Kara's POV

Tinititigan ko si Baby Celine habang mahimbing siyang natutulog. I wasn't expecting to  have a baby yet at this age, but now that she's here I feel like I was born to be her mom.

"Ang tangos naman ng ilong mo" I whispered and touched her nose.

"Syempre mana sa tatay" sagot ni Yareli na nakahalukipkip sa may pintuan. Pumasok siya at naupo sa couch.

"Kanina ka pa?" Tanong ko sa kanya.Tumango siya.

Today is December 31 and napagplanuhan ng mga parents namin na icelebrate ang New Year ng magkakasama.

Tumabi ako kay Yareli sa couch, ngiting ngiti siya na hindi mo alam kung nababaliw na ba.

"What?!" natatawang tanong ko.

"What's the real score between you two?"

"What score? between me and?"

I know what she's talking about, I just don't know how to answer it. Simply because I really don't know.

"Maangmaangan sis? nanganak ka lang nagka amnesia ka na?" she said rolling her eyes.

"Seriously Kara Vixen stop acting dumb, what's the score? " tumingin siya sa akin ng seryoso at naghihintay ng sagot. Her eyes we're demanding.

"And don't ask me who because you obviously know who am I talking about" tuloy niya.

"What score? We're friends" I shrugged.

"Duh! You just told him you love him after you gave birth!" She said very dramatically.

Napabuntong-hininga ako at ipinikit ang mga mata ko. I don't want to remember such embarrassing moment. Nakakahiya! My family was there and witnessed it. Antanga ko talaga nung time na yon!

I shook my head and I heard Yareli gasped.

"Oh my God! Don't tell me....."

Tumingin ako sa kanya and sighed, I think I know what she's thinking.

"You thought he was Taehyung?!"

I closed my eyes as I slowly nodded my head.

Ipinatong nila ang baby sa dibdib ko, My little angel. I smiled at her at hinaplos siya. Welcome to this world
my little one,

Keanna Celine Agoncillo.

I looked at the hand that was holding mine while I was giving birth. I smiled.

he's here. I can't believe it.

He leaned down and kissed the top of my head." You made it, Kara"

"I love you" I said and kissed him.

"Merry Christmas" he replied.

Now I remembered why he answered Merry Christmas when I told him I love him.

I closed my eyes again feeling the embarassment creep into my veins.

"Have you talked to him about it?"

Umiling ako. Hindi ko naman alam yun nung una. I really don't have any clue about it. Pero tinanong kasi ako ni Kuya Kayden kung kami na daw ba ni Eunwoo. Cause even our parents are confused. And I told him no, then tinanong niya kung bakit ko hinalikan si Eunwoo and even told him I love him. And that's when it hit me. I realized that it was Eunwoo and not Taehyung that day.

I'm fucking stupid.

"I never got the chance....." sagot ko.

"You need to explain to him, ayaw mo naman sigurong paasahin yung tao---"

"Unless......." ngumiti na naman siya ng nakakaloko and wiggled her eyebrows.

"Unless what?" I asked. Inirapan niya ako at humalukipkip. Ako naman ay tumayo and acted busy while rummaging through the bookshelf.

"Unless you have feelings for him or nasundan pa yung halik na yon... " she said. Napatigil ako sa ginagawa ko and gulped.

The night when he kissed me flashbacked on my mind and I felt guilty! Because I was thinking of Taehyung when he kissed me. And I feel like I was cheating on Taehyung. When in reality wala na kami, I shouldn't feel that way I know. But I can't help it.

"I strongly believe in the saying... 'silence means yes'" Yareli said.

I stared at her, napaawang naman ang bibig niya

"I knew it!" She squealed.

Napabuntong hininga na naman ako. Ayokong paasahin si Eunwoo, he's too good and I don't want to hurt him. I clearly made it clear with him nung una pa lang. Pero I can't do anything he's the one who's insisting that he wanted to wait till I'm ready. And I'm not complaining. It's just that, I don't know if I'll be ready anytime soon.

"Sooooooo?" tanong ni Yareli, snapping me out of my thoughts.

"I don't know... I'm not yet ready" I sighed.

She nodded her head at tumayo sa harap ko. "Eunwoo's not rushing you, as far as I know he told Tita Serene that he's willing to wait" sabi niya.

"I don't want to hurt him"

She smiled and patted my back. "Don't be too hard on yourself, go with the flow"

"Hindi naman maiiwasan ang hindi masaktan, when he chose to stay and wait for you. He already knows that he entered a war."

"Whether you accept his love or not, tatanggapin niya yon. Because he signed up for it, alam niyang walang kasiguraduhan ang pag hihintay niya. But he still chose to stay and wait."

"Love is not always rainbows and butterflies, ofcourse there's hurricane and thunderstorms" sabi niya at natawa naman ako.

"What? take it from the expert" she flipped her hair and rolled her eyes. Na mas lalong nagpatawa sa akin.

"huy! tumigil ka nga baka magising yung pamangkin ko" sabi niya tsaka tinabihan si Baby Celine sa kama.

"wag ka ng masyadong mag-isip, magbabagong taon na oh! Let go of the past. " sabi niya at ngumiti nalang ako.

"But pano mo nalaman yung sinabi niya kay mommy?" Tanong ko sa kanya.

"Duh! Ikaw kaya ang topic namin sa baba kanina, you know chismosa ako" nakangiting sabi niyan

"let's stop talking about me, how about you? Kumusta naman ang puso mo?" I asked at naupo rin sa kama.

Inilagay niya ang kamay niya sa dibdib niya."Ayos lang, tumitibok pa naman" she shrugged. This time ako naman ang umirap sa kanya.

"Who's the guy?" tanong ko.

"wala... I'm single and enjoying life"

"Wow! the Famous Yareli Fye Milan?" She rolled her eyes at me and I laughed.

"what's so surprising? I mean I'm sick and tired of games na. Gusto ko na ng pangmatagalan" she sighed.

"Men are trash anyways, why would I bother dating? Sakit sa ulo" She mumbled.

"Nako! baka naman kasi namimiss mo si Lucas?" tanong ko. She glared at me and I put my hands up in defense.

I know she loved Lucas, that stupid guy who cheated on her. Kahit na ikaila niya I know it. Minahal niya yon kahit na sandali lang silang nagsama.

"Tsk Tsk Tsk...." naiiling na sabi ko.

Inirapan na naman niya tsaka tumayo mula sa pagkakahiga.

"Ano? Wag mong sabihing mahal ko pa si Lucas cause I swear to God, Kara Vixen... I'll poke your eyes out" She warned natawa lang ako.

"Hindi naman yon ang sasabihin ko"

"Then what?!" tanong niyang naka halukipkip ang mga kamay.

"baka naman may napupusuan ka, kaya ayaw mo sa iba" I told her.

"At sino naman ha? Men are Trash---"

"Not all men are trash Yareli Fye, hindi porket trash si Lucas idadamay mo na lahat.Hindi mo pa naman nakakarelasyon lahat ng lalake, Madami pa namang matino jan--"

"Give me an example Kara, Except Taehyung cause he's on the trash list already"

"Drake? your highschool crush?"

"He is Trash! He told me he liked me then I found out na may nilalandi siyang iba ewwww."

"hmmmm... Clinton? Yung pinakilala ni mommy mo sayo---"

"Trash! Trash! Trash! caught him  screwing some bimbo"

"Kuya Kayden"

Sinadya ko talagang sabihin yung mga pangalan ng mga naging ex niya para masabi ko yung pangalan ni kuya sa huli.

"Tr--- not Trash, he's like the Ideal type of every woman on this planet."

Namula agad ang mukha niya. Gotcha. Alam ko namang may gusto si Yareli kay Kuya Kayden dati pa. Pero wala eh, hindi interesado si Kuya.

"Ugh! Pwede bang totoong tao Kara Vixen? Like hindi nga ako pinapansin ng kuya mo---"

"Totoong tao naman siya ah" Natatawang sabi ko.

"Yeah but can I date him?" Tanong niya. "Yes you can" Sagot ko. Namula na naman siya.

"Ugh" She rolled her eyes, then smiled sweetly. "Tutulungan mo ba ako sa kuya mo?" tanong niya.

"pag naging totoong tao na siya" sagot ko.

"Panira ka talaga, na imagine ko na yung future namin eh---"

"so iniimagine mo yung kuya ko?"

Tumigil siya at lumunok. "Nevermind."

"Bitter" sabi ko sa kanya. "Bulag!" She retorted, binato ko siya ng unan and we both laughed.

Natigil kami sa pag-aasaran nang umiyak si Baby Celine.

"Hi baby!" I cooed and carried her.Pinadede ko muna siya pagkatapos ay binihisan ko dahil bababa na kami.

Nagkatinginan kami ni Yareli ng may biglang kumatok sa pinto.

"Is baby Celine awake?" tanong ni Kuya na nakasilip sa pinto.

"Yes" I smiled and winked at Yareli. Inirapan na naman niya ako. Tuluyan ng pumasok sa loob si kuya at dumiretso sa amin ni baby Celine.

"Oh hi, Yareli" bati ni Kuya ng mapansin niya itong nakaupo sa couch.

"H-Hi Kuya" Napaismid ako dahil sa reaction ni Yareli. Parang siyang nagulat na ano.

"Ibababa ko na si Baby Celine ha, gusto makalaro ni dad eh" sabi ni  Kuya.

"Sure sunod din kami sa baba, Kuya"

Lumabas na si Kuya karga-karga si Baby Celine kaya kami nalang ni Yareli ang nandito.

"Mukha kang kamatis" sabi ko sa kanya habang inaayos ang buhok ko.

"Vixen, I am so not prepared!!! malay ko bang papansinin niya ako!" she said while fanning herself.

"Tawang - tawa ka jan ha, mamaya ka lang pag dating ni Lover boy" sabi niya sa akin. Umiling lang ako at nagpatuloy sa pagsusuklay.

Bumaba na rin kami ni Yareli pagkatapos naming mag-ayos. Yung design nung christmas eh natanggal na. Napalitan na iyon ng gold at black na mga balloons. May naka set-up ding photo booth sa may garden. Meron ding Naka set-up na projector at white screen dito sa loob para sa karaoke mamaya.

Yung dining table naman ay gold at black din ang set-up.

"Look may headbands" sabi ni Yareli sabay turo sa mga headbands na nasa basket. May 'Happy New Year' and 'cheers' na nakalagay sa taas.

Pumunta kami sa sala kung nasaan sila Daddy at Tito Enrique pati na si Kuya Kayden. Si Daddy na ang may hawak kay Baby Celine.

"Oh Kara, wala pa ba si Eunwoo?" Tanong ni Daddy.

"wala pa dad, mamaya ho siguro---"

I was cut off by someone ringing the doorbell.

"That must be him" sabi ni Kuya Kayden, nagpaalam ako sa kanila at lumabas para buksan ang gate.

"Hi!" Bati niya pagka bukas ko sa gate. He was wearing a simple white long sleeves, na naka roll hanggang sa siko ang sleeves and a dark wash jeans.

"You look good" sabi ko sa kanya. Lumaki ang pagkakangiti niya. "I prefer handsome" biro niya.

Ipinakita niya ang dala dala niyang cake sa magkabilang kamay. "Nag-abala ka pa"

"It's fine" he winked.

"Bakit dalawa pa?" Tanong ko habang isinasara ang gate.

"Para masaya" he chuckled. Pumasok na kami sa bahay.

Bubuksan ko na sana ang pinto pero tumigil siya.

"What?" natatawang tanong ko.

Tinitigan niya ako at lalong ngumiti. "Did I tell you that you look beautiful?" tanong niya.

"Psh. Bolero" I mumbled.

"Not kidding" sabi niya tsaka umiling.

"Tara na nga sa loob" Binuksan ko ang pinto at Sinalubong kami ni Yareli. Kinuha niya ang cake mula kay Eunwoo.

"Lover boy! anjan ang parents. Magpadagdag points ka muna" sabi ni Yareli bago pumunta sa kusina.

Eunwoo just chuckled..

"Goodevening Tito" he greeted my dad. Pati na si Kuya Kayden.

"Goodevening Hijo"

Si kuya naman ay nakipag fistbump sa kanya.

"Ah tito Enrique this is Eunwoo, my fr---"

"Boyfriend mo?" Tanong ni Tito Enrique. Sasagot sana ako kaso bumaling agad siya kay Eunwoo. "Goodevening sir, I'm Cha Eunwoo."

Tito Enrique shook his hand and smiled. "Call me Tito, you're good looking son, baka madami ka ng napaiyak ha" biro ni Tito.

"Wala pa nga po eh"

"And don't even try, wag mong pa iiyakin si Kara ha? She's like a daughter to me. Just like Yareli to Dominique and Serenity." sabi ni Tito.

"I promise sir" sagot ni Eunwoo.Natawa naman si Dad at Tito Enrique.

"Dad! wag mong takutin! Halika na nga don dad, mag picture tayo sa photo booth!" Aya ni Yareli kay Tito Enrique.

Pumunta nga sila sa garden kasama pa si tita Felicity. Si Kuya naman ay nagpaalam na magbibihis sa taas and Dad also went to change. Kaya kami nalang ni Eunwoo ang naiwan, karga-karga na niya si baby Celine.

"Nasan si Tita Serene?" tanong niya.

"Nasa kitchen, nagluluto pa" He nodded and itinuloy ang pagmemake face sa harap ni Baby Celine.

"Cute ko diba baby?" Tanong niya, bahagya namang ngumiti si Celine.

"Okay lang bang maiwan ka muna dito?" I asked him. Tinignan niya ako at ngumiti.

"Kararating ko palang iiwan mo na agad ako? Pano na tong baby natin?" madramang tanong niya.

Natawa ako sa kanya. "Tutulungan ko lang si mommy maghanda."

"Okay, sure... Make sure to comeback for us" sabi niya tsaka hinawakan ang kamay ko.

"Babye mommy!" sabi niya in a baby voice. Nakangiti naman akong umalis at dumiretso sa kusina.

"You look happy" sabi ni mommy ng nakangiti. Inabot ko ang apron at isinuot yon bago sumagot.

"Because I am happy, mom"

"I know you are, Pero iba yung glow mo mukha kang in love!" she squealed habang hinahalo yung niluluto niya.

"Mom!"

"Maybe having Celine gave you that glow---" Tumigil siya at sumilip sa may sala. Kitang kita dito si Eunwoo at Baby Celine.

"or maybe because of that handsome young man named Eunwoo who's carrying your baby?" mapanuksong sabi ni mommy, tumingin ulit siya kina Eunwoo at bumaling sa akin na may mapanuksong mga ngiti.

"Mom! stop it, baka marinig ka niya" Suway ko sa kanya.

"So It's True?" bulong niya habang nakasilip sa may sala. "He plays well with Celine, para silang mag-ama no?"

"Mom, Stop!" Natatawang sabi ko. Umiling nalang ako at ipinagpatuloy ang ginagawa ko. Sumilip ako sa may sala at nagtama ang mga mata namin.

He smiled at me then he winked. Iniwas ko ang tingin ko.

"Pasulyap-sulyap ka't kunwari'y
Patingin-tingin sa akin, Di maintindihan ang ibig mong sabihin" Mom sang a little too loud kasi pagtingin ko kay Eunwoo ay nakatingin parin siya sa akin. I gulped.

"Kung mayro'ng pag-ibig ay
Ipagtapat mo na sa akin
Agad naman kitang sasagutin"

"Mom!" May pagbabanta sa tono ko.

"What I'm just singing... depende nalang kung affected ka sa lyrics" Mapanuksong sabi niya.

Am I affected or Am I just being carried away?