Chapter 19: Inside the black hole

          By 9:46 PM, Jungkook woke up to quickly dart his eyes at Jimin over his chest. He noticed that he spent the hour sleeping with Jimin cuddled up in his arms and just the sight of it made Jungkook panic while Jimin's head was fixed over the younger's torso so softly. “J-Jimin…” Jungkook whispered and didn't want to move the boy off of his chest since Jimin was curled up over him. His body was light, soft and cuddly. Jungkook didn't know what he felt at that very moment, but he knew his heart was starting to beat for Jimin. “You… You don't mean any harm… Why would I push you off?” Jungkook whispered softly as he then stroked Jimin's hair back continuously.

             It was at that very moment, Jungkook began to realize the imperfections on Jimin that eventually mended into perfections. It felt as if the moonlight outside beamed through the crack of the curtains and the cool air within the room brushed against Jimin's pale skin. Jungkook noticed Jimin's pink and plump lips, his small nose and of course, who could forget his beautiful small eyes? His eyes were like dark chocolate with the filling of warm, sweet caramel inside. Along with the gaze outlined with the constellation reflected in Park Jimin's eyes. Jungkook sat there with Jimin over his chest for a while and slowly began to blush each time he fixed Jimin's dark and silk, brown, hair. “All I see here… is just a lonely planet…” Jungkook whispered. “A beautiful, lonely, planet. How could I have been so blind?”

           Just as soon as Jungkook stopped speaking to himself, he stroked Jimin's hair softly and noticed Jimin gliding his small hand up and over Jungkook's free hand. The feeling of Jimin's hand was soft, gentle, and warm. Jungkook never felt like this towards anyone before. He knew he loved Lee-Young and he felt something different with her and knew it was love. However, with Jimin… He wasn't so sure. Of course, he couldn't be too sure. The young boy sat there and questioned his own relationship with his girl in thoughts of Jimin. Knowing well that Jimin was just a young man, made Jungkook also question his sexuality. He questioned many things at the moment and it launched him into a black hole where he thought of many scary things. What if these feelings right now towards Jimin, gradually get bigger?

          “Jimin, I'm so confused…” Jungkook whispered and just hoped Jimin wouldn't wake up to panic and see this. “Can't I-” Unexpectedly, Jungkook’s phone began to vibrate and this made the younger quickly lift it from his pocket to gawk at the called ID. The bright light against his round eyes made him squint and read the name of who was calling. “Lee-Young…” Jungkook whispered and answered as he placed the phone against his ear as his other hand slowly moved up to continue stroking Jimin's soft hair. “Hello?” Jungkook answered in a calm tone that was enough to make Jimin open his eyes.

             Jimin's eyes fixed down at how his arms were wrapped around the younger’s and how his head was pressed against Jungkook's chest! Yet, Jungkook didn't seem to mind, he had his hand in Jimin's soft hair to softly caress him. “What is he doing?” Jimin thought and blushed until his face was burning up at the feeling.

             “Yes, Lee-Young?” Jungkook asked as Jimin closed his eyes and wished to feel this without having to hear Lee-Young’s name. Jimin likes Jungkook… But Jungkook loves Lee-Young and their feelings were now sealed...or so Jimin thought. Little did Jimin know, Jungkook was thinking about his feelings once more.

               “Jungkook, why haven't you called? You haven't called in such a long time… I'm always the one to call you. Ever since that day, all you've done was shut me out.” Lee-Young asked in worry as Jungkook's nose flared once he exhaled through his nostrils. “I want you to be more… Cooperative.”

              “C-Cooperative?!” Jungkook hissed as Jimin can feel Jungkook was about to raise his voice. “Why is it all my fault?! I apologized over that small little thing and all you did was hold it against me.” Jungkook spoke a bit louder and now, Jimin's ears were slowly starting to ring. At this moment, Jungkook sat up and forgot Jimin was over his chest due to how upset he was. Making Jimin fall back onto the bed and cup his ears as Jungkook stormed out of the room. Swiftly shutting the door and leaving Jimin in tears with his hands fixed over his sensitive ears. But the loud call didn't end there, Jungkook began to argue with Lee-Young as Jimin kept his tears in and tried putting a pillow over his ears.

            “J-Jungkook… Jungkook…” Jimin whispered in utterly pain along his sensitive ears as he listened to Jungkook stand outside and continue talking and arguing with his lover. Jimin almost wanted to follow Jungkook and calm him down, but this wasn't his fight… What Jimin's fight was the pain that echoed in his ears and travelled to his head.

           “It's not a small thing Jungkook, I was hurt and I got over it… But then after, you ignored me and I thought you hated me… Now, I just don't know what's wrong with us.” Lee-Young said into the phone as Jungkook was leaning against the wall of the bedroom and listened to his girlfriend, however, a black hole swarmed under their relationship and all Jungkook could do was think of the pain Jimin must be bearing because of how loud he was before.

           “I don't want to argue with you anymore. It's not good for me to raise my voice when Jimin is here. For the sake of his, let's just forget-”

           “Forget… I see… All for the sake of his but not ours.”

            “Okay, why are you getting so upset? You agreed to let me take care of Jimin despite the time we will waste together… Now, we aren't so close and you seem to think he's the one revolving between us. I still love you, it's you that I want! Why can't you just drop it?!” Jungkook argued as Jimin was left in the room to bear with the torture each time Jungkook forgot that Jimin was nearby.

           “I think… I think we should take a break… Let's really forget this and give ourselves some time. It's our first fight in a while and I just don't want to add fuel to the fire.” Lee-Young claimed as Jungkook grew silent to grow upset. He knew a break between the two will lead to their own hearts stretching apart. This was the break before the actual break up. “I'll talk to you when I'm over it and when the two of us can learn to let this slide.” The woman concluded in a shaky voice as Jungkook quickly hung up out of pain, shouting as he walked further down the hall, and into his own room.

           Jimin had the pillows over his ears and listened to Jungkook let out shouts in the other room and left Jimin to turn red from the discomfort of his ears. He closed his eyes and opened them slowly to lock his eyes at the stars around the room once more. “S-Stupid… Stupid and sensitive mind…” Jimin whispered to himself and hummed the same melodic tune he would hum to himself in the B248. He was so used to silence up in space, that hearing Jungkook shout from the other room, drove him crazy.

          Back in the other room Jungkook was in, he leaned against the wall after letting out his steam before realizing Jimin was in the room. In his mind, Jimin was still asleep, yet, he still had the urge to go check up in the sensitive guy. Jungkook only focused on his issues with his girlfriend and the black hole their relationship has travelled in, he forgot the one who would still revolve around him no matter what. It was at that moment, Jungkook realized he was all alone for now and he was just like Jimin. Yet, the two lonely planets had each other now.

         “Jimin…” Jungkook thought as he walked into the bathroom and passed through the other door leading to Jimin's. By there, he found Jimin humming to himself with the pillow folded over his ears from the feeling. “Oh Jimin, I'm sorry..” Whispered the boy as he walked in closer. “Come here…” Jungkook continued in a soft tone to his voice as his issues with Lee-Young fled his mind once his universe was surrounded with Jimin and only Jimin. “I guess… I wanted to protect you so much, I ended up hurting you in the process.”

           “It's… okay… It… hurts a little…” Jimin whispered as Jungkook then pulled the older man into his arms and gave him a hug since he really needed one himself. “Is…everything fine…with Lee-Young and… you?” Jimin whispered. Then, Jungkook only sighed and remained quiet. Jimin tried to think of something to change the conversation and finally removed his hands over his ears. “I'm… hungry…”

            “Then, let's go out and eat something.” Jungkook spoke as Jimin then shook his head quickly. “Right… I forgot you can't really be outside with other people. Ah, let's just… Make something here and maybe we can watch something?” Jungkook asked again as Jimin then rose his own hand over his right ear. “Let's watch a movie on low volume with captions on. I'll make sure the screen brightness isn't too bright to hurt your eyes.”

          “Ah, I've… must've...ruined it for… you…” Jimin murmured. Jungkook then let out a soft chuckle as always but this time, his eyes were slightly gleaming in tears due to the fact his own girlfriend told them they should take a break. However, he didn't let this get to him while he was around Jimin. The last thing he wanted was to have Jimin feel sympathetic towards the situation. “Did… I ruin… the fun for you…?”

          “No you didn't. Come on, let's leave the exercises for tomorrow morning. I just… want to watch something to keep my mind busy.” Jungkook whispered. What Jimin observed was, Jungkook is the type of person that hid his issues in order to make someone else not worry for him. This left Jimin to nod his head as he followed along the younger's wishes. “I… I want to eat junk food right now.”

             “Why so...s-sudden?” Jimin asked as Jungkook pulled away from the hug and held Jimin's hands with his; just to help him up.

              “I'm just in the mood for it. Let's order pizza and watch a movie together. That will help me.” Jungkook spoke and Jimin had his doubts that ignoring the issue wasn't going to fix a thing. Jimin held his crutch in his right hand and slid it under his right arm to start walking with Jungkook's arm around his small waist. “Jungkook…” Jimin whispered as they finally walked out of the room and was walking to the living room after. “Jungkook… That room… it bothers me…”

             “Then you'll sleep in my room. Much more better, right?” Jungkook asked as he then let out a chuckle. “Don't worry, Jimin. You can sleep on your own in my room. I'll sleep in yours.”

            “Shouldn't you…sleep with me? I want… to get used to it… We slept together in my room, something I'm not used… to. Let's… do it… again.” Jimin suggested and Jungkook only slowed down to smile at the ground before walking forward to the living room.

             “Alright, I'll sleep with you.” Jungkook answered and set Jimin down on the couch. “I like having you here Jimin. You make me feel much better when I'm feeling down.” Jungkook stated, sitting next to Jimin, and placing his hand over Jimin's head once more to softly roll his hair back. “You're perfect, Park Jimin… Everything I could ask for in a supportive friend…” Jungkook finished and complimented the man. Jimin now understood why Jungkook was kind to him before, it was only because the boy himself was growing lonely because letting Jimin into his life allowed more people to leave him. Jimin caused the people to leave Jungkook… But this never bothered the boy. He had Jimin and that was the most special thing he could be given.

            To Jimin, he sought the feeling he had for Jungkook before and tried to get rid of it multiple times since he knew Jungkook was already in love with Lee-Young, but seeing Jungkook like this, it made the astronaut’s heart beat louder. Only then, Jimin knew he didn't just want Jungkook as a friend or any other caretaker, he wanted Jungkook to be more than a friend to him now.

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