Chapter 18: Your very own eclipse

           Seconds turned into a whole minute of Jungkook staring into the eyes of the older astronaut as nothing brushed by him to stop. Jungkook was staring at Jimin and knew this was wrong, but he couldn't stop. It was like Jimin alone became the eclipse that blocked him out of the real view of his own life and responsibilities… Only making Jungkook see nothing but pure silence like he was lost in space with only Jimin in his view. By now, stars surrounded them, literally! the room they stood in was the astronomy room Jungkook gave Jimin to sleep in.

          However, with these stares and innocent blushes, Jungkook closed his eyes and caused Jimin to slowly drag his hands down from around Jungkook's shoulders. Realizing that he stepped out of place once more. “S-Sorry… I'm… sorry…” Jimin whispered softly as he looked away and brought his hands down onto the mattress in silence. “I'm… so… so.. sorry…”

           “Don't worry about it… All we did was stare into each other’s eyes. Almost anyone does that… Right? It's normal.” Jungkook whispered to the older and pulled away to avoid any further eye contact with Jimin. “This is going to be us now… We'll just learn to live with it.” Jungkook mentioned as Jimin sat against the white, wooden, headboard to gawk at Jungkook to slowly raise his hand up to the spot by the wide bed.

             “Please… sit…with me.” Jimin whispered and laid back against the bed to pat the spot by his side. “I want to talk to you before...I go...to sleep…” Requested the older as Jungkook then moved in to sit next to Jimin on the bed. Together, they laid over the mattress and Jungkook was left to gaze up at the yellow planet above them. “I… love Planet… JM-95.. and.. the rocket B248-C… 12. You didn't have… to do this for me…”

            “I wanted you to feel welcomed. Besides, since you're going to be here and I've already purchased your outfits, I might as well throw in a planet too.” Jungkook said softly and let out a chuckle as the glow-in-the-dark stars began to shine inside the dim room. “Don't you just love it in here? I worked so hard for you to live here, Jimin. I want you to embrace the feeling of the stars and smile like you did before…” Jungkook whispered and turned his head to see Jimin laying right by his side and closing his eyes. “Are you… sleeping?”

            “I'm...listening…”

            “Alright… So, should I go first? Okay.. So, My name is Jeon Jungkook… I'm twenty-two years old, I mostly wear all black, love action video games, I have a bachelor's degree in Physics, I have a loving and supportive family, two best friends, one special and amazing friend I'm talking to right now… And a loving girlfriend.” Jungkook spoke and once he mentioned his girlfriend, Jimin always felt the wave of embarrassment coming over him. All caused because he chose to embrace the soft touch of Jungkook when the younger carried him off the counter, the passionate stares they shared and even the contact Jimin had with the younger by having his arm wrapped around his shoulders like another innocent encounter.

            “I'm so stupid…” Jimin thought in his head out of bitter embarrassment and shut his eyes tightly as Jungkook smiled while staring up at the small sculpture he built of the B248. “So stupid and desperate…”

             “I have a thing for classical pieces or calm music like the indie genre about love. Always my favorite…. Speaking of love… at the moment, I'm having issues with my girlfriend because we argued about something last week. But I can't help it, I don't want her to hate me… I love her.” Jungkook spoke and made Jimin finally pry his eyes open. “Maybe… I just need to reason with her and just accept I was the one at fault even if I feel like I wasn't. Ah, I'm sorry I'm out of place mentioning my Lee-Young and going in all about her… I just really want to get this off my chest.”

            “Then…say it… I won't judge… you.” Jimin whispered and turned his head to look at Jungkook. “Tell me…”

             “I feel like… Something is coming between us… It's no one in mind, but such actions drove us apart from each other. I feel like I might lose her. Who will love me like her? I've had her for two years and she's the one I want to marry…” Jungkook spoke and with every word, it harmed Jimin's weak spot for his caretaker. Yet, he had it coming. Of course Jungkook still chose his girlfriend because he's been with her for two years and he only knew Jimin for two weeks. “My feelings for her… What if they grow numb? What if I don't love her?”

            “I…don't really know how to fix… issues like… these. Maybe… talk to her like before… fix things… if she doesn't want to…then maybe it's a sign to let go or…keep moving on, completely...ignoring the issue…” Jimin pitched in to help as he looked around the room in silence to then yawn. “If anything… you'll… always have… me…”

           “I'll always have you…” Jungkook repeated in his mind and completely ignored the whole help he was given by Jimin. Once again, the older astronaut blocked out Jungkook's view on Lee-Young as he then smiled at Jimin. Giving him an assuring smile to show that he took the older’s advice ㅡbut in reality, He ignored it and left things with Lee-Young silent.ㅡ “Jimin… when do you want to stargaze with me?”

           “I think… it's better… if you fix things with…Lee-Young… first.”

             “No. We just need time. Until then, I have you to take care of. After you wake up, let's work on those exercises to get you strong enough. I'm pretty sure that soon, I can help you stargaze.”

             “I'd… like that… very much, Mr. Jeon..”

             “Ah, what happened? You were calling me Jungkook before.” The boy laughed as he tilted his head and laid on his side to face Jimin. “Will I always be ‘Mr. Jeon' to you, or just ‘Jungkook?’ Be honest...“

              By there, Jimin covered his face and began to softly giggle to himself. “I'll call you… ‘Mr. Jeon' and ‘Jungkook.’ Keep it more… professional...at times.” Murmured Jimin as Jungkook finally thought of Jimin's soft voice.

               “Staying lost in space really ruined you… didn't it? I'm going to help you with everything… I want to help you speak normally and walk around without crutches.” Promised the boy as he sat up to see Jimin's eyes follow him everywhere he went. “Let's talk more. Tell me about you…”

              “I.. I… um… My name is Dr. Park… Jimin… I have… A PhD in… Physics… I'm twenty-three… Extremely smart… I went to one… of the S.K.Y universities for.. it… I have… one younger brother, a loving… Mother and Father too… They love… me so much.” Jimin spoke out softly and his face turned red while he was talking to Jungkook because he wasn't used to talking this long towards the younger boy. “I like… to wear bright colors…at times… And… I'm single.”

           “Single? I see… So, Jimin what's your ideal type?”

           “I-Ideal… type?”

            “You know, your dream girl ideal type.” Jungkook mentioned as Jimin grew silent. Making Jungkook’s eyes glance to meet with Jimin's. “You do have a preference… Don't you?”

              “I'm… not… straight…” Jimin answered and brought his hands together to cup them to himself as he then bit his lip nervously. “I don't like women...I like men… So, I'm… gay…” Jimin whispered and turned his face away to hide his embarrassment as Jungkook then let out a slight chuckle. “What… are you laughing… at?”

               “The fact that you could have said it sooner. I'm not like those people who will shun you out for being human, Jimin. I accept you. Does your family accept you too?”

                “I told them… before my trip and my… Father came to me and hugged me… I thought I'd be all alone… But, he accepted me… Which my mother and little brother also told him… to tell me. I'm loved…” Jimin continued as Jungkook then smiled and nodded his head.

               “You have a good life, Park Jimin. I'm so happy you were able to come out. Besides… How did you know? Have you dated any men before?”

                 “I've broken off a relationship… before my travel to space… It was Namjoon… My ex..” Jimin confessed softly as Jungkook sat up and turned to gaze at Jimin to listen to it all. “He loved me before and I… loved him… We dated… But then broke up… Then he met this girl… and now you say they're married so, that's it…”

                “Do you ever miss him?”

                “Miss him? Never. He's with… someone who loves him… I'm not with anyone… that loves me… I guess I was… cursed to stay here, broken… hurt… silent… all because… I took Taehyung's place…” Jimin continued to confess as he started to tear up softly, which always brought pain to Jungkook. “I didn't want to hurt him… But I did.. I didn't want him… to suffer the consequences … But he did. That night… before his trip, I told my father… Taehyung was sick and couldn't go… So, I was scheduled to go and not him… That day, he watched me launch and… cried… It was his opportunity and I… I ruined it.” Jimin cried softly and cupped his own face to sit up. “This… is what a fake friend… looks l-like… This is what a true…traitor sounds like… and this is what… a true monster cries… like…”

                 Within seconds, Jungkook grabbed Jimin and pulled him into a gentle hug where he softly patted Jimin's back gently. “Stop it… Just shut up and stop telling yourself that. Ugh I hate it when people blame theirselves… you did nothing wrong. You just didn't want him to suffer and that's okay. You took the fall and I think he should be grateful you saved him from the consequences.” Jungkook continued and had Jimin against his chest to sob silently until no more tears were shed. “You're broken and he should've thanked you the second you came back. You saved his life and he was too blind to see that. I'll be sure to make them show up and talk to you.”

                 “N-No, Jungkook…”

                 “Yes. It's going to be okay. Go on.. Sleep, I'll be here if you want to wake up and talk about anything.” Reassured the boy as Jimin then pulled away from the hug to look the younger in the eyes.

                 “I want to talk… to you more…” Jimin spoke slightly a little louder for Jungkook to hear the crisp and gentle end to Jimin's soft voice. Even his speech sounded more soothing than the broken sentences from before. Jimin looked at this and found that they were bonding but Jungkook looked at this and found something new to a great friendship that also came with progress. That broad afternoon day soon fell into the evening with their talks of favorite animals to favorite dishes in which, most of their answers came out alike and this made Jimin blush within his soft and gentle giggle. However, Jimin spoke about astronomy like no other, still keeping his journey personal towards Jungkook but it was the type of conversation Jungkook always wanted to hear from anyone. No one loved the stars as much as Jimin used to and Jungkook used this as a way to get him used to the idea of the stars being nothing but benign lights within the night skies.

               After a while into the conversation, Jimin yawned and began to fall right out of it. His eyes weighed down and kept listening to the boy until… He finally fell asleep with Jungkook close by. Jimin slept and turned over to then smile once he was facing Jungkook’s body. They were now face to face as the older was in deep sleep and Jungkook's words on mass when it came to gravity, was put to an end. This left Jungkook to watch how softly Jimin's eyes closed and how his own eyelashes extended out once he rested those sweet, brown, honey-like eyes to sleep.

              “He's fast asleep…” Jungkook thought in his head and turned to face the man in silence while he rose the covers over their body. “You look so gentle when you sleep… Ah, so this is the eclipse that stands in my way…” Jungkook spoke softly and brushed Jimin's bangs apart to expose more of his soft and clear forehead. “That's okay… I'll allow it. Only because… I don't think I'll have anyone soon. With the drama Taehyung and Namjoon have against you, with the issues I'll soon have with Lee-Young… I guess it all revolves around you. You're my eclipse that got in the way… But am I mad? Should I be mad? Not a chance… I volunteered to help and so far… I don't regret a thing.”

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