusto ni Eunwoo bakit walang alam si Jungkook?

"Hyung..." sabi ni Jungkook at tumingin sa akin. "Impossible yang iniisip mo. " sabi niya at tinapik ako sa balikat. I looked at him confused.

"Paano mo naman nasabing impossible?" tanong ko. Tumawa na naman siya.

"Hyung may anak nga yung girlfriend ni Eunwoo" sabi niya. Napakunot ang noo ko habang nakatingin sa kanya.

"Bakit may anak ba kayo ni Kara?"

Napalunok ako, kasabay non ang pagbilis ng tibok ng puso ko. Paano kung si Kara talaga iyon? Paano kung si Kara ang babaeng gusto ni Eunwoo?Then that means I have a child with Kara?

Umiling ako. Impossible namang mangyari iyon. I mean me and Kara had sex, yes pero---

'Then that is not impossible'

Bulong ng isip ko. I know me and Kara had sex pero possible nga kayang nalagyan ko siya?

"So inaamin mo na may girlfriend ka?" Tanong nila sa kanya. He chuckled and put his hands up.

"Wala akong girlfriend"

"I don't believe you, show us her picture"sabi ni Jaehyun sa kanya.

" Wala nga---"he answered pero nakuha na ni Jungkook ang phone niya.

" Oh? who's this? "Tanong ni Jungkook habang nakatitig sa cellphone ni Eunwoo. Pati ako ay nakiusyoso na rin at nakitingin.

It was the cutest baby I have ever seen. Napangiti ako she was like an angel.Napakaamo ng mukha niya.

Inagaw ni Eunwoo ang cellphone niya at ngumiti." She's cute, isn't she? "

Napanganga ang mga kaibigan niya habang nakatitig sa kanya.

"Don't tell me---"

"That child is yours?"

Bumuntong hininga siya at ngumiti.

"I wish she was, but she isn't" malungkot na sabi niya, bumuntong hininga siya at naupo ulit sa couch.

"what do you mean? care to explain? and who is this girl?" tuloy tuloy na tanong ni Jungkook.

"I didn't know she was pregnant at first, I asked her out but she declined a million times. Pero napilit ko rin---" he stopped and smiled. "Nung nagkita kami nung araw na iyon, she told me she was pregnant right away, sinabi rin niya na tigilan ko na ang kahit na anong balak ko....I don't know, I was shocked but I can't leave... I liked her since the first time I met her---"

"Wait how about the childs father?" Tanong ni Jimin na katulad ko ay curious din.

"They broke up...and she didn't have the chance to tell him about her pregnancy"

Napanganga kaming lahat.

"So hindi alam nung tatay nung bata na buntis yung ex niya?" Umiling si Eunwoo.

"I dont even know who the guy is... All this time that I was with her, he never came or he never call or texted her... Guess he was happy living his life" He shrugged.Bakas sa mata niya ang galit sa lalaking iyon. Napabuntong hininga na naman siya.

"But I still envy him though"

"And why is that?" Tanong ni Bambam.

"She still loves him---"

"So why don't you just leave and find someone else? ---"

"Because I'm not like his ex, who chose to leave her to chase his dreams. Tanga na kung tanga but I'm willing to wait until she's ready." Eunwoo answered cutting Mingyu off.

"but what if bumalik yung tatay?" tanong ni Jungkook.

"I won't give up without a fight"

Napalunok ako matapos kong maalala ang mga usapan namin nung gabing iyon. Paano kung ako yung tinutukoy ni Eunwoo na ex nung babaeng gusto niya? Paano kung ako talaga yung ex niya? If that is all true then that means, the girl is Kara... And that baby is Mine? Ibig sabihin may anak kaming dalawa at iyon ay si Celine?

My heart melts at the thought, Kaya ba ang gaan gaan ng loob ko sa batang iyon?

Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko dahil sa mga naiisip ko. What if it's all true? Paano kung si Kara nga takaga iyon? Paano kung may anak nga talaga kami?

Kung totoo man iyon bakit niya itinago? At bakit hanggang ngayon ay hindi parin niya sinasabi sa akin ang totoo? Bakit hanggang ngayon ay hindi parin niya sinasabi saakin ang tungkol doon?

"If you can't bear to have any responsibilities you better not show your face infront of her again---"

"Dahil baka hindi mo kayanin ang mga responsibilidad na naghihintay sayo..."

Napalunok ako nung maalala ko ang mga sinabi ni Brax saakin nung araw na nalaman kong hindi sila mag jowa ni Kara.

Yung pagkakaroon ba ng anak ang sinasabi niyang responsibilidad na hindi ko kakayanin? Yun ba?

Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko. Paano kung iyon nga ang gusto niyang iparating saakin?

The other part of me is getting giddy and excited about the thought of having a daughter with Kara. I'm getting excited about the thought of being a father.I'm getting excited to be Celine's dad.

But there's also a part of me that's scared. Paano kung hindi pala totoo? Ayaw ko namang paasahin ang sarili ko.
May anak ba talaga kami ni Kara? Si Eunwoo ba yung lalaking tinutukoy niya na kasama niya simula nung maghiwalay kami? O masyado lang akong nag-iisip ng kung ano-ano?

Am I just being paranoid or is my guts telling me the truth?

I sighed again. This is just too messed up. Hindi ko na maintindihan. Napaka gulo ng lahat!

Well there's only one way to find out.