It's been four days since Taehyung started ignoring Jeongguk like a plague, not even bothering to insult him. He plainly treated him like he doesn't exist, they didn't celebrate Christmas together either due to Taehyung being out of the house that night.

It felt different when he was being yelled at. He realized that it hurts even more when the person you love and meant the world to you ignores you like you never existed.

Jeongguk cried for the past few days and is still crying. Every night, he couldn't stop thinking about what he did wrong, on why Taehyung is suddenly mad at him when he's just being kind to him a few seconds ago.

He really thought Taehyung is really giving him a chance.

He could never be more wrong in his life.

Now he felt like a plain idiot for even assuming that. He got his hopes up—  a little higher than he intended— then it suddenly falls off.

It felt like Taehyung lured him to heaven, and when he's about to reach it, only for the latter to push him off to fall back to hell again.

In short, he felt like shit.

"What did I ever do to deserve this?" he asked himself.

It's crystal clear that he's so hopeless.

Through this year's, he kept on thinking on how could he get Taehyung to love him back. Literally did everything to get the younger's attention.

He became a slave, obediently following what Taehyung says, he blindly did everything for the younger to love him back, and even lets Taehyung cheat and get away with it, and so on.

That's how much Jeongguk loves him.

Jeongguk, despite being called a martyr by his friends— Jimin and Hoseok— and mainly Sehun, yet he didn't listen even though the already knew the outcome, he just hopes— even if it's just meaningless.

He's still laying in his bed, he doesn't feel like working, plus, he's still sobbing on his bed, too busy mourning about being ignored completely by his husband— soon to be ex.

He sniffled his snot inside his nose and wipes the remaining, along with his tears, gosh— so disgusting. He looks so ugly right now. But he doesn't care.

Jeongguk thought a lot back then before he met Taehyung. He was so handsome— still is, but he became Haggard, after two years of their marriage, he has dark bags and sometimes, let his beard grow. Jeongguk couldn't take care of himself because he kept taking care of Taehyung, waited for him almost every night whenever he comes home, drunk and smelled like sex...

It hurts Jeongguk so much. But he couldn't do anything. If he complains or hurt the younger, Taehyung would immediately insult him and would have all the more motivation to divorce him even more.

Jeongguk is the only one who kept fighting and couldn't let go of Taehyung, despite the fact that what he's fighting for was never there from the start.

He remembers 2 and half years ago, a lot of boys and girls were thirsting over him, at how attractive and hot he is, a lot of people loves him and he's actually contented and genuinely happy. He was.

Until he met Taehyung, a young vampire prince that captured his heart at first sight.

He still remembers the first time they talked, they giggled at each other, and he was actually feeling a little giddy and high, and he fell even more in love when he saw Taehyung's adorable boxy smile.

He thought he would get along. He thought.

Until their parents decided to ruin it by announcing that they would get married. They married both of them off.

He still remembers how Taehyung's face paled. How he begs Jungkook desperately to stop them, begs him and even kneel in front of him so that they wouldn't get married. That Jungkook would also refuse.

But Jungkook being the selfish person he was, just as Taehyung had accused him to be— didn't say anything. He let them do what they please despite knowing he could do something about it, he chose not to— because he thought he could make the younger reconsider and if lucky, he would fell for him. He really loved Taehyung and he wants him to be his,

But he realizes, he made a mistake. By doing so, Taehyung became distant to him. Then there goes the arguing and it somehow leads him to depression because of the hateful words Taehyung was spewing at him.

He wanted to cry and just— just die already! because Taehyung, whom he only want ever since he came into his life and the boy he will only love till the end of time.

The exact same person he could never have, No matter what he does, no matter how hard he tries, he still would never have a chance with Taehyung.

Because the younger swore to the deepest pit of hell to make his life miserable for the decision he made.

The decision to marry him, a single thing he did that ruined him drastically for the past 2 years.

So now, even if he's really a martyr and loves Taehyung so much, everything has limits.

Like him, he has limits on hurting himself—  He was already hurt a lot and is still kept getting hurt for little things he does, whether they are good or not, Taehyung is still going to be mad.

So it wouldn't matter now. He just realized that. He's done being an idiot and crazy head over heels in love with the younger.

So from now on, he decided that enough is enough. He thought about Taehyung's words. He took deep breathes and bracing himself emotionally little by little.

He wouldn't mind even if it hurts him. The most hellish thing that could happen to him. But he is used to it by now so this will probably be nothing. He laughs at himself, hard. He laughs, while his tears are oozing non-stop from his eyes, he doesn't even know if he's still laughing, or already sobbing.

He is willing to sacrifice anything for Taehyung.

If it really makes Taehyung the happiest, then...

He is now willing to let him go, completely.

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Mudafukas, I'm back. This is your author Smol_Dragon, so hello there fledgelings!!! 😭😭 I miss you guys so much! I hope someone is still reading this! My co-author on this book said he's busy so he couldn't update this book. But no matter what, this story will still be updated even if it's slow and that's a promise, I could guarantee you that. I hope you like this go because I'm so crying while writing this thing.