Chapter 53: The Black Dwarf Planet
“I love you… S-So much, Jungkook!” Jimin whispered and never thought of letting his lover go for more than a second. “I worked… so hard to come see you!” Jimin's words alone made Jungkook let out a chuckle and cup Jimin's beautiful face into his hands as always. “Now we're together! We can have our first date soon… Right?” Jimin questioned and played it off as someone who was left unaware of what Jungkook was doing. Eventually, this was just going to push Jungkook until he was to come clean and talk to Jimin about his travels.
“Mochi… You know I love you, but there are things holding me back from my spare time.” Jungkook whispered as the crowd of astronomers went about their own business and left the two alone. “I don't think we'll be able to go on a date together like this…” Jungkook whispered and caressed Jimin's hair softly. “You'll have to understand that.”
“J-Jungkook…” Jimin whispered and by there, Jungkook took a moment and began to think within his own head while staring at Jimin. “You can't have… a break?”
“Jimin, I-” Abruptly, Mr. Park let out a cough from behind the young man to remind him that he should be able to tell Jimin now. Even if Jimin already knew, Jungkook felt as if he should come clean either way. “Come with me…” Jungkook whispered and walked with Jimin and held his lover's hand. Of course, Jimin was familiar to this all and was well aware of what his boyfriend wanted to say now.
“J-Jungkook… I have something to say…” Jimin whispered and eventually, Jungkook walked into a cleaning storage room where there was supplies to mop floors with and dusters to wipe stations clean. “Jungkook…”
“In here… I have to tell you something too. I think it wasn't fair for me to keep this from you almost for a straight month now…” Jungkook mentioned and locked the door behind him to gaze at the dark supply room that barely anyone walked into now these days. Next, Jungkook switched on the light to meet eyes with Jimin's in silence. “I have something to tell you as well and it's-”
“I know…” Interrupted Park Jimin and avoided eye contact with his lover. “I overheard you with my father over the phone so… I just couldn't let you leave me the day after. I was so scared… Jungkook…” The older's beautiful and round eyes began to grow puffy from his own truth being untold in between his own lips. Jungkook watched Jimin let out an exhale and hug himself from keeping so much in that now, he could finally let out.
“So you did know… Ah, how could I let this slip? Why couldn't I recognize these signs once they appeared? Jimin… I'm so sorry you had to wait for so long. I-I just didn't want you to suffer-”
“You waited too long to tell me and now I feel like I'm going to suffer when the time comes. Do you know how scary it was? Never getting to see your beautiful face in front of me until one month later? J-Jungkook… I was so upset… So… So upset… I missed you every night and I wanted you! I don't want you to leave me… Please stay! Everyone told me it's okay if you go and I stay here… But I never thought it would hurt so much!” Jimin confessed and closed his eyes while they still leaked with his warm and clear tears. “I learned to accept it but telling you… H-Hurts so much…”
“Jimin, I can't stay here… You know it already. Please let me do this for you, I can't lose my love. You'll understand that I do this for you! I can't let them take you back up there.” Jungkook spoke and Jimin swiftly covered his own face from the tears. “Baby, don't do that to me… You know how bad I get when you cry like that…” Jungkook then grabbed Jimin's hands and slowly intertwined his fingers with his. “I'll be back before you know it…”
“W-WHAT IF YOU DON'T HUH? WHAT IF YOU DON'T COME BACK TO ME?! WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO? MOVE ON AND CLING ONTO YOUR TOMBSTONE WHEN I MISS YOU?!” Jimin cried and glared at Jungkook in his eyes. “I'll lose you forever and the worse thing you could tell me before you go is to move on if I lose you… Can't you see? I belong to you… Just as you do to me… You're my universe and Galaxy combined… My sun and bright stars alike…”Jimin died his cries into a whisper to dry his own tears while Jungkook only sighed and pulled Jimin into a close hug. “Jungkook… D-Don't leave me… I'll hate you if you do…”
“You'll never hate me.” Replied the young stargazer and caressed his soulmate's hair back. “You may say you will… But I know deep down you'll never hate me. You love me too much to associate my name with the word hate.” The younger then felt Jimin let out loud sobs against his chest.
“P-Please… Please stay… I'll lose my mind if you leave me for good.. I'll never forgive you if you leave me here forever! Y-You promised me well have eternity! This isn't what I had in mind… I would never do this to you, Jungkook…”
“Baby… you know I can't stay. You know I always promised an eternity and I won't break your heart! I won't leave you here… you wouldn't do this to me… But I have to do this to you… in order to keep you alive.”
“I-I hate you… I hate you, did you know t-that?” Jimin cried out of pain and tried to move away from Jungkook's grasps but then, the younger then gripped onto Jimin's hands and pulled him closer into another hug. “L-Let me go! I don't want you…” Jimin cried. Jungkook understood Jimin was just upset and didn't mean a word he said. The older only said this to keep Jungkook from leaving and the astronomer knew it. “C-Can't you hear?! I don't want you, Jeon Jungkook!”
Suddenly, Jungkook brought Jimin against the wall of the supply room and pushed his lips against Jimin's, through that, he rose his hands up Jimin's cheek and positioned his face against his to kiss him deeper into it. “Don't say that… Don't tell me that…” Jungkook whispered and Jimin finally calmed down to slowly raise his hand above to hold the younger's hands over his own face. “You can't just say something to me like that and leave me. I'm your Jungkook! I'm your boyfriend… I love you with my all and hearing you say that hurts me.” The young man told Jimin as the older tried to break free from his lover and leave things at that, but Jungkook didn't let him. “Hey… I'm right here…”
“J-Jungkook…. If you loved me you'll stay!”
“I love you and I choose to go because I want to keep you safe. Why aren't you listening to me?! I'm trying to keep you safe… even if it hurts me to leave you, Mochi… I'm doing this to protect you, babe…” Jungkook continued until Jimin finally stopped pushing and hugged his lover tightly. “I don't want to go… But if it means I have to protect you… I will.”
“And if you don't come back? W-What do I do…?”
“If I never come back… I want you to know that you should move on from me. But, don't you ever forget about me. Understand?” Jungkook whispered to Jimin's ear and this left the man to start crying helplessly from hearing this type of conversation they had going on. In his mind, he never wanted to hear those words come from his lover's mouth. Moving on wasn't on their promise of loving each other endlessly and this made Jimin view that grim thought as a Black Dwarf Planet; a white dwarf planet but this one no longer emitted any energy. It was just cold and dark now.
“N-No… No…”
“Shh… But until then… I'll love you until my very last breath.”
“Don't say that, you idiot!” Cried the older and dropped his head against Jungkook's shoulder. “Y-You won't leave me alone. You'll come back, I know it…”
“Then I will… I'll come back Jimin. And you know what I'll do once I come back?” Jungkook whispered and awaited Jimin's answer with a smile plastered over his own teary face.
“W-What…?”
“I'm going to marry you, Park Jimin… Or at least, propose to you and have you until we marry. So you'll get to chose, but we'll be engaged. Tell me the day and I'll be ready. Any day, any second or hour. I will marry you. Let me get down on one knee to propose to you and we'll be engaged once I come back. That I promise.”
“P-Propose to me..?” Jimin's lips began to quiver as he then pressed his head against Jungkook's. “We don't have to get married right away… But then I'll be yours until we are ready…”
“Yes…” Jungkook finally replied and caressed Jimin's face along with his. “Jimin… do you finally accept me leaving?”
“Yes, Jungkook… I know now.” The older finally accepted as they stood there with their faces in contact at that very moment. “No matter what you do… I'll love you to the moon and back…” With those very words, Jungkook's eyes gleamed and he let out an adoring laugh accompanied with the most biggest smile Jimin just couldn't get over.
“So romantic~” Jungkook laughed and kept Jimin against the wall so he could kiss him against his plump lips, his sharp jawline and his pale neck. “Are you coming to watch me train now?”
“If you let me go so we can get there together~”
“I haven't had you for a month, give me a break, Mochi.” Uttered the young man in a soft mumble as Jimin finally wrapped his arms around Jungkook's neck to pull him in and have his lips against his own, warm, skin. “I love you…”
“I love you too!” Shouted Taehyung from the corner of the supply room as Jimin suddenly flinched and Jungkook quickly turned around to see Taehyung sitting over a table with his legs crossed and his hands occupied with a cup of coffee. “Ah, watching you guys made me cry…” Taehyung then wiped his own tears and sniffed as well. “I started to cry and I'm not even in this!”
“Where the fuck did you come from?” Jungkook asked. Next, Taehyung pointed to an open vent in which he climbed through to watch the couple. “Why didn't I see that?”
“I'm anywhere at any time! I was going to give you condoms in case it went well.” Taehyung laughed and covered his mouth with a smile. “I was also going to watch that too~”
“Don't you have somewhere else to be?” Jimin blurted out and removed his hands from Jungkook to adjust the cuffs of his own dress shirt.
“I'm waiting to start training with Kookie Crunch. Until then, I'm enjoying the commercials~” The young man then winked at Jungkook as Jimin started to laugh before he quickly threw his hands around Jungkook's waist to pull him close like a child.
“He's all mine!~” The astronaut pouted and made Taehyung laugh and take a sip from his coffee. “I love him to the moon…”
“...and back.” Jungkook added and held Jimin's hand before they walked out together with Taehyung tagging along with the couple with his cup of coffee. Jungkook thought of Jimin the whole time he sat in the small replica chamber of the rocket to simulate the atmosphere in space. This was where Taehyung and Jungkook wore their own suits, sat in a model of the B400 placed underwater to sit in for a good while.
Jimin watched through the monitor and smiled watching how calm and strong Jungkook took this simulation and only giggled while holding the microphone against his own lips. There, Jimin talked to his future husband and even if the trip to space was around a few months from now, Jimin didn't mind going through it with Jungkook. He loved Jungkook with his all and that was what held his head high at the very end.
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