TW: Self Harm
1 month later...
Joe
"Ashley? Can you please open the door I just wanna help!"

"Please just go away..."

I heard her defeated tone, I took a step back before kicking the door down. She looked at me in shock and dropped the scissors she was holding to her arm.

"Ashley..."

"I-I"

She was trembling, I stepped over the door and ran to her side.

"I'm here your okay now..."

"I don't know what I was doing!"

"I'm sorry Ashley..."

"Wrestling was my entire life and without it I don't know I just feel lost and your wrestling career is just starting I'm happy for you but I'm also so sad that mines done. I've committed my entire life to being the perfect competitor, the perfect athlete, the perfect superstar, the perfect daughter and the perfect girlfriend I can't do it anymore."

"You don't have to be perfect Ash, I'd love you no matter what."

She moved her head and looked at me, I could see her eyes are full of tears. I use my hand to cup her cheek and wipe away some fallen tears, she leant into my touch so I effortlessly brought her lips to mine. A silent interaction but one so meaningful, her tears slowed as she snuggled into my side.

Ashley
I felt his strong arms wrap around me and I finally felt safe, I don't know why I've tried to block Joe out guess I didn't want him to see me this broken. I've tried to focus on the good things but every time the shadow that is my wrestling career hangs over me. I've tried ringing so many doctors and they've all told me the same thing I'm sorry but you're done you'd think hearing that would get easier after the tenth time but if anything it feels so much worse.

"Please don't do this to yourself..."

"Hm?"

"If you need help just ask for it, I can't watch you hurt yourself."

"I know, I'm sorry."

"It's okay, just please please don't do it again. I need you and I can't bare the thought of losing you Ash, I love you so much."

"I love you too, I need help Joe..."

"And that's okay, just remember you can talk to me about anything..."

"I know and that's why I feel so stupid for letting it get this bad!"

"You are not stupid, just upset and probably a little scared."

I just nodded and he planted a kiss onto my forehead.

"I'll help you..."

My lips curled into a small and sad smile, I blinked back some tears before pushing Joe down onto the bed so we could cuddle.

1 week later...

Things are a little better, I still get the overwhelming urge to slice myself up but I just tap Joe and he'll hold me until it passes. He's been great, he even asked for a little time off which I find sweet. I've not been able to workout or anything but the trainers think I'll be able to start light exercise soon which is kinda cool I suppose.

"Hey do you want to go grab something to eat?"

"Hmmm can we just order in I'm just not ready for the cameras or the public..."

"That's fine, what do you want? I'll order it or go pick it up."

"I was thinking a buttermilk burger with hot sauce from Nando's?"

"Can I use your phone to put the order in?"

"Yep."

I chucked him my phone and he started to order when his face became a little disgruntled.

"Joe?"

"It's nothing, Nando's just removed my favourite food."

He tapped a few things before handing me back my phone.

Ding

I look down at my phone and see a text from my dad.

"How dare you? You know how hard I worked to get you where you are just for you to fuck it up and botch out your whole career."

I felt a strange pain in my heart as another text came through.

"I taught you to be so great and you end your career for some man! I thought I'd brought you up better, I can't even imagine making a botch like that just to get out of my job, pathetic!"

What? He knows I'd never give up my career for anything, Why is he saying all of this now?

"You are no daughter of mine Ashley, you should be glad there's hardly a chance of you having kids and you should most certainly be glad George isn't around! Imagine his upbringing with a mother like you, he'd be a failure just like you! I'm done with you! Do you understand me, I'M DONE."

I bit my lip and ran to my room leaving my phone on the couch, my tears fell heavily and every part of me hurts. How could my Dad say that me? He knows I bust my ass everyday for the business and now he just does this. I climb off the bed and walk over to my draw. I place my hand on the knob and go to open when I feel Joe pull me into a tight embrace.

Joe
I picked up her phone and saw the line. 'You should most certainly be glad George isn't around! Imagine his upbringing with a mother like you...' I ran into our bedroom and saw Ashley standing over her draw, I pull her into a hug and she melts into my touch. I spin her around and she crashes our lips together. I slid her top off as she unbuckles my pants.

"Ash, Do you actually want this?"

"I wouldn't be doing it if I didn't want to."

We had good sex, it's was obviously fun don't get me wrong but I don't know. After we finished Ash kinda switched off, she rolled over and was ignoring me. Maybe she didn't want the sex but needed a distraction and if that's the case then I feel horrible. I want to help her not distract her, I trace out 'I love you' on her back and she sniffles a little.

"I'm sorry Ash."

"I liked the sex but it's just everything else Joe, I'm hurting and my dad has just disowned me. I don't know what to do?"

"You'll always have me, yes I'm no Ric flair but I do love you. He's a fool for what he said, if you were a mother you'd be a wonderful one. You know in friendship groups you always have the one with the cool mom that everyone loves, yeah that would totally be you!"

She giggled before rolling over.

"And you'd be the hype dad."

I kissed the end of her nose then kissed both of her cheeks before finally kissing her lips.

"Ash, I don't mean to sound crazy but maybe we should think about it."

"Kids?"

"Yeah kids."

"The chance of me getting pregnant in the first place is so so slim never mind the actual chance of it making it through the pregnancy."

"Can we just try?"

"I mean sure but don't get your hopes up, I can't promise anything."

"So we'll just stop using condoms?"

"That's how it normally works..."

Knock knock

"Guess that's our Nando's..."