"Bro, Lari, one of your exes, is looking for you, man... You were with her just last week daw?"

Yes... Yes. That was right. Because I had been spending the past days seeing and apologizing to the people I hurt before. Surely, that sounded so wrong in Kierra's head. She immediately stood up and walked away.

"Bro, don't mention shit like that next time without context," I whispered to my friend with a glare before running so I could chase Kierra pero mas binilisan niya lang ang lakad niya nang mapansing hinahabol ko siya. 

"Ke! Huwag mo 'kong iwan!" At may isa pang sumunod. The one I kissed in the club before. She was easy to remember because she rejected me. Kissed me and suddenly left me like a dumbass. I... deeply fucking regretted that. 

I held Kierra's wrist when she was about to go to her car but the other woman stood in between us and threatened me. Hindi ko na maintindihan ang sinasabi niya sa sobrang bilis at dami. 

 "Kapag may ginawa ka sa pinsan ko, hindi kita patatahimikin kahit kailan! Guguluhin ko 'yong buhay mo at hahabulin kita hanggang sa maging pamilyado ka na! Naiintindihan mo, ha?!"

Tumango na lang ako. Hanggang sa pamilyado na 'ko, huh? Wala naman akong balak gumawa ng pamilya. Inirapan pa nga niya ako. 

"Are you mad at me?" I knew she was mad at me for making her wait... but I was assuming that that anger already faded away, that she just realized she didn't want to bother herself with my shit anymore, that she didn't care anymore. 

"Hindi. Bakit naman ako magagalit sa 'yo? May ginawa ka ba?" Okay, clearly, she was mad although she was saying she wasn't.

"I'm sorry I was late last time... When I arrived, you already left. You also weren't answering my texts and my calls. I even messaged you on Instagram, but you ignored me," I tried to explain, but it looked like she wasn't convinced. I really tried to contact her for days, apologizing, but she never returned any of my calls or messages. I was thinking that maybe she blocked me already. 

"So, bakit ka late?" That was what she wanted to know. 

"I..." I couldn't say it. Come on, Shan. It... It shouldn't be this hard. Just say it. You had a fight with your dad. "I had an emergency." 

I still couldn't do it. By now, I was thinking to myself that it should already be easier to open up about me and my dad not being on good terms, but I was afraid... because it looked like she had a nice family... that she wouldn't understand the gravity of that fight... or I was afraid that she will say that I shouldn't fight with my dad because he was still family to me. 

Would you understand if I told you? Would you not tell me to just 'make up' with him because he's still my dad? Would you?

"Anong klaseng emergency?" I couldn't talk. I couldn't answer. It... wasn't that easy all along. It did not become easier. The number of times I told the story never made it easier for me to tell it again. "No, you know what? Huwag mo nang sagutin. Kasalanan ko naman na nagpapaniwala ako sa mga pinagsasasabi mo. I completely forgot what type of man you are."

"And what type of man am I?" I seriously asked.

"You're a lying jerk who likes playing with people's feelings. You have no respect. You're happy as long as you're not the one wasting your time. You like fucking around and disguising your acts as 'jokes,' so you won't be responsible for them. That... That's how you are."

I knew my eyes were staring at her face, but my mind felt blank for a second. "You fucking liar! You have no respect for this family!" The memory of my mother screaming at my dad during a fight played inside my head. "You're happy fucking around and messing with other people's lives! And who will be responsible for that pain, huh?! Who?!" 

Ah... We were... similar all along. 

"That day, my dad..." I wanted to change her perception of me, but the thoughts inside my head clouded my mind. "Nevermind. Take care on your way home." 

I started walking away until I reached my car. I just sat in the driver's seat for God knows how long while staring at nowhere. I held my head and massaged it while taking deep breaths. 

"My dad... When I was a child, he told me that I should grow up like him and not like my mom," I told my doctor while staring outside her office window. "I didn't know what he meant. If that was supposed to be something good, I still couldn't understand because growing up, I never saw any good trait that I could possibly get from him." 

"Did he add something to what he said?" 

"He said... I should grow up like him, so I would understand the things he was doing before... and if I grow up like my mom, I'd just be a lying, pathetic bitch who will eventually beg him on her knees." I still remembered everything he said. All those things that lived inside my head for years. He said a lot of awful stuff before. "It makes me wonder, though, did I grow up like my dad or my mom?"

"Don't you think it isn't any of the two? That is also another option in that question. You are you, Shan. You are not your mom nor your dad."

I smiled bitterly, still looking outside the window. "You think so? Because I think I'm growing up like a mixture of them. I think I'm starting to hurt other people because of my problems, like how they hurt me before because of theirs." 

"May I know why? Has anything happened recently, Shan?" she asked, concerned. 

"I didn't want to lie." I didn't know there were already tears running down my cheeks. I smiled painfully. "But God... It feels so easier to lie than to open up." 

"I understand, Shan. Opening up to another person is not something that you can do in a snap of a finger. You need preparation, you need trust, you need to build a deeper relationship, and most importantly, you need to be comfortable. Not being able to open up does not make you a bad person, Shan. If you feel bad about lying, next time, maybe you should step back first and say that you need more time, that it's not something light that you could easily say. Maybe the other person also needs to know that it is not something as easy as saying your favorite color or your favorite food. It is much more and deeper than that." 

"I do... I do feel bad. I feel so bad." I covered my eyes with my hands and let my head fall back on the couch.

"If you feel bad and you think that you made a mistake, then you know what to do to ease that feeling. It is not too late to apologize, remember? You have been doing that for the past week. Take your time... Think about what you are feeling. Think about what you did and how to fix that. If you really want to open up to this person but you couldn't, then build a relationship with trust. You will know when you're ready." 

"One iced americano. The free drink could be a latte, kung puwede. That will be all."

While she was looking away, I grabbed a pad of sticky notes and wrote something after preparing her order. I stared at it for so long, thinking if I should put the note there... or would it just piss her off? 

Apologize. You know how to do that, right? 

"Here's your order. Enjoy your day." I served two cups in front of her, nervous that she would see the note at the back... but she didn't. I felt relieved when she went out of the coffee shop.

I looked down on the floor while my hands were holding the edge of the counter. I sighed heavily, nervous at how she would reply... or would she even? 

"Where are you looking, Shan?" tanong ni Ericka at sinundan ang tinitingnan ko pero tinakpan ko lang ang gilid ko para hindi nila makita si Kierra. She was with her cousin at the restaurant next to us. 

shanlopez: Do you want to talk a bit? Let's go to the convenience store at the end of the street.

"I'll just buy something," paalam ko sa mga kaibigan ko.

"Ano? Yosi? Naninigarilyo ka na naman ba, bro?" tanong ni Arman sa akin. 

Tumawa ako sa kaniya at umiling. "I'm just going to buy some ice cream." 

"Buy mo rin kami ng ice cream!" sabi ni Helen.

Tumango na lang ako sa kanila at naglakad na papuntang convenience store. Kierra still followed although she didn't reply. Tumabi ako sa kaniya habang pumipili siya ng ice cream. 

"Let me make it up to you," mahinang sabi ko. "Let's go out. Let's go to a mall or something."

"Inaaya mo na naman ba ako mag-date?" She wasn't pleased by that. "Tapos? You will ditch me again?"

"I couldn't show myself to you last time." I couldn't show you my past... my scars, but I will try. "I'm going to be careful now."

"You always give vague answers... What makes you think I could trust what you're saying?"

Trust. That was what I was trying to build. I knew we already had trust in each other, but it wasn't enough for us to really show ourselves to each other. 

"I'm letting myself get played," mahinang sabi niya at natawa pa nang sarkastiko. 

"Only that I'm not playing." And I was saying the truth. "Not this time." 

I had no idea where this would take me. I had no idea what kind of relationship we were trying to build. Was it friendship or something deeper than that? Hindi ko alam kung anong naghihintay sa akin sa dulo nito pero gusto kong malaman. 

I wanted to know her. Tumingin lang siya sa akin at hindi nagsalita bago lumabas ng store. Natawa ako sa sarili ko dahil wala man lang siyang reaksyon sa sinabi ko. Pagkabalik ko sa table namin, wala man lang akong nadalang ice cream para sa mga kaibigan ko. 

"Then what did you get from the store?" tanong ni Helen sa akin. 

"I don't even know..." I looked back at Kierra's table. They were gone already. "I didn't even get an answer... but it's fine. I'm willing to wait." 

***

"Are you really willing to wait? Kukuhanin pa raw ang susi. Puwede naman tayong lumipat na sa susunod na destination." 

Nakaupo lang ako sa may gilid ng stage at nakasabit ang mga binti sa dulo noon habang katabi si Ciandrei. Pinabuksan ko iyong covered court at library dahil gusto kong ipakita sa kaniya 'yong mga importanteng lugar sa akin. 

"Member ako ng Art club noong high school! Lagi kaming nagde-design kapag may event dito sa stage. Favorite ko palagi kapag Foundation Day kasi open ang gates tapos malaking event 'yon. Maraming pumupuntang taga-ibang school," natutuwang kwento ko sa kaniya. Nakatitig lang siya sa akin at nakikinig na may ngiti sa labi. 

"Yeah, I know..." Natawa siya at tumingin sa harapan. "A lot of booths on this ground like arcade games where you can win a doll. You also had a café upstairs." Tinuro pa niya iyong mga lugar na sinasabi niya.

"Oh?! Paano mo nalaman?! Bumisita ka rin ba dito?!" I felt thrilled. "Saang school ka nga ulit nag-aral? Lopez High?" 

Tumango siya at natawa nang walang dahilan. Parang may naalala siya bigla. "I already saw you before." 

"Huh?!" Gulat akong napalingon sa kaniya. Saan?! Bakit ngayon niya lang sinabi sa akin? Nagkita na ba kami?! "Saan?!"

"Here. In this school. You greeted Acel," pagkekwento niya sa akin. "You know him, right? O nakalimutan mo rin?" 

"Acel?! Si Pres?!" Mas lalo akong nagulat na may mutual friends kami, although hindi ko na nakakausap si Pres. "Friends kayo?! Wow, ang liit naman ng mundo! Bakit hindi kita maalala?!"

He was just laughing at me while I kept asking questions out of curiosity. Hindi ko lang kasi talaga ine-expect na nagkita na pala kami noon! What were the chances that we would see each other again now? Ang galing!

"Ma'am, open na po ang likod," sabi ng guard.

Tumalon ako mula sa stage at hinatak si Ciandrei mula sa palapulsuhan niya para pumunta sa may covered court. "Alam mo ba, naglalaro kami ng volleyball dito noon ng mga kaibigan ko! Hindi ako player pero kasama kasi sa P.E namin. Ang ganda ng court 'no? Tapos doon sa bleachers, tumatambay kami palagi kapag recess." Tinuro ko rin ang bleachers habang tumitingin siya sa paligid. 

"Your mom owns this school, right?" tanong niya sa akin. "It's beautiful. How is she now?"

"She's fine. Bakit ka nagtatanong?" Tumaas ang kilay ko sa kaniya. "You know, you should meet my mom! Mabait 'yon."

"I know..." mahinang sabi niya. "So you played volleyball here, huh? What else did you do during high school?" 

Kinwento ko sa kaniya kung paano nabuo ang grupo namin ng mga kaibigan ko noong nasa library kami. Noong napagod kami kakaikot ay pumunta naman kaming Wings Club. Isa rin iyong importanteng lugar sa akin.

"This is also important to me," sabi niya pagkaupo sa tapat ko. "My friends and I used to eat here a lot."

"Weh?! Kami rin! Bakit hindi kita nakikita dito?" nagtatakang tanong ko. 

"Your memory is so bad, Kierra." Napailing siya sa akin. "You should remember it by now." 

Hindi ko pa rin talaga maalala ang sinasabi niya. "Baka hindi ka lang talaga tumatak sa isip ko," ganti ko naman sa kaniya.

"Whatever." He just laughed and sipped through the paper straw of his drink without holding the glass itself. He looked like a kid doing that. 

"Baka matapon, tangek." Hinawakan ko 'yong baso dahil mukhang matatapon niya dahil sa kalokohang ginagawa niya. 

"Fine, I'll hold it." Napaayos ako ng upo nang pinatong niya ang kamay niya sa kamay ko para hawakan ang baso. 

Inirapan ko siya bago inalis ang kamay ko sabay marahang sabunot sa buhok niyang nahuhulog sa may noo niya. Iyon lang ang naabot ko.

"I like Garlic Parmesan tsaka Salted Egg. Ikaw ba?" tanong ko tungkol sa flavor ng wings. 

"Jack Daniel's Barbecue," sagot niya sabay marahang punas ng tissue sa bibig ko. Noong tinanggal ko ang plastic gloves ay kumuha naman siya ng wipes para punasan ang mga kamay ko. 

Pagkatapos namin ay lumabas na rin kami para bumalik ng sasakyan niya. Hindi nga lang kami makaalis dahil umuulan. "You didn't bring my umbrella?" tanong niya sa akin. 

"Anong malay ko sa payong mo?" Pinagbintangan pa ako!

Bumuntong-hininga siya at hinubad iyong suot niyang jacket para itakip sa ulo ko. "Let's go." Hawak-hawak ng dalawang kamay niya ang jacket sa tuktok ng ulo ko para hindi ako mabasa habang naglalakad kami papunta sa sasakyan niya. Pinagbuksan niya pa ako ng pinto. 

Pagkapasok niyang kotse ay inabot niya kaagad ang maliit na twalya sa likod at tahimik na pinunasan ang braso kong nabasa kahit tumutulo na ang tubig mula sa buhok niya. Basang-basa siya. 

"Unahin mo kaya sarili mo?" sabi ko naman sa kaniya. 

"It's fine. You come first," wala sa loob na sabi niya. Nang makitang tuyo naman na ako ay saka niya lang pinunasan ang sarili niya. Pinatay niya pa ang aircon dahil nilalamig daw siya. 

Itutuloy na lang daw namin sa susunod ang topic na 'places important to us' dahil dumidilim na rin. Hinatid na niya ako sa condo at agad naman akong naglinis ng katawan. Pagkahiga ko sa kama ay nakita kong nag-text si Ciandrei. 

From: Ciandrei

Good night, Ke. 

Back to normal na naman pagkabalik ko ng school. Ang dami na namang ginagawa kahit malapit na ang Christmas break kaya naging busy rin ako. Hindi kami masyadong nagkikita ni Ciandrei pero nag-uusap naman kami sa chat or text. Busy ako mag-aral. 

"How are you, Kierra?" tanong ni Dr. Peja pagkabalik ko. 

"Very stressed and distracted because of school. School made me occupied. Nightmares were lessened kasi hindi na rin naman ako nakakatulog masyado sa dami ng ginagawa. I'm... fine. I could say I'm not feeling worse than before," pagsabi ko ng totoo. 

"That's good... But remember that sleep is also important. Take a break when you have to. Your health is important," kalmadong sagot niya sa akin. "How about your progress going outside?" 

"I went back to some places important to me before the... incident happened. It made me happy thinking about my old self... and how I lived before. I guess it lessened the hatred I have for myself a bit... The high school me was so bright and innocent." Napangiti ako nang tipid sa sarili ko. "But I felt bad... kasi naalala ko rin kung ano ang kinabukasang haharap sa kaniya. I betrayed that kid." 

"No, Kierra... You did not betray yourself. I'm sure the younger you were also so loving. You remained full of love, and you just extended that love to other people. It is not your fault that that person turned out to be not what you thought he would be. He betrayed you, Kierra. It wasn't you who betrayed yourself." Dr. Peja gave me a comforting smile. 

Dahan-dahan akong napatango. "He put all that effort just to ruin a person. The nice dinner, the bouquet of roses, how he asked me to be his girlfriend. All those efforts... to make me feel special then just treat me like shit in the end..."

"Will you be my girlfriend, Kierra?" tanong niya sa akin pagkatapos namin kumain. Hindi ko inaasahan 'yon! Muntik pa akong masamid sa iniinom kong tubig nang bigla niya akong inabutan ng bulaklak at tinanong 'yon. "Okay ka lang?" Naubo-ubo na kasi ako kaya nag-alala siya at hinagod ang likod ko. 

"Bakit ka naman nanggugulat?!" namumulang tanong ko sa kaniya. 

"Surprise kasi 'to, Kierra. Dapat magulat ka." Ngumiti siya. "So... Ano? Is that a yes?" 

"Sira ka ba? Siyempre!" sigaw ko pa sa kaniya. Lumuwang ang ngiti niya sabay yakap sa akin nang mahigpit. 

"Thank you! I promise I'll take care of you whatever happens." Hinalikan niya ang labi ko. Napangiti naman ako habang nakatitig sa mga mata niya. "You're the most important woman in my life. I promise I'll cherish you. Ah, I could never hurt someone as precious as you." Niyakap niya ulit ako at hinaplos ang buhok ko. 

It was my first time getting into a relationship. Noong gabing 'yon, todo-search pa ako sa internet kung ano ba ang ginagawa ng girlfriend. I searched for tips on having a good relationship and being a good girlfriend. 

I took care of him a lot. Dinadalhan ko siya ng pagkain kapag busy siya kakaaral. Binibilhan ko siya ng gamot kapag sinasabi niyang may masakit sa kaniya. I was his one-call-away. Hindi ko na masyadong nakakasama ang mga kaibigan ko dahil palagi kong kasama si Miguel. I just loved him that much.

I longed for someone to take care of, hindi bilang kaibigan. I wanted to pour my love into someone more than that. I felt happy when he was happy. I felt loved when he was appreciating all my efforts. 

"Do you need help with your plates?" nag-aalalang tanong niya sa akin sabay halik sa gilid ng ulo ko. "You shouldn't stay up all night for that. Matulog ka rin, Kierra. Magkakasakit ka niyan." 

"Okay lang, ano ba. Kailangan kong tapusin 'to. Matulog ka na," sabi ko sa kaniya dahil dito ako matutulog sa condo niya. Parati na rin akong narito nakatambay dahil mas pinipili kong magkasama kami. 

"May nag-text sa 'yo..." Kinuha niya ang cellphone ko at tiningnan iyon saglit bago binigay sa akin. "Sino 'yan?" 

"Ah, si Sevi lang, tropa ko. Naroon siya sa condo namin ng pinsan ko, nakatambay at hinahanap ako," pagpapaliwanag ko sa kaniya. 

"Normal ba 'yon sa magkaibigan na pumupunta sa condo noong isa? Baka naman may gusto lang sa 'yo 'yan. Ano bang ginagawa n'yo sa condo n'yo?" kalmadong tanong niya sa akin.

Tumigin ako sa kaniya at tumawa. "Nagseselos ka ba? Sira, nakikikain kasi 'yan palagi sa condo. Wala namang malisya 'yon. Matagal na kaming magkaibigan tsaka hindi ako gusto niyan! Friends lang talaga. Parang kapatid na namin 'yan." 

"Sorry, babe. Hindi lang ako comfortable na may pumupuntang lalaki sa condo mo," sabi niya naman sa akin. "Puwede bang dumistansya ka sa kaniya?" 

I was doing everything he asked because I wanted to be a good girlfriend. Kapag hindi siya kumportable sa isang tao, sinusubukan kong idistansya ang sarili ko. Kapag may ayaw siya, hindi ko ginagawa. I wanted to maintain our relationship. I thought it was... love. 

"Anong tinitingnan mo?" tanong ko pagkapasok ko ng kwarto dahil nakita kong hawak niya ang phone ko.

"Nothing. Just checking if you're cheating on me." Tumawa siya at nilapag ang phone ko sa gilid. Napakunot ang noo ko at kinuha 'yon. 

"Hindi naman ako ganoong tao," sabi ko sa kaniya at umupo sa gilid ng kama. "You know I love you, right? I can never do that to you. Just trust me." 

"I trust you." Hinalikan niya ang noo ko. "You're a nice woman. I just don't trust the men around you. Baka kung ano'ng gawin nila sa 'yo." 

"Ano ka ba... Sobrang harmless nina Sevi at Arkin." Tumawa lang ako at humiga na. "Antok na 'ko. Matulog na tayo." 

I took everything lightly because I hated having problems. Lumaki akong wala masyadong pinoprobolema. I was a happy and light person dahil madalas kong kasama ang masiyahin kong pinsan. Masaya akong kasama ang mga kaibigan ko at masaya rin akong kasama si Miguel... kaya noong pinapili niya ako kung sino ang sasamahan ko, hindi ko alam kung ano ang isasagot ko. 

"Bakit mo naman ako pinapapili? Sinabi ko na sa 'yo last week na lalabas kami ng mga kaibigan ko..." kalmadong sabi ko sa kaniya. 

"Mas importante pa ba 'yang lakad na 'yan? Ang sabi mo, sasamahan mo akong mamili ng damit na susuotin sa party ni Dad," sabi niya sa akin. "Ngayon ako pupuntang mall."

"I'm so sorry. Nagsabi na ako sa mga kaibigan ko. Hindi ba puwede 'yan bukas?" sinubukan ko uli pero sumeryoso lang ang mukha niya. "Hindi naman 'yan naka-schedule ngayon." 

"Ewan ko sa 'yo, Ke. Puro na lang kaibigan mo inuuna mo." Tinalikuran niya ako at naglakad paalis. Napaupo na lang ako sa bench at bumuntong hininga, nag-iisip kung ano ba ang gagawin ko. 

Bandang huli, hindi na ako nakasama sa mga kaibigan ko dahil pinili kong samahan ang boyfriend ko. "Thank you, Ke! You're the best." Tuwang-tuwa siya nang sabihin kong sasamahan ko siya. Ngumiti na lang ako. Masaya siya kaya naging masaya na lang din ako. 

I didn't like making him sad or angry. Gusto ko palagi siyang masaya. Hinahawaan ko siya palagi ng good vibes ko dahil masyado na siyang maraming pinoproblema sa school at sa pamilya niya. He told me that I was his comfort. Ako lang ang nakakapagpakalma sa kaniya and I believed that. 

"Oh no... Umuulan pa," sabi ko sa kaniya. "May payong ako." Nilabas ko ang payong ko at binigay sa kaniya. 

Binuksan niya ang payong at nauna sa aking naglakad papuntang sasakyan. Humabol naman kaagad ako habang nakatakip ang kamay sa ulo ko. Sumilong ako sa payong katabi niya pero dahil maliit ang payong ay nababasa pa rin ako ng ulan.

Pagkapasok namin sa sasakyan niya, halatang wala na siya sa mood. "Tangina naman, umulan pa!" inis na sabi niya habang pinupunasan ang sarili niya. 

Nabasa siya nang kaunti dahil maliit ang payong na dala niya. Binigay niya pa sa akin ang basang payong para matupi ko. Tumulo tuloy iyon sa damit ko. Nabasa ako lalo. Napangiti na lang ako nang tipid sa sarili ko. 

"Pahiram ng towel. Nabasa ako, eh..." sambit ko sa kaniya. 

"Teka lang, ginagamit ko pa," walang emosyong sabi niya. Natahimik na lang ako at naghanap ng tissue para mapunasan ang sarili ko. "Shit, nabasa 'yong seat! Sana nagpunas ka muna bago ka sumakay." 

"Ah, sorry. Wala kasing pamunas..." Napakagat ako sa ibabang labi ko. 

"Sige, okay lang. Sorry... Badtrip lang ako. I love you." Hinalikan niya ang noo ko at binigay sa akin ang pamunas. Ngumiti lang ako sa kaniya. He said sorry so that was enough. 

"Bawat hingi niya ng tawad, pinapatawad ko siya. Iniisip kong hindi naman niya sinasadya... galit lang siya... badtrip lang siya noong araw na 'yon... I tried so hard to understand," I told Dr. Peja. Napangiti ako nang sarkastiko. "So he took advantage of that. Siguro inisip niya na okay lang lahat kasi isang 'sorry' lang naman kay Kierra, okay na. But he was slowly... staining my idea of love." 

"He was exercising excessive control at the start of the relationship and disguising it as love and protection. During those times, were you already having doubts?"

Umiling ako. "It was my first relationship, so I didn't know how things worked. I haven't tasted something good, so I couldn't differentiate it from something bad. I never thought about leaving him because I thought those were normal... that that was just his way of expressing his love. He wanted to have control of me... and accused me of cheating a lot. Cheaters are usually scared of their partners doing the same thing they're doing."

I didn't cry when I told the story. I just felt anger, but I didn't feel the need to cry. I didn't feel emptiness when I left the office. I was too distracted with all the things I needed to accomplish that day.

I didn't cry... but I didn't feel too confident that I wouldn't in the next session. May nararamdaman pa rin ako. Hindi nawawala 'yon... but I was slowly learning how to control them. Feeling in control of myself... Ang tagal na bago ko naramdaman 'yon because I was used to that person controlling me. 

"Places important to me," bulong ko sa sarili ko habang pauwi. Kinuha ko ang cellphone ko para mag-message.

To: Ciandrei

Nakaisip ka na ba ng next destination natin? Places important to you

Mabilis siyang nag-reply.

From: Ciandrei

Yes, when you're free. 

To: Ciandrei

Saan? 

From: Ciandrei

You should say hi to my mom :) 

To: Ciandrei 

Ayaw ko pa pong tumawid sa after-life nakakatakot ka ha 

From: Ciandrei

HAHAHAHAHA i meant the cemetery dummy

Natawa tuloy ako habang nagta-type ng reply pero nag-message ulit siya.

From: Ciandrei

I'm sure she would want to see you again. She admired you when you were a little kid, you ball of sunshine. 

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:)