Eunwoo's POV

"You look happy" sabi ni Taehyung hyung at umakbay sa akin.

"Happy birthday hyung!" sagot ko.Natawa siya at tinanggal ang pagkakaakbay sa akin. "Not the answer I was expecting, but thank you"

Today is December 30, and it's Taehyung hyungs birthday. Kami-kami lang naman ang nandito sa apartment nila since ayaw niyang mag celebrate ng bonggang party.

Nagluto si Jin Hyung ng dinner namin tapos ngayon naman inuman na.

"So kumusta naman kayo?" tanong niya.

Umiwas ako ng tingin at ngumiti. "I think I'm falling, hyung"

"nag confess ka na?"

Umiling ako. "Honestly, I wanted to. Pero natatakot pa ako."

"You know what? ---" uminom siya sa hawak niyang beer at hinawakan ako sa balikat. "Tell her, confess to her. And if she rejects you, stay. "

"Prove to her that you're really serious about her. Rejections make you stronger, remember that" he said smiling.

"what if maging awkward? I mean... we've gotten closer, and I don't want to ruin that" I sighed.

"It won't trust me. If she values your friendship more then you can still be friends" he took a swig from his beer again. "bakit ba kasi iniisip mo agad yung worst case scenario? hindi mo pa nga nasusubukan eh"

"Just tell her how you feel, and respect whatever her decision is"

"Thanks hyung" I said.

"Hoy! ano yan heart to heart talk ba yan?" tanong ni Jimin hyung tsaka naupo sa harap namin. Inabutan niya ako ng panibagong beer.

"just giving some advices" sabi ni Taehyung hyung."Nako! nakakapagbigay ka ng advice sa iba, pero sarili mo di mo mapayuhan?" tanong ni Jimin hyung na natatawa.

"May problema ka din hyung?" baling ko kay Taehyung hyung. "Mahal pa niya yung ex niya" sagot ni Jimin hyung.

"kuha lang ako ng beer" sabi ni Taehyung hyung tsaka tumayo at umalis.

"Oh kita mo"sabi ni Jimin hyung." what happened hyung? "I asked Jimin hyung.

" I think that's the saddest part or breaking up, yung alam niyong mahal niyo pa ang isa't isa but you have to let eachother go"saad ni Jimin hyung. "he's still in love with his ex" tuloy niya.

Napatingin ako kay Taehyung Hyung na nakikipag-usap kina Namjoon hyung at Yoongi hyung sa kusina.

He looks fine on the outside, you may think na wala talaga siyang problema pag titignan mo siya sa labas. Pero sa loob pala may dinaramdam din. Ganyan din siguro ang nararamdaman ni Kara? She looks perfectly fine on the outside, but there's too much going on inside of her.

"Why don't hyung just talk to her? and try to win her back?" Tanong ko.

"He has his reasons" he shrugged.

Sabagay, if it was that easy then sana ginawa na niya nung una palang. But seeing that wala pa rin siyang ginagawa after all this time means may magandang rason. Besides they don't have a dating ban, they're free to date.

"Oy Eunwoo!!" Sigaw ni Jungkook at tumabi sa akin.

"Anong plano mo bukas? New Years Eve?" tanong niya.

"Oo nga!" Sabat ni Hobi hyung na galing naman sa kusina at may hawak na pagkain.

"Ah, may pupuntahan kasi ako bukas" sabi ko at ngumiti.

"Ooooh are you going to celebrate New Year's eve together?" mapanuksong tanong ni Jungkook.

"Maybe?" sagot ko at tumawa.

"Hoooo Eunwoo's finally getting himself a girlfriend" tukso ni Jimin hyung.

"May celebration bang magaganap pag sinagot ka niya Eunwoo?" tanong ni Namjoon hyung.

"Oo naman Hyung, kung sasagutin ako" ngiti ko.

"Ipagpe-pray namin yan" sabi ni Taehyung hyung.

"How's the baby?" Hobi hyung asked. Ngumiti ako at inilabas ang cellphone ko at ipinakita ang picture namin ni baby Celine.

"woah she's really cute" nakangiting sabi ni Hobi hyung. Kinuha din ni Taehyung hyung ang cellphone at nakangiting tinitigan ang picture.

"She's really an angel" sabi niya.

"She is hyung" sagot ko. Tumabi si Jungkook sa akin at binigyan ako ng mapanuksong ngiti.

"Kailan mo balak mag confess?" tanong niya.

"I don't know, baka hindi pa siya handa eh" I shrugged.

"What are you being a scaredy cat? You are Cha Eunwoo!" He said and patted me on the back.

"Gwapo ka! ano pa ba?...." Tinignan niya ako habang nasa baba niya ang isang kamay niya na parang nag-iisip.

"Maalaga"

"Matipuno!"sabi ni Hobi hyung.

"Maagang nagigising!" sabi naman ni Yoongi Hyung.

"Mabait!" sabi naman ni Jimin hyung.

"Matalino!" Namjoon hyung.

"at higit sa lahat malaki!.... ang puso!" sabi ni Taehyung hyung. Lahat naman kami ay natawa.

Lumabas si Jin Hyung galing sa kusina na may dala-dalang cake. "Kumpleto ba ang birthday kung walang cake?"

"Oo naman, kahit may cake kung wala yung may birthday di wala rin?mali ba ako hyung? " sagot naman ni Yoongi hyung.

Nagtawanan kami bago kinantahan si Taehyung hyung ng happy birthday.

"Okay hindi pa 11:11 pero, make a wish make a wish" sabi ni Hobi hyung sa kanya.

He closed his eyes and blew the candles off. "Anong wish mo?" Tanong ni Jimin hyung.

"Dapat ba alam niyo?" natatawang sabi niya. "Malay mo ma grant namin yung wish mo"

He shrugged and just smiled.

Taehyung's POV

"Okay hindi pa 11:11 pero, make a wish make a wish" sabi ni Hobi hyung.

I closed my eyes, actually I don't know if I should wish or shouldn't, because I don't even know if it will come true or not.I blew the candles of thinking about one thing. "Anong wish mo?" Tanong ni Jimin.

"Dapat ba alam niyo?" natatawang sabi ko. "Malay mo ma grant namin yung wish mo"

I shrugged and smiled. Actually I don't think that what I wished for could be granted.Just like what I wished for christmas, and what I wished for everyday.

I want her back.

And everyday I wished and prayed for it to come true. Even though I know It's impossible. Sasabihin ng iba na I can just talk to her and try to win her back. But it's really not that easy, there are some stuff that is too complicated right now. And I don't want her to drag in that situation.

"hyung" lumingon ako kay Eunwoo, inabutan niya ako ng beer.

"Care to share? I can also give advices" sabi niya.

Napabuntong-hininga ako at tumingala sa langit.

"Jimin probably already told you"

"Not the whole story, but he told me you still love your ex" sagot niya at uminom ng beer.

Napangiti ako, I never stopped loving her. My first and only love.

"Hindi naman iyon nawala eh, she's still the girl I wanted to marry. The one I wanna grow old with"

"Then what's stopping you hyung?"

"Lahat, I don't want our fans to hate her when they find out about her. She doesn't deserve that---"

"Hyung, If they really are your fans they'll be happy for you. They'll support you whether you have a girlfriend or not" sabi niya.

"you told me this earlier hyung, 'bakit ka kasi nag-iisip ng worst-case scenario? hindi mo pa nga nasusubukan eh" tuloy niya.

I sighed again and ran my fingers through my hair.

"You know I admire you for mindset, sana ako rin ganyan"

Eunwoo's really have a mature mind, he know how to handle things like this.

Tinapik niya ako sa balikat at ngumiti.

"let me ask you a question hyung, If they asked you to choose between love and career what would you choose?" Tanong niya.

Napatigil ako sa tanong niya.

"Would you choose career? over love? or would you choose love? over career?"

"Nung hindi ko pa siya nakikilala, And if they asked me that question? I would definitely answer that I would choose career---"he smiled.

" but it all changed when I met her. "pagtutuloy niya.

He chuckled and tapped my back again. "Why would you choose when you can have both hyung? I mean you can still have your career without giving up love. " he shrugged.

"I mean if you choose career, you'll achieve something, yes. Pero masaya ka ba? Is it worth it? I don't think so."

What he said is the best explanation of me right now. I achieved my dream, Am I happy? Yes I am. I love what I'm doing and I gained 6 brothers.

But am I truly happy? Yung kasiyahan bang ito ay katumbas nung kami pa ni Kara? No.

I'm starting to think if it was all worth it, giving up love for this lifestyle. But I can't turn back now. This is the path I chose.

"If I can only turn back time, siguradong susundin ko ang payo mo" I answered.

"It's never too late hyung, What if she's just waiting for you to come back?" tanong niya.

I smiled sadly. I shouldn't have said na maghanap siya ng bagong papalit sa akin. But I can't be selfish and tell her to wait for me.

"I told her to find someone who can fulfill his promises, cause I can't be that person for her anymore."

"I left my number one fan hanging" I said.

"You said she's your number one fan then she's still supporting you even when you two broke up, trust me hyung. Maybe she's just waiting for you"

"Sana nga may babalikan pa ako...." I whispered.

The thought of her with someone else is killing me. Wala pa naman siguro siyang bago diba?

"Hyung, wag kang panghinaan ng loob. You love her? then fight for her"

"Thank You" I told him.

"No worries hyung, you gave me advices when I needed one"

"So will you confess to her?" tanong ko. He smiled and nodded.

"Ikaw hyung? Are you ready to take your number one fan back?" tanong niya.

"Soon"

"Cheers!" sabi naming dalawa and clink our bottles together.

Maybe the talk with Eunwoo helped me to get my shit together. Maybe I need to man up and talk to her.Alam ko namang maiintindihan niya, sana lang mapatawad niya ako.

Because there are things I didn't want her to know, because it might hurt her. I lied for her sake, And I hope she'll understand.

and I hope the news won't reach her. Not until I explained everthing to her.