Kies POV

What the fuck actually just happened. Did JJ just like- admit he had feelings for me?? Technically he never said it, but I feel like that's what he was getting at. I don't know. I'm so confused.

When I got home, I put JJs shirt back on after my shower. I just wanted to be with him again. I want to talk to him, and hug him, and kiss him. He was all I could think about. The thought of what just happened gave me butterflies every time it crossed my mind.

He said we would talk tomorrow but I don't even know what to talk about really. I didn't think I wanted a relationship, but now.. I don't know. Oh but what would the others think. Should I tell Sarah we kissed again? I neeeed someone to talk to about this.

I went to sleep eventually, and when I woke up, I decided to text Sarah and invite her over. I had to tell someone.

When she got to my house, we hung out for a little while before I told her. We went outside on my dock and just sat there, talking and looking out at the water, Sitting down and leaning against a pylon.

"Sarah" I started

"Yea?" She responded as she looked down, putting beads on a string to make a bracelet.

"So you know how me and JJ kissed" I asked

"Haha yea, he actually talked to me about that the other day" Sarah said

"He did..?" I asked

"Yea, he basically just told me what you've already said" Sarah said

"What did he say" I asked

"That you guys didn't like each other like that, and it's not gonna happen again, bro" Sarah said, pretending to talk like JJ

i just laughed awkwardly

"What about it though" Sarah asked

"Uh- never mind" I said nervously

"Nooo, now you have to tell me" Sarah said

"I was- just gonna ask if he had said anything to you is all" I lied.

"Oh, well.. yea" she joked since she had already just told me that he did.

For some reason after she said that JJ had talked to her about it... it felt weird to tell her that we kissed again. I'm just so confused.

Eventually we went back inside and asked my parents if we could go to the chateau to hang out. They agreed and we got in my car and headed there.

We got to the chateau and saw pope and John b getting wood for a fire.

"Hey boys" we said and then made our way over to them

"Hey I didn't think you guys would be able to make it" John b said, giving Sarah a hug

"Yea, well, my parents love Sarah, so really as long as I'm with her, they don't really care where I go" I said.

"Your welcome" Sarah smirked

"Ha well it's only because they still think your some kook" I laughed

"Yes let them believe." Sarah joked "I'm innocent and perfect I swear"

We laughed and then me and Sarah went into the chateau to get a beer.

We came back out and JJ was there now too. I wasn't expecting him to be there so I was a little thrown off at first.

We weren't awkward or weird or anything we just both knew that we needed to talk, and that we just needed to find a good time to break away from everyone.

I think we silently agreed to just wait until it was time to leave because he didn't try to mention it at all the whole time we hung out by the fire. Neither of us wanted to make it suspicious.

I think maybe I could have been caught making eyes at JJ. I couldn't help it. Sometimes I would just catch myself starring at him and smiling. Then I would snap out of it and look around and just hope that nobody noticed.

But the thing is, I caught JJ doing the same thing. So I really think we're on the same page here. I think...I hope.

After a while by the fire, we all went inside since the bugs were getting bad. We hung out inside, JJ didn't sit next to me this time though. I didn't think anything of it, I just assumed he didn't want to make things obvious or he just didn't want to talk about it then.

Me and Sarah sat on the couch together and he laid on the pull out bed. Honestly I don't even think Sarah was suspicious of us anymore.

We could tell that everyone was getting tired and the night was coming to an end.

Everyone but me was staying the night and we were all in the kitchen. People were yawning and saying that they were about to go to sleep. I was sitting at the barstool just waiting for them to go in before I left, since I liked being around them.

"Is now a good time to talk" JJ came and whispered in my ear casually.

I looked up at him and then observed everyone else who wasn't even paying attention.

"Yea, come on" I said, grabbing my bag off the counter and me and JJ went out the door.

We started walking to my car in the dark. The only real light was coming from the full moon. We were just making flirty small talk until we got there and then he stopped and looked at me.

"So.." he started and then paused for moment "we kissed again"

"Yea.." I said, blushing a little and looking down. Here it was. This is the conversation that's going to define what we were. Omg I was so nervous.

He smiled a little as he saw me blush.

"So What does that mean" he asked softly

"Uhm.. I'm not really sure" I said. I don't know why he was asking ME like I knew.

He thought for a second.

"What do you want it to mean" he asked. He was talking so seriously it was throwing me off. Why was it kinda hot..

"Well" I Saïd, not sure how to answer that. "Uhm"

He laughed a little while he saw me struggle with the question.

"Let me ask you an easier question" he said with a little smile "do you.. like- y'a know" he shrugged a little as he now struggled to ask the question

I gave him a confused face as he looked up and took a deep breath like he was summoning the courage to say it.

"I like you, Kie" he said, finally, scrapping the question "like more than a friend.. obviously" he chuckled a little since we had already kissed twice, so yea it was obvious.

I just looked at him and smiled as he talked, biting my bottom lip a little to try and hide my blushing.

"And I don't know if I'm ready to exactly, y'a know.. be IN anything yet" he tried to explain "and, I don't really think you are either.. but.. I do like you like that"

I thought for a second.

"I'm really happy to hear you say that" I blushed, looking down a little "Because um.. yea"

"Yea?" He laughed, knowing what I meant.

"Yea" I laughed and looked back up at him "I like you too. Like that"

He smiled and his dimples were so freaking cute.

"And yea, I'm not necessarily ready to be IN anything yet either" I said, letting him know that I knew what he meant by that. "So... what is this.. like a friends with benefits situation or something?" I asked slowly, not wanting that to be the answer.

"No. No" he shook his head, quickly shutting down that thought "I don't want it to be like that"

"You know JJ, there is this stage called talking" I suggested, knowing he knew what that was.

He dropped his head and laughed through his nose

"Yea there is a stage called talking" he said, looking up, still blushing.

"Just sayin" I shrugged flirtatiously

He looked at me and smiled.

"So Kie" he blushed and I pretended like I didn't know what he was about to say but he obviously knew I knew

"Yess?" I asked, dramatically pretending

He laughed at how obvious I was being. His eyes scanned my face and he continued to blush

"Okay so we're talking" he smiled and stepped closer to me

I bit my bottom lip as I smiled

"So we're talking" I shrugged sarcastically like it was no big deal as I stepped closer to him as well

He chuckled a little and slowly inched his hand on my waist as he looked into my eyes.

I was so fucking happy you have no idea. I excitedly wrapped my arms around his neck and gave him a tight hug. When we pulled back, he kissed me.

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