" Don't look at the storm outside, Look whats happening inside."
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"It hurts Kam, " I say as I'm sitting at the top of my friend's bed with her hugging me while I'm a sobbing baby.

"It takes time he will learn to let things happen in their own time and not rush you, " she rubs my head as I rub the tears from running doing my burning cheeks.

"What if he leaves me?"

"He loves you too much why would he?" She says in a worried voice.

"Because I'm a fucking scared virgin!" I say grabbing a pillow behind my and chucking it out of anger across the room.

"It's going to be fine if it makes you feel any better Jimin and Yoongi went up to your guy's room to talk with him, " I shrugged my shoulders and shook my head at how we have ruined the trip on the 1st day.

"I guess maybe they can calm him down too because I left him and myself a mess, " I lay down on Kam's and Jimin's bed and close my eyes trying to forget everything that I know I can't forget. I started to drift off to sleep when I felt a blanket put over me and heard the door close.

Namjoon POV:

"She can't leave me!" I say as I slam my whiskey glass on the countertop of the kitchen island where me Jimin and Yoongi are sitting at.

"She is not gonna leave you Namjoon stop thinking that way, " Yoongi says as he pats my back. I notice Kam coming down the stairs and into the kitchen with a worried look. I pour myself some more whiskey in my glass and down it.

"How is she?" I ask Kam who is in the fridge grabbing a water bottle out.

"Sad and worried can't really describe. But, you need to fix this because we didn't plan this trip so you two can argue. Fix it as soon as you can or who knows what is gonna happen." She leaves the kitchen and goes into the living room where she turns the TV on.

"Fuck, pour me some more Chim, " I pass my glass over to him since I ran out of whiskey on my end of the island.

"Joon I think you've had enough to drink, " he says with concern as he looks at Yoongi for some help. I slam my first on the countertop causing Jimin to flinch while Yoongi acted normal as he sipped his wine.

"Just give it to him, " Yoongi grabs the bottle from Jimin and shoves it in my hands without looking at me. I stomp off up the stairs with the liquor in my arms not bothering to look back at their disappointed faces.

No one's POV:

"But, Yoongs..." Yoongi put his right hand up to silence Jimin from protesting what he just did. Kam came back into the kitchen after hearing Namjoon storming up the stairs. She crossed her arms as she stood beside the island.

"He has to learn sooner or later, " Yoongi says as he looks out the kitchen window and sees the rain coming down from the night sky.

"What do you mean?" Kam says as she tries to see what he is looking at.

"That drinking or overdoing thinks won't take away the pain. I learned the hard way when Kate left...besides that, it's raining tonight." It was like a light bulb went off in their heads.

"He's afraid of storms when drunk, " Jimin says.

"And she loves them, " Kam says with a smile on her face knowing how to get the feuding girl and boy to make up.

Or will they?

End POV

I woke up with the sound of what sounded like pebbles hitting a can. I forgot that I was still in Kam's and Jimin's room. I tossed the blanket off of me and went to the side window and opened the white curtains to see rain pounding against the window and lightning in the distance.

I released a breath of air that felt like it was trapped in my lungs. Watching the rain as it soothed my nerves and stress that has built inside if me.

Flashback
Memories from a year ago come back to me. When I and Joon had one day to spend together before he had to leave. We had gone out and got some coffee from a local coffee shop. We decided to walk around town until it began to rain. Joon had taken his coat off and put it over our heads until we were under a canopy of one of the shops. I watched the rain as it hit the sidewalk and the flowers.

" Isn't it beautiful Joonie?" Suddenly there was a 'boom' and I saw Joon with a scared look on his face and he grabbed my hand for dear life.

"Storms scare me, ever since I was small, " there was another boom and Joon let go of my hand and hugged me.

End flashback

"He hates them, " I whispered to myself as another flash appeared from the window. I ran away from the window and out the door almost tripping over my feet trying to find our bedroom door. I had finally found it but it was locked. I tried knocking which lead to pounding on the door. I put my ear up to it and could hear small sobs and whimpers coming from inside.

"Joon! Let me in please!" I pounded on the door again but, it was like he wouldn't let me in. I go over to the neighboring room and knock on it. It opened on my second knock revealing Jin in a pink robe.

"What wrong?!" He says as he looks around for danger or something.

"I need a key or something to open mine and Joon's room he has locked me out and he needs me!" Jin just nods his head and goes to his side table and pulls out a skeleton key.

"Here!" He puts the key in my hand and smiles at me. I thank him as he closes his door back.

Before I unlocked it I put my ear back up to the door and could still hear him in there. I hurried and put the skeleton key in the door and unlocked it.

"Joonie" I whispered as I see the room a mess with his clothes everywhere along with papers. He had on a pair of basketball shorts and not shirt on. He had sweat running down his face with a scared look.

"Go away, Ana!" He shouts as he throws a pillow at me. I noticed a bottle of whiskey on the nightstand.

"Joon, I'm not going anywhere" I went and sat beside him as he scoots away from me to the other side if the bed. I try to touch his hair but he pushes my hand away.

"You are having a panic attack let me help you!" I slide right next to him to make him look at me.

"Why don't you leave! I'm letting you!" I shake my head at him as I see tears coming from his eyes.

"What makes you think I want to leave?" I say as I wipe the tear from his dimpled cheeks. He just shakes his head.

"Please don't leave me! Promise me please, " I hug him and cry with him as the storm continues outside. I pull his face up from my neck and kiss both of his cheeks.

"I can't leave you and I won't, " I say as I watch his drunk eyes scan my face. He wipes my tears and pulls me closer to him. I play with his hair as he begins to fall asleep.

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A/N:

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