I closed my manga and giggled.

"Kawaii!!!! Hikaru finally confessed his feelings for Akane. I feel bad fir Kaori though, she loved him but Akane was better. Maybe Sasuke also will hold me like that but we are in different classes now. Mou~ Hehe. I'll talk to him tomorrow"

I smiled and lied on my bed, closing my lamp and smiling to sleep.

Its been a hectic day and tomorrow ill make sure I'll talk to Sasuke the most.
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My eyes twitched as the sun rays attacked my eyelids making me smile as I wake up.

"What a beautiful day! Thanks God. I wanted it to be a nice day."

I walked to the my bathroom and took a quick bath and came out as I ironed my uniform and started stroking my hair with the comb.

"They look bright today. I'm gonna have a good hair day."

I swept my red hair back.

They stood out the most but who cares, and only that idiot Suigetsu questions it.

I walked out and made my way to school.

My name is Karin Uzumaki and I'm a student at Konoha high school.
I like a boy named Sasuke, I was in the same class as him on my first year but due to some reason he changed it.
I've already told him about my feelings a hundred times but he always swept me away. But I won't give up. Because I love him so much and want him to do same.

I made my way to my school and felt a heavy hand around my neck.

"Yo!! Karin.." His shark teeth glowed.
I twitched my eyes as I removed his hand.

"Hi baka Suigetsu." I kinda yelled.

I hate his presence but at the same time I want to be beside him.

I turned around with a smile as I heard Sasuke's voice.

"Hi Sa-" before I could greet him, a pink haired girl held his arm and greeted him. And wtf?!! He smiled?
I went pass them.

"They are good friends.... Just friends."
I said with a strong smile trying to make me feel good.

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At lunch I saw those together again.
Sasuke waved at me. I waved again thinking that he cares about me. They are not in a relationship.

I thought I was over thinking.
Fuck I hate it.

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And everything came as hell to me when going out of school I saw the two of them kissing in a room, talking alone and saying those I love you.

I was broken like a glass.

I smiled as those tears left my face like a river.

I was feeling bad as hell. I hated every moment.

I went past the class they were in but , fuck they didn't even notice me.

I ran across the hall yelling and Suigetsu behind me. But I ran as fast as I could and went into my house.
I threw myself on bed and cried a lot.
I just hated it.

I thought my life was all happy, colourful, coz I got love, just like the manga.

But I guess I played that part who was to be rejected.

I played that silly character who is rejected no matter how much she tried.

My world all seemed to be gray all of a sudden. I hated myself.

Of course I could never blame Sasuke. He just chose her. Not me.

I can't blame the girl either. She was just better than me and fate took her side. Not mine.

I was the one on the side skirts. Even in the story I made, I played the side role.

I was always the girl in trouble with love.

Life play dirty games with you. Don't it?

And this time it fucked me real bad.

I buried my head in my pillow as I cried to my heart's content.

This was supposed to be it. Now I had no reason to act good, or no reason to look bright and beautiful.

All I have to do is pretend that I'm happy that Sasuke is happy.

But believe it. Its so much hard to see their happiness and you are not included in it.

I loved him.

But he loved her.

And that's how first love fucked me real bad.