Song: DIV - Natsu No Yukue.(JRock) Chisa is my bitch baby.

Levi's POV. 

I refused to let my eyes raise from the tea cup I currently had pressed up against my nose, and in my hands and swallowing the scorching but amazing taste of tea. I refused to let my gaze raise and see the piercing stare of those sharp blue eyes that I knew would be looking right back at me. I knew he'd be trying to catch my gaze, and read my eyes and know exactly what I was thinking. He had a fucking habit of doing that, and some how he always managed to succeed at doing so. And these days, that was the last thing I wanted to happen.

I pushed the cup away from my lips and swished the liquid around, keeping my gaze on the dark tea as if it was way more important than the person currently right in front of me, sitting across from me at the café's small four seated table. But in a sense, the tea was most definitely more important than Erwin, easily.

"You said Hanji was here as well?!" Armin asked Eren excitingly. Their conversation just now caught my ear for the first time since we've sat down. As soon as Eren and I spotted Armin, they instantly wanted to sit down and catch up and spill out all their thoughts or whatever little brats talk about.

Erwin was actually here with Armin and apparently they both woke up in the middle of a park together, similar to how Eren and I did, but different locations of course. I didn't exactly want to sit and talk, especially not with this dick eyebrow muncher that sat in front of me. So I chose to huddle into the corner of the table, and slowly sip at my Kukicha tea. I may have looked like some kind of unsocial hermit, but in some ways I was.

"Levi?"

My eyes quickly rose to the direction the voice rose, knowing it was Eren. I wouldn't have looked up if it was the oaf in front of me, fuck that shit.

I hummed in response.

"Do you want a refill of your tea?" He asked, glancing at my tea cup. I hadn't even realized I had drank all of it; I've probably been sipping at nothing for the past five minutes.

"Uh, sure." Was my response, and as soon as the words left my mouth, I knew I should have said no. Eren took my cup, and left the table to ask for a refill, leaving me with oaf and coconut.

I looked down at my lap, folding my hands together on my thighs, silently hoping Eren would return quickly so he could take the attention off of me, as I could practically feel the stares on me.

"You can't ignore me forever, Levi."

And I did just that, ignored him.

I pursed my lips, fiddling with a loose thread in my ripped dark washed jeans. I wished he could just ignore me as well, and take his attention completely off of me; it would be so much easier to hate him that way.

I heard him sigh in anger, at the same time I sighed in relief as Eren returned to his seat next to me and sat the cup in front of me.

"Thanks." I muttered, sliding the hot cup closer to me.

"When did you two become so close?" Erwin asked no one in particular, but it may as well been Eren since I had no intention to reply.

I saw Eren shrug, glancing over at me. "Didn't really have a choice since we kinda woke up together. We don't exactly know how to live by ourselves yet." I would have called him out, saying that I could do perfectly fine by myself, but it would be a lie. Eren was telling the truth; we'd both be going insane if we had went opposite directions. "Where are you guys staying at?"

"When we woke up at the park, there was a guy that led us away from the crowd and kind of took us in. We've been chilling at his house lately." Armin replied, leaning forward and resting his elbows on the table. It was then when I noticed the odd, but yet familiar mark on his elbow.

"Armin, what's that on your elbow?" I asked, knitting my eyebrows together at the mark.

Armin quickly glanced down at his elbow, pulling the skin around it to look closer. "Oh, that. I don't know, I just realized it was there the other day. Probably just some kind of bruise or something."

Eren shook his head and pointed to Erwin's arm. "He's got the same one, but on the opposite arm."

The two of them put their elbows together and realized that they had matching marks. I wanted to gag, and point out at how fucking cheesy this was all getting. Fucking marks don't just pop out of no where like that, yet be identical to someone else's mark.

After the two of them became really fucking confused, and Eren telling them about his and my marks, we were finally saying our goodbyes. At least, Eren was. I nodded towards Armin, but didn't give Erwin two cents of my time, gross.

Eren and I started walking home together in silence, but I could tell he was just busting with the urge to ask questions.

"Let it out, kid." I muttered.

"What's with you two?" He spat out, hardly before I even finished my own sentence.

My expression didn't change, as I expected this question a mile away. I'm surprised it took him this long to ask.

"It's a story I'd rather not go into." A story I'd rather not even think about.

"You can't just keep me in the dark here, Levi." Eren whined. God, he was such a child.

I ran a hand threw my wind blown hair, sighing. "You're not going to let this go, are you?"

"Hell no."

"Too bad, cause I'm not telling you shit."

"But Levi." He drew out my name, putting his hands together under his chin and was giving me the most annoying puppy dog eyes.

"That doesn't work on me."

He groaned, standing up straight. "You never tell me anything."

God damnit, he pulled that card on me. Fuck.

I turned to him, my mouth opened but quickly closed but opened again. "Don't freak out? Or tell anyone, especially Hanji?"

"I swear I won't!"

"I'm serious, if you tell Hanji, I will fucking rip off your balls and stuff them in your asshole, I swear to god."

His eyes widened, and I saw a small flash on fear glaze them. I could tell he was becoming hesitant about me telling him now. "Uh, yeah, I promise."

I secretly wanted him to change his mind and not have me tell him, but the other half just wanted to get it off my chest and tell him.

"Uh," was how I started, go me. "Shortly before everything went to shit, ya know, before we kind of died and all that shit. Well, he uh..."

Eren stared at me expectantly, waiting for me to continue. He looked like he was about to bust if he didn't find out right now. I was enjoying it very much so, and I wasn't going to stop now.

"He stole my teddy bear, Eren." I whispered, acting all serious and even went as far to pout my bottom lip out. "Mr. Fuzzy was very dear to me."

Eren glared at me and put his nose up in the air and turned away from me. "You're an asshole." And started to walk off.

I snorted out a laugh and caught up to him. "Really though, don't worry about what happened. It's not important. I know the anger won't last so you shouldn't be concerned about it."

"Well, I'd like to hang out with Armin, and I was thinking you and Erwin could hang out or something. But looks like that isn't happening."

"Most definitely not happening." I muttered, shoving my hands in my pockets of my jacket. "But you and Armin are welcome to hang out whenever. You don't need the 'okay' with me, I'm not your father."

"I would say you're too old to be my dad, but now I guess you're a bit too young for that now." He muttered, glancing away from me.

I rolled my eyes. "I'm only physically younger."

Where the hell was this conversation going?

We made it back to the house shortly after our conversation. We were gone long enough to have Kira believe we actually did stay for English Class, so we didn't have to sit and explain that we skipped. Hanji later came over after Kira had left for work that evening, and Hanji had told us she was crashing at the house for the night. We decided to not tell Hanji about who we met, at least I told Eren not to tell her, because Hanji knew very well why I was mad at Erwin and I knew she would freak the fuck out on him.

"Looks like I'm kicking you off the couch then, little Eren!" Hanji said, grinning at Eren. "You can sleep with Levi or something, yeah?!."

I glared at her, knowing what she was doing. She knew Eren had some kind of silly feelings towards me, and she's always trying to prove that I like him too, which is far from the truth.

"Uh, I don't mind. If Levi doesn't, of course." Eren muttered, glancing at me.

I shrugged, sighing. "You don't really have any where else to sleep, so why the hell not?"

"Well... I-I can sleep on the floor, if you want me to..."

"Nonsense. The floor is disgusting. Just don't get in my bubble." Like you did last time.

"Of course not! Thank you." He replied quietly.

The evening passed quickly, and the sun went down and darkness appeared through the curtains. I was brushing my teeth in the crowded bathroom, as Eren stumbled in the small room and apologized as he stepped on my foot.

"Fuck, that hurt!" I hissed with the toothbrush still dangling in my mouth as I rubbed my now sore toe. "Big foot."

Eren rolled his eyes, grabbing his toothbrush. "Better than having little girly feet like you." He whispered.

I quickly pulled the toothbrush out of my mouth and stabbed his shoulder with it. "I will fuck you up, kid."

He groaned, rubbing his shoulder as he glared at me. "You're so violent!"

"Now, now children! That's enough bickering and fighting." I heard Hanji yell from the living room. I rolled my eyes and spit the paste out of my mouth along with rinsing with water from the sink.

"Levi started it!" Eren yelled back, fumbling with the tooth paste.

"You're the one who stepped on my foot, idiot!" I growled at him, throwing my toothbrush in the ceramic holder.

"Children!" Hanji yelled once again.

"You're not my mother, Shitty Glasses; shut up."

"If you stopped acting so childish, I wouldn't have to mother you!" She replied, poking her head into the bathroom. "Aw, good boys. Brush your teeth, and you won't have any cavities!"

"I'm going to shoot myself." I muttered, brushing past her and left the bathroom.

"That's not a good way to go." Hanji giggled, following me.

"I've died once, I can do it again."

"The first time was a bit more memorable..." She muttered.

Eren stepped beside her, eyebrows furrowed. "How did you die, anyway?"

I glared at Hanji for bringing it up. "Don't worry about it."

"Aw, but Levi! It's such a cute story!" Hanji squealed.

"How did you even know about it?"

"I know things." She replied, wiggling her eyebrows.

"Were you there?"

She shrugged, smiling sheepishly. "I knew what you were going to when I saw you leave with him. I didn't have to follow to know what was going to happen."

"Wait. I remember you taking me out and into the woods, away from the head quarters. Is that when it happened?" Eren asked, leaning against the wall in the hallway we currently stood in.

I bit my bottom lip, suddenly getting uncomfortable talking about this. "Eren, don't worry about. Hanji, stop talking about it. I don't like talking about that subject."

"He'll tell you one day." I heard Hanji whispered to Eren.

I sighed, quickly disappearing into the bedroom. I had already changed into my sleeping clothes, and didn't bother taking my ACE bandage off. I didn't want what happened last time to happen again. I would make sure Eren didn't appear on my chest this time, using them as a pillow. But I did loosen the bandage a bit, knowing its not all that comfortable.

"Anyway, I'm going to sleep. You two have a good night." Hanji said, smiling at the two of us, as Eren stepped in the room.

I rolled my eyes, pushing the blanket back. "If you hear something loud, it will be Eren turning into a Titan because I ended up hurting him after he kicks me."

"I don't kick in my sleep!"

"Yeah right! Say that to my bruised leg!"

Eren pouted a bit. Hanji waved us off, giving up on the two of us and shut the bedroom door before she left and went to the living room.

"I don't kick." He repeated, arms folded and he planted himself on the side of the bed.

"Yeah you do. You move a shit ton. I will push you off the bed if I find you even a foot close to me this time." I replied, laying down. He sighed, and quickly removed his shirt and threw it on the floor. "You could have at least folded it."

"Why should I?"

"Dirty, dirty." I muttered, pulling the blanket up to my collar bones. "Stay on that side of the bed, unlike you did last time."

"I was too tired to know what I was doing last time! Sorry."

"Uh-Huh. I bet you did it on purpose. I didn't know you were a cuddler, Eren." I joked with him, enjoying the flushed look on his face. He turned away from me, switching the lamp off and got under the covers.

"Hell no. You're a bad cuddler anyway." He grumbled. I snorted in response, laying on my side. "Do you want to come with me tomorrow to see Armin?"

"Is Erwin going to be there?"

"... Probably."

"Then no."

"Oh come on, Levi! Look, I don't know what happened with you two, but I think it's time to bury the past and move on." Eren said loudly, sitting up in bed.

I looked over at from behind my shoulder. "Go to sleep, Jaeger."

"No! Not until you tell me what happened with you two. At least a small detail of why the hell you're so angry at him!" He answered, punching the blanket, as if it just insulted him. "Back before we woke up, you two seemed just fine."

"That's just it, Jaeger!" Now I was sitting up and raising my voice. "We were too good! He thought we were so damn good, and took advantage of that! He ruined me, Eren! I mean, Jesus Christ - I... You wouldn't understand." I got up from the bed and started to pace across the floor.

Eren was quiet all of the sudden, and started to fiddle with a lose string on the blanket.

"Eren, he did something to me. And I can't forgive him for that. Ever." I whispered, running both of my hands through my hair. "You wouldn't understand what I'm going through."

"I could try to understand." He muttered, looking up at me. I caught his glance, and held it for a moment. He was looking at me like he trusted me with everything he had. "I want to help you, Levi!" He stood up from the bed and walked towards me. "Let me in."

I looked up at him for a long moment, seeing his pleading, green eyes. "You wanna know what he did?"

"Yes! Only if you're okay with telling me, of course. But I want to know how to how to help you."

"I'm about 100% positive you won't know how to help me after I tell you this, because I'm pretty sure you've never been through something like this..." I muttered, gripping my shirt.

"Give me a chance to try."

I averted my eyes away from his, and looked at my small hands, my slender fingers fiddling with my tee shirt. I slowly raised my head back up and met his eyes once again. "He raped me."

The sentence itself felt like it burned me, and I flinched. Even just the mere thought of it brought a deep frown to my lips, and I could see all the horrid memories again, burning a spot right in my mind.

"What..?" Was Eren's whispered response.

I nodded, feeling my eyes burn. "It happened soon before our last expedition." I took a step back away from Eren who was currently staring at me wide eyed.

His hands trembled a bit, and one of them ran through his hair. "I... That fucking asshole."

"Eren," I started. I sighed loudly and rubbed my eyes. "Don't go and do something stupid. He's not worth your time."

"Levi! Do you hear yourself?! He did something awful to you. You can't just let him get away with something like that."

"There's nothing that can be done anymore, Eren. I didn't tell you that so you'd go beat him up. I told you that because I trust you!"

He stared at me, lips parted. "Levi - I..." He stammered, "You expect to tell me something like that, and not do something about it? Levi, no. I can't do that. Thank you for trusting me, but I can't let him just get away with that. Either you do something, or I will."

I didn't say anything and I didn't let him. But I grasped his shoulders and pulled him into me and wrapped my arms tightly around his waist. I could tell he was hesitant, but wrapped his arms around my neck after a moment a pulled me closer to him. "Thank you, Eren." I whispered, burying my face into his chest. "I knew I made the right choice and telling you."

"You can trust me, Levi."

~

"Levi. Hey, wake up."

I felt a poking on my cheek, but I tried my best to just ignore it. I knew very well who it was.

"I will push you off the bed if you don't open your eyes, dick." Eren said into my ear. "Now get the hell up."

"No. I'm sleeping." I muttered, wiggling my nose and turned over away from him.

"Oh, so you talk in your sleep? Looks like I have something else to make fun of you now."

"You're an ass."

"Come on, we're going for a walk. We're going back to Starbucks, and getting some hot chocolate."

"Are you asking, or telling me?" I asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Telling you. Get up."

I groaned loudly, but didn't move. I heard Eren sigh and felt the bed shift. I thought he had given up on me and walked out, but I found out I was wrong when I felt the blanket being ripped off my now cold body. I quickly went into a fetal type of position, hugging my legs. "It's cold as hell!"

"Then let's go get some hot chocolate and warm up!" He yelled. "Usually it's you who is the morning person, not me."

"Then lay back down and we can't act like you didn't even get up!" I suggested, though I knew he wouldn't listen.

"Get dressed, grump. We're leaving in five."

"Dick!" I yelled back at him as he shut the door behind him.

"Ass!"

"Cunt!" I responded loudly through the door. I groaned loudly, sitting up from my laying position, and quickly got ready for the day.

I had realized I kept the ACE bandage on all night, but didn't give it much thought. I felt fine, a little uncomfortable but fine. I got dressed in a black, long sleeved shirt and ripped jeans and slipped on a black belt through the loops. After changing my monthly disgusting items, I returned to the front door. Grabbing my combat boots by the door, I slipped them on.

"Eren! If you really want to go, get out here!" I yelled out to him.

"Hang on, I'm coming!" He responded from the kitchen, and returned with a piece of toast in his fingers.

I raised an eyebrow, tying my boot's laces. "Toast and hot chocolate? What a wonderful mix of the two."

"Shut up, boob." He replied, slipping his feet into his slip on Vans.

I stood up and furrowed my eyebrows at him. "Did you just call me a boob?"

"Sure did." He answered, opening the door, stepping out on the deck. "Hanji! We're leaving!"

"Hanji's here? I didn't even see her." I wondered, stepping out the door.

"She's sitting in the middle of the kitchen floor, reading some book about Giants. She said it reminded her of the Titans." He replied, chuckling and locked the door behind him, the toast in his mouth while he used both hands. "She hasn't changed a bit."

"Unfortunately, she hasn't." I muttered, quickly jogging down the small amount of stairs down the deck. I raised my arms above my head and yawned. "God, I want more sleep."

"Dude, it's like 10 in the morning. Totally unlike you."

I looked back at him as we started down the sidewalk. "Did you just call me dude?"

"Yes, Levi, I did! Do you have a problem with my names for you today, or something?"

I glared at him, pulling my sleeves farther down past my fingers. "No, it's just weird to hear you talking like these kinds of people now."

"Gotta fit in some how." He replied, taking a bite from his toast.

"You don't have to talk like them to fit in." I said, reaching to my back pocket to pull out my cigarette box. "I'd rather not fit in with these kinds of people."

"Why not? We have to live with them, so what's the problem with trying to fit in?"

I shrugged, slipping the cigarette between my lips and grabbed the lighter. "They're just all the same." I cupped a hand around the item in my mouth and lit it quickly when a flame appeared at the end of the lighter. "It seems like no one here is original. I don't want to fit in with them if it's going to be like that."

He sighed, and kicked a pebble across the sidewalk. "I guess you're right. But I don't want to be the guy who refuses to be so different, and be looked at oddly."

I put the lighter and the cigarette box back into my pocket, taking a drag from the fag and looked back at Eren, who was only a step or two behind me. "Are you referring to me?" I removed the cigarette from my lips and blew smoke away from him, not wanting to have him turn into some coughing fit again.

"No, I didn't mean that! What you do, is your business and your choice. But I, myself, would not exactly like to be like that, y'know?" He replied, quickly defending his statement from before.

I shrugged, rolling my neck a bit, trying to get the knot from a spot on it out. "Be a leader, not a follower, Eren. You'll get into a bunch of shit if you follow people around." I advised him, taking another drag. I could see him glaring at the cigarette, and I knew he wanted to say something about it being a killer. I died once, maybe I could do it again and still come out okay. He knew that would be my answer, so he didn't even attempt at pointing it out. "You're a good kid, Eren. Don't be like other people just to be liked."

He groaned, sounding almost angry or irritated.

I turned back to him, raising an eyebrow. "What crawled up your ass?"

"You keep calling me kid." He replied, looking at his shoes as he took the last bite from his toast.

"You are a kid, Jaeger."

"Not really! I'm 16, almost an adult. I don't act like a kid, anymore." He paused for a moment and I knew what he was going to ask and I already started to chuckle. "I don't, do I?"

"Ah, brat. You'll always have that inner child in you. You can't get rid of it." I replied, shaking my head as I flicked some of the ashes from the cigarette off.

He pouted a little. "I don't wanna be a kid anymore."

I chuckled a bit more, smirking. "Cute." I muttered quietly, but I knew he heard considering his flushed expression.

"Y'know, everyone is saying you look the same age as me now. So you can't really say much anymore." He said, looking smug with his sudden statement.

I rolled my eyes, taking a quick drag. "Well I sure don't feel young. I feel like I aged 10 years; I just look young." I replied, touching my face. "I looked similar to this when I was around 14 or 15."

"Where were you when you were that age?" He asked, glancing at me.

"In the undergrounds, of course. I was about 11 when Kenny left me, so I was forced to defend myself. I was about 14 or 15 when I finally found some people to partner up with." I answered, realizing I never did discus this stuff with many people.

"Thug Levi, eh?" He chuckled.

I rolled my eyes, "Something like that. I joined the Survey Corps when I was around 29... Maybe 30, so I was down there for a long amount of time."

"Shit, how did you not go crazy down there?"

I snorted, "I did go crazy. We were all crazy, but I would have chosen that life over the new life I entered when I joined the Corps. It was then when I really went crazy."

"I heard some small bits and pieces that your partners had died soon after you joined..." He whispered. "We don't have to talk about it."

"Nah, it's fine." I stared at my hands as I shrugged. "Death happens. Their death just happened to happen under a choice I made, but I was told not to regret it. Because if I were to regret it, I would never be able to forgive myself." I gritted my teeth at the thought of the person who told me not to regret it.

I saw him nod his head, and I could tell that was the end of the conversation. I threw the cigarette on the sidewalk, and rubbed it across the concrete with my boot.

"Don't ever regret a decision you make, Eren. The choice would have already been made, and you won't be able to do anything about it anymore. Best thing is to is accept it, and move on with your life." I advised him again. "Don't drag yourself under the bus like that."

"Thanks, Levi."

I nodded in response, wondering how I went from insulting him to giving him life advice. But I wasn't upset that I did, I wanted to see the kid make good life decisions and go on with his life. And even if he did make bad choices, I didn't want to see him down, like I had many times throughout my life.

"Hey, bump it." I heard him. I turned to him and gave him an odd look.

"Huh?"

He looked down at his hand, that was currently formed into a fist and aimed towards me. "Put your fist on mine."

I raised an eyebrow. "Why...? Is this gonna be like that time you told me to pull your finger? Eren, that smelled awful."

He laughed, but shook his head. "No, nothing like that. It's just something that people do. Come on, make a fist and tap mine with it."

I furrowed my eyebrows at him, but glanced down at my hands. I slowly folded it into a fist and brought it up in front of his. "Now what?" He chuckled and bumped my fist with his. "What the fuck was that?"

He laughed again, nudging me with his elbow. "It's called a fist bump. I always see two guys doing it with each other."

I made an odd look again, and quickly put my fist down. "That sounds oddly sexual. You didn't happen to watch some homosexual porn, did you, kid?"

His eyes widened quickly, and his hands shot up in front of him, waving them around. "No, god no! Nothing like that, Jesus Christ. I just saw it on some movie a few days ago." His face was flushed as hell.

I chuckled, beginning to walk again. "I'm just playing with you."

"You play too much, man."

I smirked and shrugged. "Get used to it."

We arrived at Starbucks shortly afterwards, and Eren ordered us some hot chocolate. I was surprised at how well his English has improved. Kira has been teaching us a bit more English, being that we didn't exactly want to attend anymore classes. My English wasn't horrible, but I chose not to speak it. After receiving our hot chocolates, we left the café, and was on our way back to the house. We walked in silence for most of the way. It wasn't until we were about 10 minutes away from the house when my chest started to feel right and I was feeling pain all around my torso.

My hand grasped my chest and I took a deep breath, but that only caused more pain. "Ow, shit."

"You okay?" Eren asked, looking over at me.

"Uh, yeah. Hot Chocolate is just a bit hot." I lied. I knew what the pain was. It was the damn bandage. I knew I shouldn't have kept it on all day yesterday and all night last night.

"Are you sure? You don't look too good." Eren replied, putting a hand on my shoulder and stopped me from walking. "You're extremely pale."

I bit my bottom lip, and breathed through my nose as much as I could. But then more pain struck through my chest. "Ow! Fuck, I gotta get this thing off."

"What thing?! Levi, let me help you!" Eren was panicking now, and put his hot chocolate down on the concrete beneath his feet.

"Aah, shit. Reach into my shirt and get this thing off!" I started to get dizzy and grabbed Eren's shirt in my hand and pulled it so I could stand up. My hands shook and I felt my hot chocolate fall out of them, but I couldn't give a shit at the moment.

"What?!" Eren asked, confused. But I felt his hands suddenly reach into my shirt from the bottom and they began to wander around until I felt them touch the bandage. "Huh? Levi, what are you wearing?" He whispered but began to unravel the bandage until it fell on the sidewalk. I gasped for air, and finally got enough air to feel stabilized.

I looked up at Eren and he stared at the bandage in confusion, but he didn't ask. He was focused on me at the moment, and I silently thanked him for that. Luckily, we were in more of the country side of the town we stayed in, so no people were around to see the small scene that just occurred.

"Are you okay, Levi?" Eren whispered, searching for any expression on my face. "You scared the shit outta me."

I nodded slowly, feeling a smile ghost past my lips. "I'm okay now. Let's just go home."

He nodded and snatched the bandage in his hands before rolling it up messily and quickly put a hand around my waist to keep me steady. We were then quickly on our way back home.

Now I just had to come up with some excuse to tell Eren why I was wearing a bandage around my chest. Either that, or I have to figure out a way to tell him the truth.

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