Ashley
Becky was by my side and we were watching just some program we found on the telly, I haven't asked her about the pregnancy test or told her the real reason I'm upset but I think she understands. I go to break the silence when I notice Becky's asleep, I do not want to wake her because if she is pregnant she needs lots of rest. I moved a piece of hair out of her face when she opened her eyes.

"What time is it?"

"It's 8:30."

"Oh shit!"

"What?"

"Nothing I just had a doctors appointment. Can I go call them?"

"Yes of course..."

I could hear faint mumblings from the hallway and my curiosity got the best of me, I muted the tv and listened in.

"Can we rearrange, I missed my appointment"

TW:Mentions of abortion

"Yes I know, I am Rebecca Quin and I would like to book an appointment for next Wednesday for an abortion."

"Right thank you, I'll see you then."

I quickly unmuted the tv as she walked in, I think it would be best to hear it from her. So here goes nothing I'm going to ask her about the pregnancy test.

"So Becks I found this earlier..."

I picked the test of my side table.

"Can you explain?"

She shook her head and looked down at her feet.

"I don't know, maybe it's one of the girls?"

This time I was the one shaking my head.

"Why are you lying?"

"I'm not, I'm not pregnant!"

"I heard you on the phone Rebecca..."

"You listened in on my conversation?!?"

"I was curious, why didn't you tell me?"

"Because I knew how much it would hurt you..."

"What?"

"You've always wanted a baby Ashley and I just don't..."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"I don't wanna hurt you, I don't want this baby. I know you would kill for a baby but it's just not the right time..."

"I'm not mad, I'm not upset. I just wish you would've told me, I would've come with you."

"I can't ask you to come with me."

"Rebecca your going to need someone to hold your hand and I'll do it."

"I'm sorry..."

"You have nothing to apologise for, I understand."

I pulled her back down onto the bed and into my arms, I can see just how truly upset she is and it really does break my heart to see. Although I say I do, I could never understand the feeling of not wanting a kid. I've always wanted one but I'm not going to hate Becky because she does not.

"May I ask why you don't want to have this baby?"

"My career is at its peak plus me and Colby are falling apart. It's just not the right time."

"I'm not trying to tell you what to do but maybe just talk to Colby first, it is his baby after all."

"I don't know Ash, I fear it'll only make us grow even further apart."

"Just consider it, you don't have to but just think about it."

"Yeah. Can we stop talking, I'm tired..."

"Do you want to stay here tonight, it's kinda scary on my own!"

She giggled a little and wiped away her tears.

"Yeah, Thank you."

Becky
I pull the duvet over me and Ashley and fall into an effortless sleep, I'm awoken the next day by Ashley's blaring alarms.

"Turn it off will you..."

"I'm sorry!"

She was laughing and I pulled the cushion over my head. I felt the urge to be sick, I threw the blankets off and almost made it. I was sick all over the bathroom floor, sliding down the door I placed my head in my hands.

"Oh becky...let me get you cleaned up."

She grabbed a mop off the wall and quickly cleaned up the bathroom, offering me her hand once she was finished.

"Let's get you to bed, I'm going to call Colby so you guys can talk!"

I just about managed to nod my head before being sick again, I feel horrible. I'm 8 weeks pregnant, I thought you didn't get sick until the second trimester?

"Come on then let's get you to bed."

She grabbed a bucket then carried me to bed, she tucked me in and reclosed the curtains so everything was nice and dark.

"Colby said he'll be over in 5, just try and relax. I'll mix up a remedy to try and help with the sickness."

"Thank you A-."

I grabbed the bucket and was sick once more.

"You've got a fever and your burning up."

She placed her hand on my forehead and grabbed a wet cloth of the dresser.

*knock knock*

*knock knock*

"I'll go get that, you stay here."

Ashley ran off and Colby came upstairs not long afterwards, a look of remorse staring back at me.

"Becky..."

"No, I'm fine. I'm just sick."

"Then your not fine then."

He sat on the end of the bed and moved the hair out of my face,

"About what I said."

"It's doesn't matter."

"Yes it does! I hurt you and I'm sorry."

"Colby I'm pregnant."

He fell silent and I watched him melt into pure happiness.

"Your pregnant! Becky why didn't you tell me sooner? I'm so so happy!"

"I'm sorry, I can't."

"What?"

"I'm not having this baby, Colby I'm not ready."

"Nonsense, your ready for anything!"

"Not this, my career will be as good as over Colby. I'm not ready to make these sacrifices, I don't want this baby."

"But Rebecca why don't you just thi-."

"I can't have this baby and no matter what you or Ashley say I'm not going change my choose my mind so you either leave me or you accept that I'm not ready!"

"Why don't you sleep on it?"

"I've been sleeping on it for almost a week, I've made up my mind. This is my body and I'm not having this baby."

"Okay..."

"What?"

"You don't want this baby so okay. I'm sad but like you said this is your choice, just know this I'm so sorry for what I said the other day."

"Aren't you leaving me?"

"Of course not, I accept your decision and I'll be here if you ever need a shoulder to cry on."

"I don't feel very well, can we just cuddle?"

"Yeah come here."

Although I could see how it saddened him to say that I could see that he truly meant it, that's all I could've asked of him.

"You know I'm not mad right?"

I nodded my head and sniffled at little.

"I love you, no matter what."

He pressed a kiss to my forehead and smiled at me, I felt myself blushing a light pink then I caught Colby's gaze. I took a moment before I leaned in and gently kissed him, he went to deepen the kiss but I pulled away and was sick. What a way to ruin the moment Rebecca! He held my hair back and cleaned the bucket out for me afterwards.

"I love you..."

"Even when I'm like this?"

"All the more!"

"I love you too..."

He placed the bucket down and climbed back into bed, I curled into his side and laid my head on his chest.

"We'll be okay Rebecca..."

"You really think so?"

"I know so."

I pulled myself up and placed another gentle kiss on his lips, I could feel him smiling into the kiss which made me all the more happier. I really do love Colby and I'm glad he feels the same, I never want to argue with him again. I just want to spend all of our time like this but I know things will never be perfect but as long as we have each other I'm happy.