Chapter Warning: this chapter does contain sexual activity, along with rape. I will put a warning before the activity happens, so you're all aware of when it happens. Please, please don't read it if you're not comfortable with it. I don't want any of you to read something that you're not comfortable with it, especially if you have unfortunately been through events similar to these events. This chapter also does have mentions of rape throughout all over the chapter. Sorry, it's just how it came out. If you're not comfortable with reading something that even mentions rape, this chapter may not be suitable for you!!
I will put a warning before and after the scenes.
Sorry for this chapter everyone, but I'm sure some of you were to expect this! *nervous laughing*

Song: Applause (Lady Gaga) - Sam Tsui cover.
I don't think it goes along with the chapter at all, but really, has any of my songs gone along with the chapter? Lmao, nah.
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Levi's POV

Quietly knocking on the door, I bit my tongue. I knew I shouldn't be here in front of this door, waiting for it to open. I knew I should immediately turn around and follow the sidewalk back to Kira's house. But, of course, I didn't listen to my thoughts. My feet stayed planted to the entrance mat in front of the black door. I could feel my heart begin to speed up, causing me to feel light headed.

I was nervous. Could you blame me?

I was about to see the man that basically ruined me. He was going to open this door, and welcome me in and start a conversation. I wasn't sure if I'd be able to carry on the conversation. One thing I could see myself doing is reply in sarcastic responses and try to make up some dumb ass excuse to leave early. But I knew I couldn't bring myself to leave if I even did that. He had that effect on me. He would talk me into staying, and he would succeed easily. I had no confidence around him. And I absolutely hated him and myself for that exact reason.

After seconds, that felt like an hour, of waiting in front of the door with no answer, I grew impatient. I knocked again, this time a little harder. "15 seconds and I leave." I muttered to myself. But would I really leave after 15 seconds? Of course I wouldn't. My feet would be glued to the welcome mat. I wouldn't be able to move an inch even if I wanted to.

I sighed heavily as I saw the door knob turn. The door slowly opened and Erwin was standing behind the door, sending me his famous but annoying smile.

"I didn't think you'd come." He says, moving himself over to give me room to enter.

"I didn't either." I muttered, making myself move into the house. I removed my shoes at the entrance, keeping an eye on the taller male who shut the door after I entered. "Where's Armin?" I asked, realizing there was no coconut bouncing around.

"He's asleep."

Ah, how wonderful. We're alone.

"Ah. Guess it is a bit late. I suppose coconuts have to sleep, too." I said, folding my arms.

"Coconut?" Erwin chuckled at the nickname I had for the blonde kid.

I shrugged. "A weird name for a weird kid."

"He's not a weird kid. He's a nice kid."

"You got a thing for him?" I asked, messing around with my sweater, just wanting to have something to do to keep myself busy so I wouldn't look at him.

"I never said such thing. I'm hard to please."

I snorted at his response. "You eventually find away to force yourself to find pleasure." I shot back, referring to the unfortunate event that had happened to me.

"Well, you got to that subject quickly." He chuckled, moving farther into his house. "Would you like a drink? I have wine, I know you like wine."

"I'll take water." No way in hell am I drinking anything with alcohol in it tonight.

"Wine it is."

Fucker.

I gritted my teeth, but didn't find myself declining him. "Go ahead and have a seat on the couch if you'd like." He said to me from the kitchen that was connected to the living room.

I sat in the recliner, that was definitely not the couch. I crossed my legs and found my fingers messing around with a lose string from the jeans. I always found myself doing such things when I was nervous. If I wasn't inside a house, I'd be pulling out a cigarette by now.

I hated nerves. They always made me feel so vulnerable and innocent. Just like some child. I was definitely not vulnerable and innocent, and no way in hell a child. Waking up with these new body parts didn't help the case though. I felt like I lost my masculinity and my pride. I felt like I was some little girl now, and that thought alone made me hate myself.

"You look tense." I heard Erwin say, cutting off my depressing thoughts. "Drink this, it'll help." He handed me a glass of red wine.

I looked up at him and he was wearing his nice guy expression. Even I knew it was all fake, but it put me at some bit of ease and had me grasping the glass and pulling it closer to myself. He nodded in satisfaction and had a seat on the couch that was beside the recliner. He had his own glass of white wine. He knew I liked red wine much better than white. I hated that he knew that about me.

"How have you been, Levi?" He asked.

I looked over at him and he was looking at me as he took a small sip from his wine. He had his legs crossed, and his free hand rested on his knee. He looked gentle, like a nice guy who would help other people in need. Like that one guy who you would depend on always being there if you needed someone, even if it was to run an errand, like getting groceries. He looked like that kind of guy. The kind of guy that I wanted to hate.

"I've been just fine. Dying wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, so that's something." I replied, gripping onto the glass tightly in my hand. I slowly brought it up to my mouth, taking the smallest sip from it.

"Not everyone who died made it back to this world." He said after a moment. I looked back at him and raised an eyebrow.

"How would you know?"

"I was there a lot longer than you, Levi. I know things."

"When did you die?" I asked, curiosity hitting me.

"Almost a year after you." He replied. "But I woke up into this world way before you. You were asleep, I guess you could say, for a very long time. You and Eren both."

I rubbed at my forehead at this new information. I had no idea that we were actually asleep for so long. "Well, how does it feel to have two arms again?" I tried to lighten the mood, wanting to move away from the previous topic.

He cracked a grin, glancing at his right arm. "Not too bad."

"Congratulations, you can jerk off with your dominant hand now." I rolled my eyes, taking a bigger sip of my wine.

He chuckled. "You're still just as sarcastic as I remembered you. I almost missed your shit and inappropriate jokes."

"I've got many where those come from. Don't be a shit, and you won't hear them towards you."

He let out a breathy laugh, keeping his calm and collected expression present on his face. "Can we move onto the topic I've been wanting to talk to you about?"

"I would love to say no, but something tells me you're going to anyway. We've been down that road." I snapped, referring to the event that happened between us. I kept my eyes off of him and focused on the red liquid in my glass. If this topic was going to come up, this wine won't last long.

He sighed, putting his glass on the side table that separated the couch and recliner. "Levi, let's start this conversation differently. How should we start this?"

"How about the part where you raped me?" I shot towards him, swishing the wine around the cup before taking another gulp of it. "Remember that?"

"Levi, you know that didn't happen."

"Actually, newsflash, it did. I was there, hi." I said, glaring at him but I felt the glare quickly move off of my face when he looked back at me with his blue eyes. Fuck you, Erwin.

"You can't just have sex with me, decide you didn't like it, and call it rape, Levi. That makes me look like a bad man."

"Because you are! Erwin, you and I have had sex many times. I didn't just decide I didn't like the last time we did it, and call it rape. It was rape, you heard me saying no!" My voice was getting louder by now, and I quickly downed the rest of the wine, already being able to tell I may need more.

"You never said such thing, though. I would have never hurt you like that on purpose." He said, keeping his voice calm the whole time we spoke. He folded his hands on his lap. He looked completely at ease, while I found myself moving all over the place before I stood up to wander into the kitchen with my wine glass.

"That's bullshit and you know it." I found the tall glass of wine and filled my own glass up with the red liquid. "You heard me loud and clear."

"How would you know I heard you? You were clearly into when we began that day."

"At first, yeah, sure. That doesn't mean I was into it the whole time."

"You can't just be into it at first, and then start saying no. That's completely unfair to me."

"Who the fuck cares if it's unfair?! I said no, and you should have stopped!" I stayed in the kitchen, downing the wine. I knew I should have eased up on the wine, but it made me feel better. "You know you're in the wrong here, you just hate admitting that you were wrong. You love being right, and you hate being wrong. You think you know everything about me, and maybe you do, but I also know everything about you. I know how you are, I know when you're lying!"

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I was too busy paying attention yelling at him and filling up my glass each time I emptied it. I was too busy to realize that Erwin made his way into the kitchen and was behind me. I was too busy to realize his hands had snaked their way around my waist. It wasn't until he had started to touch my chest when I realized what was going on.

"It's okay, Levi. You're safe now." He whispered, pulling me into his embrace.

"Erwin, what are you doing?" I asked, furrowing my eyebrows as he pulled me towards him with such ease, as if I weighed nothing.

"Bringing you to safety. I know what you've been thinking, Levi. I know what you want. You just want to feel safe. You don't like feeling unsafe, feeling so alone. Feeling so vulnerable." I gritted my teeth as he listed off true facts about me. "You don't have to feel that way anymore. Do you know why?"

I wanted to punch myself when I shook my head.

"Because I'm here now. Just relax, I'll make you feel good."

"Erwin, I -"

"Shhh, you're safe now."

He hugged me closer, bending down so his face was resting on the crook of my neck. He silently breathed on my skin, causing small goosebumps to break out all over my body.

"Erwin.. Maybe-" he cut me off again with his soothing voice.

"You're okay, Levi. Just be silent and relax, okay?"

Why was I nodding? Why was I obeying him? Why was letting him do this? I should make him stop and run out of the house. Why was I frozen, why could I just not take control of my body and make this all stop? I knew how this would go. I would give in, and even enjoy it. But then I would start to realize what was going on. I would scream, hit him, and cry. And after it all ended, I would be a big mess. I wouldn't be the same afterwards, I wouldn't talk to anyone. I would hate myself even more than I do now. I've been down that road, and I would be going down it again.

His hands roamed my body, one hand gripping my hip, the other snaking around my hip to the front of jeans. His hand gently massaging my new feminine body part.

I cursed at myself for moaning. I knew I shouldn't have told him my secret. Maybe if I didn't tell him, he wouldn't be doing this right now. Maybe he would have lost interest. Maybe he wouldn't have been so sexually attracted to these body parts if I just hadn't told him. I'm such a fuck up for letting that spill. It's all my fault this is happening.

It's all my fault.

"Levi, you're so small and petite. You're so cute, don't you agree?" He whispered into my ear as the hand that was on my hip moved its way up to my chest, cupping onto one of the breasts.

I nodded, knowing I would have been yelled at if I disagreed.

"'Ata girl."

It stung when he called me that. I didn't want to hear that. Because that's not what I am.

He had easily stripped me out of my shirt and tore off the bandage that was around my chest, leaving my torso bare and visible to him to see. "How cute." He whispered, close to my ear. "Tell me you're cute, little one."

I felt my throat become dry from me panting in fear so much. I was scared of what was going to happen. I was quiet after he commanded me to do something, not wanting to call myself that.

"Levi." His voice was stern now. "Tell me you're cute." His hands become tight on my waist. My ribs started to hurt.

"I'm cute." It was hardly audible, but the words slipped from my mouth, just wanting to get rid of the pain from my waist.

"There you go." He replied, loosening his grip. His hands were quick to return to my chest and my pants. "You see? If you obey, the pain will stop and pleasure will return. Do you feel good?" He asks, his lips resting on my ear lobe. He knew my ears were sensitive, and resulted in me shivering.

I nodded, closing my eyes. I need to keep them opened though, I needed to be more aware of what was going to happen, maybe find a way out of this. But my eyes felt so heavy.

"Talk to me, I want to hear you enjoy it." He whispered, tugging at the shell of my ear.

My teeth continued to grit against each other, the only way I could keep my mouth shut. If I had stopped, moans and groans may slip out and I didn't want that. I wanted to be silent as long as I could. I let out a quiet hum in response, though, hoping that would be enough to satisfy the man behind me.

He wrapped his hands around me, easily picking my weak body up from kitchen's tiled floor. He quickly carried me over to the dining table and laid me across it. He bent over me, with an odd look in his eyes. "When I touch you, little girl, I want to hear you moan." His hand caressed my cheek. "Understand?"

I slowly nodded, swallowing the lump down my throat that had been there ever since his hands touched me.

He smiled at me, and moved back from bending across me. I felt his hands mess with the belt that was wrapped around my hips, along with flipped the button out of the button hole. "I remember how you loved being naked. Like the slut you were, you loved it." He said, his fingers made their way in between my pant's band and my hips. He tugged them down along with the underwear I wore, and off my legs.

I kept my eyes up, not wanting see my naked self, exposed to this man I once loved. The man my body loved. Every part of me just wanted to bow down to this man, and give myself up for him. Everything told me I needed this man to make me complete. But I knew that it was all lies. It was all Erwin manipulating me to think all this. But it was all my fault for giving in.

Coming from my thoughts, I was completely naked now. His hand rested on my hip, while the other one was between my forced to be parted legs. He was thrusting a finger inside me. "How do you feel, little girl? Tell me how you feel."

I nodded slowly, "g-good." I swallowed hard, moving around on the table. He was causing my pain from down below and I didn't like it. "Erwin," I hissed, my back arching off the table, "that hurts." He had to fingers in me now.

"Relax, sweetie. It doesn't hurt as bad now with this new area, now does it?" He mumbled, smiling down at me. He was right though, I had noticed he was penetrating my new body part, it felt a lot different this way. But that didn't mean it didn't hurt. I didn't want any of this to be happening.

My thoughts rushed off in other places, trying to force myself to sit up and get the hell out of this house, and never see this man again. But that didn't happen. Instead, I let it happen. I let him ram himself in me without a warning. I let him thrust into me multiple times. I let him have the satisfactory and moaned when he asked, and arched my back when he wanted another reaction. I wrapped my legs around his waist when he asked. I did everything he asked.

"Little one, you feel so good." He grunted, caressing my waist.

"Erwin, ha- S-Stop it." I forced it out my mouth. Not that I got that out, it got easier for me to get more out. "Erwin, get off of me."

He didn't answer, but looked away from my face. I knew he heard me, but he was ignoring me.

"Erwin, get off." I felt tears start to form in my eyes. "Get off!" I yelled, trying to push him off my trembling body. After no response from him, I wrapped my hands around him and used my nails to scratch him deep into his back, until I felt blood seek out of the scratches. He hissed and backed away from my body to try to get away from the pain. I then kicked him in his crotch with my foot, which sent him towards the floor. I scrambled to get off the table quickly, tripping over my clothes that had recently been taken off.

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Catching myself from tripping, I ran out of the kitchen, looking for any sort of door to escape to. I unfortunately wasn't around the front door and could only run into a dark room. I slammed the door shut behind me and I was relieved when I saw the door had a lock on the door knob. I quickly locked it and breathed out deeply. I was finally away from him for a short moment.

"Levi?" I heard a tired voice come from deeper in the dark room.

I jumped, not expecting someone to be in the room. I fell to the floor, gripped my knees. "S-stay away."

"Levi? It's just me, Armin." I saw a silhouette walking towards me. I crawled away from the dark image, just wanting to get away from the image who was speaking.

"Get away from me!" I screamed, my hands tugging at my hair when my back touched a wall.

"Shh, listen to me. You're okay, Levi. Look at me, it's only me, Armin." His voice was almost soothing, but a bit panicked sounding. He was scared, probably at the way I was acting. "You're shaking like a leave, Levi. What happened to you?"

I rapidly shook my head, getting as close to the wall as I could. But he kept getting closer and closer to me. "J-just take me home. I want to be h-home." Eren popped into mind when I said home. Eren could help me, I needed Eren.

My eyes started to adjust against the darkness, and the person who was in front of me was becoming more of an actual image now. It was in fact Armin, his yellow hair in a mess around his face. I had in fact waken him from his slumber. He quickly nodded, grabbing his cell phone that was resting on the dresser nearby him. The phone's light glistened against his face, showing me his panicked facial expression.

I gulped down the lump that had returned in my throat. My hands were gripping onto my knees, bringing them close to my chest. I was shaking against the wall, and tears were quickly streaming down my face.

"Eren, you should probably come quickly. Levi is here, and he's not looking good at all." Armin quickly said into the phone, bending down to my level with his hand out, as if telling me not to freak out and get away from him again. He tried to calm Eren down through the phone, who was currently screaming into the phone, asking if I was okay. I could feel myself calming down when I heard his faint, but loud voice coming from the phone's speaker. Even if it had been a few hours, I missed that voice.

After a few short moments, Armin ended the phone call, placing the phone on the carpet. He turned to me again.

"Levi. Are you okay?" He whispered ever so softly. I shook my head quickly, gripping my knees tighter. "Shit, okay. Uh, let me give you something to cover up with." He quickly jumped up from his crouched position and pulled a soft blanket from the closet. He returned to me, and slowly covered me up with the red blanket. It was warm and helped a bit with my trembling. Even though I wasn't trembling because I was cold, but scared to death. But the blanket I had wrapped around my body made me comfortable.

Just as silence began to settle, a loud knocking came from the door. "Armin, is Levi in there?"

I whimpered, moving away from the door once again. Armin looked at me after I reacted. He had a questionable look on his face. I shook my head, "d-don't let him in."

Armin looked confused, but didn't move from his spot. "Armin, I need you to let me in now. Levi is scared, and he needs me to calm him down. He doesn't know what's happening right now. Let me in to calm him down."

Armin looked back at me from the door where Erwin stood in front. I knew his body was just itching to make himself get up and obey his Commander. "Armin, don't listen to him. H-he hurt me, you need to ignore him."

"Don't listen to him, dear. Levi is not acting himself right now. He doesn't know what's going on. You need to let me in so I can help him."

"Erwin, you need to leave!" It took everything I had to scream those words towards the door.

"Levi, relax. You know you're just scared. Let me in, I'll make you feel safe again." Erwin replied, with his fake soothing voice.

"I think you need to leave, Erwin." Armin said after a moment. He was breathing hard.

Erwin groaned loudly, not liking to get declined. He banged on the door once before it went back to silence. My only guess that he got too angry and finally left. I felt myself let out a shaky, but relieved breath. "He's gone." I whispered, more to myself. I just wanted to calm down.

"Eren will be here any second now." Armin whispered, sticking out a hand to rub my shoulder but quickly removed it when I jumped at the touch. I didn't want to be touched right now by anyone but Eren. All I wanted to do is hug Eren right now. I knew Eren was my true safety; Erwin was no way in hell my safety. He was danger.

Another rapid knock on the door startled me and I jumped. I whimpered away from the door, scared that he was back. "Levi! Are you in there?!"

My eyes widened at the voice. It wasn't Erwin's anymore, it was Eren. "E-Eren!" I tried to stand up, but my legs buckled underneath me. Armin noticed and was quick to unlock the door and let a scared Eren rush in. He went straight to me, falling to his knees and bringing me into a tight hug.

"Shhh, sh. I'm here now." He whispered as I sobbed into his shoulder. I wrapped my arms tightly around his shoulders, bringing him as close as I possibly could.

"You should probably get him out of here, before he comes back." I heard Armin whisper after a short moment of silence, despite my quiet sobbing.

Eren momentarily pulled back from the hug. I could feel his whole body become tense. "He did this?" His voice was stern, it was scary. But it didn't scare me, it calmed me.

"I-I don't know what happened, but I know Erwin was in on it."

"I'm going to fucking kill him." Eren growled, pulling me into his side. "Levi, did Erwin do this to you?"

I looked up at him and into his green, angry eyes. He was completely pissed off. I weakly nodded to his question. I could almost hear his teeth grit together in anger. I shook my head though, "Don't worry about him tonight. I just want to go h-home." I sniffed after replying. My hands tightly gripped his sweater. It was warm, and it smelled like him. It was comfort.

He looked at me for the longest moment before nodding, agreeing. "I'll get you home." He turned to Armin who was standing by the door, keeping watch just in case he came back. "Armin, you can't stay here. Come with us."

He shook his head. "I'll be fine. You get him home."

"Fuck no! Armin, get out of this house now! I'm not leaving you here with that bastard!" Eren's voice was loud, dripping with anger. But not towards Armin, it was towards Erwin.

"No! You get him home, I can take care of Erwin." Armin was sticking to his decision, which I had no idea why he was so stuck on staying here.

Eren momentarily glared at Armin before scooping me up in his arms, holding me close. He left the room after sending Armin a worried look. Armin sent back a reassuring expression.

We quickly left the house, Eren was almost at a jog while carrying me. I could feel his heart pace quicken, his chest against my ear. It was soothing though, it relaxed me and that's what I needed.

"Are you hurt anywhere, Levi?" Eren whispered, looking down at me in his arms.

I furrowed my eyebrows, realizing I was in fact in pain. "My waist and hips." I whispered.

"You're going to be okay." He soothingly whispered to me.

After only a short moment, we were entering the house and he softly laid me on the couch, the closest comfortable surface he could get to before dropping me.

He caressed my cheek gently, covering me up with the red blanket. He left for a short second and returned with other blankets, and joined me on the couch, but behind me. He covered us up with the thick blankets, and pulled my close to him.

"Hey, hey, hey." He whispered after hearing me cry again. "Look at me. You're okay now. He's gone, and I'm not going to let him lay another finger on you again. If I can help it, he won't ever even see you again. He's history." He rubbed my tears away as he spoke, trying his best to calm me down and just relax me. Of course it was working, he didn't even have to say anything. Just being near him was calming enough.

"Thank you, E-Eren." I whispered, burning my face into the pillow, falling asleep to his hands gently rubbing my face and arms. I was at ease now.

But in the morning would be a whole other story. I also had to spill out my secret, very aware that Armin saw, and Eren may have even seen.

I wasn't sure if I was ready for tomorrow.

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I'm sorry omfg.

I know you guys didn't want this to happen, bUT ITS PART OF THE STORY. DONT WORRY, ITS ALL GOING TO GET BETTER I SWEAR.
Also, I apologize if this chapter seemed a bit rushed and events happening quickly after the other. I wrote this all in one day quickly, because this chapter is hella late. I was also in the car most of the time I wrote this, and was hiding it from my family lmao. I didn't really want to explain why I was writing out a rape scene.

IM STILL SAD ABOUT THAT THOUGH. THESE KIND OF THINGS, WRITING OR READING IT, MAKES ME DEPRESSED.

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