22. Healing Is D I F F I C U L T
Fergal's POV
I watched Trinity sleep peacefully. The entire flight she was talking a mile a minute, and so we could avoid drama and scandals I charted a private jet for us. She's really been through a lot and when she asked me to go to Mexico I wasn't going to let her go alone.
But, what I have realized lately is there is a sadness about her. She still smiles, but I can see the sadness in her eyes. I check on her every so often. Seems like her husband is neglecting her, and her boyfriend. I am not judging her about her situation, but I need her to be respected. Part of me wanted to confront Dean about his involvement with Mj.
Why would he freeze up when his wife asked if he still loved his ex? I just can't wrap my head around that.
I was laying on the other bed laying down looking at my phone. Trinity started to stir around and she turned over. I put her bonnet on her head earlier because I know she's very particular about her hair and she literally fell asleep once we got to the hotel.
She got out of her bed, and came over to mine. I am trying to be as cautious with her as possible. Men take advantage of her left and right. I just want to be there for her and for her to know she has a friend. Trinity laid in my arms and looked up at me. "Let's get drunk... I just want to forget everything back home."
We are in Mexico, and she does love to drink. "Okay Trinity... but no hooking up with the locals." I teased her, and moved away from her subtly so she wouldn't notice.
Trinity rolled her eyes at me. "So.. you gotta girlfriend or something?"
"Trinity you know I don't do girlfriends. But, no I am just trying to respect you."
"Well... what if I wanted you to fuck me?" She said, so straight to the point. One thing I do like about black women, they don't beat around the bush. She's always been like that with me. But, she is definitely catching me off guard.
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Seth's POV
"How the fuck does my wife just up and leave like that?" Dean said, tearing up shit in my apartment and all I could do was just sit there. I really wish we were in Vegas so he can mess up his own shit, but I rarely come here. So, maybe he just needs to let it all out.
"Why does she think that you're in love with Mj?" I asked, trying to put all the pieces together. Why did she leave with Finn of all people? I didn't even know they were cool. I have never heard her talk about him that much.
"She asked me in front of her and I froze. It's a touchy subject. Before I even introduced you to her she helped me with my addiction problem. I got clean for her, and she was there with me. When I quit everything cold turkey and I was going through withdrawal. Monique was with me while I was shaking, throwing up, losing my shit. She never once left my side. So the short answer is I will always love her to death for that, but I am not in love with her."
He never told me about that. I knew he struggled with drugs in the past, but I didn't know that Monique helped him get clean. Things make more since now. "You should have told Trinity. She's your wife. She would understand. You just saying nothing sounds guilty." I said, now knowing more of the situation.
"It's just hard to talk about still. I was such a horrible person back then because of the drugs. Because of trying to self-medicate from my childhood. Trinity and Leilani are the blessings I don't deserve." Dean said, reflecting and sitting down on the floor. I never see him like this, and now I am worried.
"I mean the are very special and with all the stupid shit you do you don't deserve them. Don't take it the wrong way. Trinity puts up with a lot. You remember you was drunk at the babyshower and I had to help. You check out a lot, and neither one of them deserves it. The issues at work. Trinity confronted these females, because she saw text messages and pictures in your phone. She was suspended over it. You didn't try to smooth shit over with Trips. I could have gone with you to talk to him. It got so bad that I had to do it. It shouldn't have gotten that far." I confessed. He can be mad with me, but I had to get it off of my chest. I sat down next to him on the floor.
"I know I fuck up a lot. It's like I was very attentive and there for her when she was going through her divorce with Uce, but then when I finally got her I didn't know what to do. It's just hard." He started crying, and in all my years of knowing him he's never cried in front of me.
"It's okay man. You just need to talk to your wife. Now, she's gone somewhere with Finn. Aunt Junie knows, but I don't know where they went. Take this time to get your thoughts together. Maybe try marriage counseling."
"Counseling. therapy doesn't work for me." He said, wiping his eyes. I am just offering suggestions. There's nothing else I can do.
"Try it with your wife. If you don't get help you could potentially lose your wife and daughter. They don't deserve that and you need to work through that stuff that happened in your childhood."
"I know.. I will talk to Trinity when she gets back. But, Finn I am going to beat his ass when I see him. He's going to try to slide in just I did..when Uce cheated on Trinity. Fuck!" Dean got up and went into the bedroom and shut the door. I don't know what he's going to do, but I need to figure out what the hell I am going to do with Alicia.
Marti keeps blowing up my phone saying she heard about my situation with Alicia. I just don't need this right now. I shouldn't have messed with Alicia again knowing how clingy she is. But, I am going to ask to go to the doctor's appointment with her. I will atleast do that for her until the baby gets here.
Then I will know whether or not it's my baby or someone else's. Shit, for all I know it could be Edge's baby. Or even Roman's baby. But, I am always careful with her, so I am not sure why she thinks it's mine.
I still don't like Trips was trying to fuck Trinity and she didn't even tell me about it. She normally tells me everything, but I guess she feels like since I do tell Dean when we're intimate that I have betrayed her trust. The guilt eats me up and I just can't keep that away from him. He's my best friend, but I don't know if Trinity will stay with him or not. She seems like she's really done with both of us.
A/n: Sorry for the delay .. im a bit more consistent with my updating. Super busy at work and my personal life... anyways!!!!
What y'all think of Trinity and Finn? Y'all think she's gonna have Sex with him? What will happen in Mexico?
Dean finally telling someone why he has such a strong bond with Mj? Thoughts ?
Where does Seth fit into all this?
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