girltrendz

7:58 PM

Anj Buenaventura

Okay, na-bandage ko na si Top

gil

ok lang ba sya

Anj Buenaventura

He didn't even notice

I think he was busy fuming in rage

deinsy

pati si jess

may pula nga lang sa mukha

gil

ok

wait lang

yape

7:59 PM

pakitandaan na gusto kita

past na natin to

Thank you for reminding me mako

Go, continue the story

girltrendz

7:59 PM

gil

ok so nung narinig ko yon

binigay ko yung susi kay ate girl

tapos umalis na ko kaagad

hindi ako umiyak

hindi ako nagalit

wala akong naramdaman sa oras na yun

sabi ko lang sa sarili ko, "ah. pinaglaruan nya ko."

tinanggap ko na

tapos

sakto

hinihintay ako ng lolo at lola nya

tapos inofferan nila akong pera para lumayo kay ivan

ilang milyones hahahahh

cliché noh?

nangyayari pala in real life

kasi daw matutuloy ang kasal

sila pala nagpa-demolish sa store namin

nagpa-evict samin

so tinanggap ko nang walang sabi sabi

i quit my jobs

tapos ginamit ko yung pera para makauwi si papa sa bataan

for his rehab

ginamit ko para sa burgundy unit namin ni rhein

ginamit ko pambayad sa mga utang at student loans at bills namin

sa tuition namin the next year

sa kotse

sa computer at bagong sapatos ni rhein pang-dance

lahat yun ginamit ko

and i quietly left ivan's life

deinsy

nasan na yung part na kakalma kami sa galit namin

Anj Buenaventura

Kaya pala bigla na lang kayong...

gil

literal na umangat sa kahirapan

sa situation namin

Anj Buenaventura

Yes

When before, you couldn't afford to eat more than once kahit sa cafeteria lang natin

Because you gave your earnings to Rhein or bought him food palagi

Bigla na lang you ate more than you went to class.

Dein and I were relieved kasi it meant not worrying when you would faint again from hunger.

deinsy

oo tangina

ang stubborn din kasi ni gil bebe

binibilhan natin ng pagkain ayaw nya

o minsan lang tinatanggap

gil

nakakahiya sa inyo

pero thank you palagi

alam ko kayo yung naglalagay ng mga snacks sa bag ko pag di ako nakatingin

thanks

nakatulong lahat yun nung gutom na gutom na ko tas gusto ko na lang itulog

Anj Buenaventura

Always, hon.

deinsy

naiiyak ako gil

at least diba nung nakipagbreak ka

gumanda situation nyo ng family nyo

dapat lang pinerahan mo si gago

gil

ginawa ko talaga

tapos sya na nagtuloy sa mga bills

pinabayaan ko kasi ayoko nang maranasan ng papa ko at ni rhein at ni tito ang walang makain at walang roof over their heads

walang means to do anything

dahil sa grandparents nya

alam ko na hindi nya kasalanan pero nagpipipilit sya

pero ngayon pinapastop ko na sya sa financial help nya pero ayaw nya

nung una, dapat ibblock ko na sya sa lahat

hindi nya ko tinatantanan e

papalit akong number ganon

bibili bagong cellphone

pero sabi ko

hindi

maramdaman nya kung ano feeling ng tinataboy

so binasa ko lahat ng texts nya pero not once

in 4 years ako nagreply

until recently

sabi ko kanina wala akong naramdaman nung nalaman kong engaged sya

pero pagkatapos non, parang nasira ako

kasi ang ginawa ko lang naman ay magmahal

tapos kahit yun, nakakasakit pala HAHAHAH

Anj Buenaventura

Gil

God, I'm crying

deinsy

GIL TANGINA MANANABUNOT AKO

HUMAHAGULGOL AKO ALAM MO BA

gil

wag hahahah

deinsy

nasan kami nito????

Anj Buenaventura

Why didn't we know

Why didn't you tell us

We could've helped you

Or at least been there for you

Listened to you

deinsy

BAKIT WALA KAMI NITO

gil

sa galing nyang itago ako

natutunan ko ding itago totoo kong nararamdaman

kaya wala kayong napansin sakin na kakaiba kahit feeling ko nadurog ako

hindi nyo kasalanan

ayaw ko talagang malaman nyo

deinsy

GIL ANO BA

WE'RE YOUR BEST FRIENDS

HIGIT PA DUN, MAGKAKAPATID TAYO E

siguro nung first year binibuild pa natin yung relationship na meron na tayo ngayon

pero hindi ka naman namin pababayaan noon

we could've been there for you nga

kasi that's what we do

and ikaw, lagi kang nandyan para samin

at any cost, uunahin mo kame

bakit hindi mo kami pinayagan na unahin ka?

Anj Buenaventura

We shouldn't be surprised, though.

Inuuna nya loved ones nya. Family before herself.

Okay lang na magutom siya basta wag lang papa nya tsaka si Rhein.

Okay lang na mapagod siya wag lang si Rhein.

It's always what I've admired and despised about you @gil

Because you never choose yourself

gil

si ivan

nung kami

inuna nya ko sa lahat

kaya din siguro ako pumayag sa patago

kasi sya ang unang nagalaga sakin

for the first time, naranasan kong ako naman ang inaalagaan at inuuna

pero im sorry

sa inyong dalawa

alam ko naman na hindi nyo ko pababayaan

may mentality lang ako na toxic na

hindi ako important enough

and syempre mas napaniwala ako don nung nalaman kong ikakasal si ivan at wala lang pala ako sa kanya

pero nandun si rhein for me tsaka si papa

alam naman nila

pero yeah im sorry

deinsy

i would murder a person for u

Anj Buenaventura

I would go to jail for you.

deinsy

kahit natatakot ako gagawin ko talaga

Anj Buenaventura

Ako din. Kahit na bawal fashion and makeup sa prison.

@gil

Just

You're important. To us. To Rhein. To your family.

To Vargas and Top and all the people who are very lucky to know you. Please never ever believe otherwise.

deinsy

yung fingers ko medyo twitchy

parang gustong manakal ng lalaking pangalan ay ivan yape hahah

lakompake he's twice my size and 6'3

how dare he do this to u

gil

putangina nyo naman HAHAHHAH

SUMASAKIT ULO KO HA SHUTA KAYO WALANG IIYAK SABE

ALAM KO NAMAN YON SO ANYWAY

UGH PUTA

so may reason pala kung bakit hindi nya sinabi

yape

8:34 PM

ok lang to tell them abt your parents

Yes baby

How are you muna

nanetong mga kaibigan ko e

I'm glad you have them and they have you

Do you want me to come over

For a hug lang

And then I'll leave I promise

ok

Okay, leaving na

dala kang pagkain

gutom na kami ni rhein

Okay mako

girltrendz

8:35 PM

gil

wala nang magulang si ivan

since high school sya

um his dad isn't chinese

yung mom nya yung Go

so naturally yung grandparents nya disapprove of their relationship and did everything to break them apart

pero his parents fought for their love and eloped to cebu

then they died on a plane crash

pilot yung dad nya

so ivan has been living with his grandparents ever since

tinatatak na sa utak ni ivan na kailangan chinese din ang mapapangasawa nya

or else ididisown sya

and wala na syang ibang pamilya

so natakot siya

deinsy

oh

Anj Buenaventura

Why the fuck would you threaten your own grandkid

And he was what, 19? 20?

gil

oo

hindi lahat ng chinese families ganito, hindi ko sinasabi lahat ng may great wall ganito

pero yung grandparents ni ivan ay traditional

galing silang mainland china

and they were very intent on keeping the Go line

so they did everything they could to control ivan

and threatened him

and si ivan na bata at takot

na wala nang magulang

walang nasabi

walang nailaban

because his grandparents took care of him since he was a child

and he didn't want to disappoint them kasi sya na lang ang apo nila. wala na parents nya e.

hindi din nya ako inexpect

akala nya ma-sasate na curiosity nya sakin dun sa math sessions namin

pero hindi daw nya napigilan na kilalanin at mahalin ako

he was going to tell me

once he found a way to tell his grandparents para mag-break off yung engagement

pero he still lied and kept it from me

and i found out

Anj Buenaventura

Wait so

Ngayon??

Did they actually disown him?

gil

no

nung umalis na ko sa buhay nya

si ivan...dun lang sya lumaban

or nagka-courage lumaban

he told his grandparents sige i-disown na sya

the second they do, they were never going to see him again

not after this

he's their last living heir

lalayas na dapat siya since his inheritance naman was coming once he turned 21

tapos na-realize ng lolo at lola nya they were going to lose him

like they lost their child, mom ni ivan

so they broke off the engagement

and ngayon...uh

yape

8:50 PM

Parking na

ivan

you said ok kayo ng grandparents mo

ano yung totoo?

walang bullshit

The truth is that we're not okay

And I haven't forgiven them yet for what they did to you

They are out of the mansion

And I only see them once a month

You can relay this to the girls

...ok

girltrendz

8:51 PM

gil

ngayon, nalaman ko lang din na

hindi sila in okay terms

kasi wala na sa mansion grandparents nya

and alam ko he only sees them once a month

so yun

/jazz hands

Anj Buenaventura

I

don't know

Whether I want to punch Ivan or hug him

deinsy

hug muna tapos pisilin sya until mawalan sya ng oxygen charot

pero totoo ako din

i am conflicted

i am confused

i am crying

gil

dein tama na iyak

deinsy

ok