g 🔒 @nangangagat

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girltrendz

3:38 PM

Anj Buenaventura

How are you @gil

gil

di makatulog

deinsy

WAIT AKO YUNG NASASAKTAN PARA SA INYO

ANO BA NANGYARI

wala daw kibo si ivan kagabi

uminom lang daw sya tas natulog na

gil

nakita ko kasi sila ni alyssa

may binabalik si alyssa sa kanya na important, bigay ng mom nya

tapos

tapos napungunahan na naman ako ng takot

which is hindi naman kasalanan ni alyssa

sa nararamdaman ko lang yon, hindi ko alam kung bakit

alam ko naman na mahal ako ni ivan

and na pipiliin nya ko

he proved that to me

pero hindi ko alam if kaya ng konsensya ko na

piliin nya ako over what his only family wants

or over who his only family wants for him

Anj Buenaventura

Pero it's not what HE wants.

It's you.

gil

alam ko

fuck

alam ko

Anj Buenaventura

Ivan's relationship with his grandparents is not something you can blame yourself for.

And I'm sure he's made it clear na as long as he has you, he'll be fine.

deinsy

gil

naghanap ka ba ng reason para i-push away si ivan?

kasi alam mo nang na sa kanya na naman puso mo

or matagal nang na sa kanya and ngayon mo lang ulit na-realize

and takot ka kasi wala kang control don? wala kang control sa situation?

Anj Buenaventura

In all the other aspects of your life, Gil

Ikaw lagi ang may control.

You took charge when your mother left.

When your dad became an alcoholic.

When you and Rhein had nothing to eat.

When you and Ivan broke up. You set all the rules.

Pero ngayon na you've realized you're giving yourself to Ivan again

Openly

Like before, nung ang ginawa mo lang is magmahal tapos nasaktan ka lang

Now you don't have control of the situation

And you pushed him away and ran

deinsy

nakakatakot talaga i-trust ulit yung tao who hurt you once before

pero kasama yon sa pagmamahal

pag-isipan mo na lang siguro if deserve talaga nya na i-trust mo sya ulit to take care of what you've given him

gil

bakit

bakit ba ang hirap para sakin na gawin to

alam ko naman na hindi nya ko sasaktan e

pinoprotektahan ko lang sarili ko

Anj Buenaventura

I think it's a natural response to trauma.

Because you've had to put your walls up all the time.

Seeing Alyssa again was probably a trigger to your younger self.

Again, not her fault. And Ivan was hurt you ran away.

deinsy

hindi na kayo yung mga bata noon bb @gil

and siguro masyado kang nasaktan noon na

when someone wants to give you what u deserve and is doing it

u have no idea how to respond

and seeing alyssa and ivan together parang naging threat yon

gil

shit

deinsy

give him the distance

kailangan nyo both nun

gil

anong distance distance

ayoko na ng ganon

😭

Anj Buenaventura

What the fuck HAHAHAHAHAHHHA

THE EMOJI?????? GIL???

gil

sure na ko sa kanya dati pa tangina naman

deinsy

make him feel it bb

he needs the assurance just as much as you do

more than you do right now siguro

pabayaan mo muna sya until tomorrow

tapos balik ka and guluhin mo na ulit buhay nya HAHAHHAHAHAH

gil

ok

fuck

kung takot akong masaktan kahapon

mas takot na akong mawala sya sakin

i think thats why i was protecting myself

before that can happen, inuna ko yung mawala ako sa kanya

nasaktan ko sya by pulling away and running

Anj Buenaventura

Sabi mo nga before sakin, hon

Unfair pag sya lang lalaban.

gil

all this time

sya

siguradong sigurado saken

palagi

lagi akong may assurance

habang ako napapangunahan ng doubt tsaka insecurity

tangina ba naman kase

wait nga lang

deinsy

bakit...

ano gagawin mo

handel

3:59 PM

handel

Ma'am

meron ka bang number ng lolo lola ni ivan

Yes

09095678322

This is his grandfather

His grandmother doesn't know how to use a phone

ok

salamat

at

kamusta si ivan

Text nyo po siya

Kiss and make up😁

🙃

Ma'am

Whatever you're going to say to his grandfather

wag ka magalala handel

hindi ako nananakit ng matanda

may sasabihin lang ako

09095678322

4:04 PM

sir go

long time no speak si margo po to

pwede po ba kita tawagan

Margo

Hi

This is a pleasant surprise

Yes, please do

ok po

09095678322

mobile

Calling...

09095678322

4:18 PM

Thank you, Margo

We will see you soon

With Ivan 😊

Handel taught us to use emojis

galing A+ for effort po

salamat din po see u soon kung patatawarin po ako ng apo nyo

He will, Margo

He loves you beyond measure

g 🔒 @nangangagat

tangina nawiwindang ako🧍‍♀️

girltrendz

4:21 PM

gil

nakausap ko na lolo lola ni ivan

deinsy

HA

YUNG MGA

YUNG MGA NAG"LAYUAN MO APO KO!!!"???

Anj Buenaventura

That was fast, Gil.

gil

dapat matagal ko na ginawa tangina

akala ko nga hindi nila ako pakikinggan pero

pagkasagot nila ng tawag sabi ko "kung bibigyan nyo po ako ng pera ulet para layuan si ivan tatanggapin ko po pero isasama ko siya. buy one get one po ito."

deinsy

GAGAJHDJSHAHSHDDHDHSS

Anj Buenaventura

😭😭😭

gil

na-confuse sila bakit daw nila ako palalayuin ulit kay ivan

e they regret what they did daw tsaka gusto nila ng chance na magsorry in person

sa ginawa nila sakin tsaka sa pamilya ko

atsaka ayaw na nila saktan apo nila ulit

and they said they would rather support their grandson's choice

AKO YON BTW TANGINA

rather than force him ever again sa ayaw nya

tapos sabi nila they're glad ivan chose me

kasi im strong and brave and loyal and kahit nung inoofferan nila ako ng pera

parang ako pa daw ang may power kesa sa kanila by the way i held my chin up high and looked them in the eyes

they will never forget that daw

and they admire me for what i did for my family

so in short

tangina approved na pala ako matagal na BWISIT NA YAN

ayaw lang nila ako icontact kasi ang shameless daw at baka hindi pa ako ready makita o makausap sila

tangina

Anj Buenaventura

I

Cannot process

@deinsy, you processing this?

deinsy

mas nakakasabog pa to ng ulo kesa sa thesis PERO

ANG IMPORTANTE

HINARAP MO NA INSECURITY MO???

TAMA SILA SA LAHAT NG SINABI NILA

Anj Buenaventura

I agree.

So never compare yourself to Alyssa ever again. You are Ivan's choice. It was you before and it's only you now.

gil

i think kaya ko lang naman cinocompare sarili ko sa kanya is kasi sya nga may approval ng family ni ivan at ako wala

kaya naghahanap ako ng mali sakin

pero walang mali sakin

ako mahal ni ivan balikbalikarin mo man mundo

deinsy

HEAR HEAR

TSAKA KAHIT NA hindi nila sinabi lahat yun yung first message mo pa lang na buy one get one

just means na willing ka makipaglaban with his grandparents this time for him

if ever that were to happen

PERO THANKFULLY HINDI NAIIYAK AKO

Anj Buenaventura

I can't tell you how relieved I am, either.

I'm so happy for you, @gil.

gil 

sooooo

ano gagawin ko

kay ivan

deinsy

well

idk suyuin mo HAHAHHAHAAHH

Anj Buenaventura

(2)

gil

putangina pano yon

Anj Buenaventura

For you to find out 😌

deinsy

AHHAHAHHAAHAHAHAH GIL HABOL ERA?

Anj Buenaventura

After syang habulin ni Ivan for 4 years

I think it's your time to shine 🤩

gil

putangina nyo

g 🔒 @nangangagat

@ivanyape tapusin na natin tong away na to. magsorry ka na dali

g 🔒 @nangangagat

joke lang ako dapat hahahhaahh FUCKING SHIT PUTANGINANG GAGO