I had faced foreboding things in my life but this certainly was at the top of the list.  My mom had told me once that people could sense when they were about to receive bad news.  She said that the eyes spoke to the soul more eloquently than words.  They gave a glimpse into the human heart where only the truest feelings were expressed.  However, the mind needed to comprehend these feelings and the mind needed words.  I didn't have the words but I figured it would just come to me.  

Tae called from the airport to say he would be home soon.  I waited looking out the window of our home as I had done many times before.  By the time he arrived, it was almost dusk.  I turned around when I heard him and he took me in his arms for a kiss.  I moved my face away avoiding our lips touching.

This made Taehyung instantly angry.  "What's wrong!" He roared.

"You've been drinking,"  I said smelling the alcohol on his breath.

"I was upset and worried about you." He says still annoyed.

"I'm alright. See?"

"You seem distant like you don't want me anymore." His face was etched with the pain I had caused.

"Tae we're like strangers, I hardly ever see you."  I wanted to come clean before I lost my nerve. I took a deep breath and said, "This isn't working. I'm not happy and neither are you."

"I know.  I can't stand this.  How can we get closer if we are never together?  And you... you're always with him!"

"You're mistaken, I'm not," I said.

"You slept with him last night!  Am I supposed to be okay with that?"  Tae said slamming his fist on the table.  

I jumped in fear.  "Don't do that!"

"I'll do whatever I want!"  He grabbed the plate on the table and threw it.

"There's no point in speaking with you when your drunk. I'm leaving," I said afraid to confront him when he is like this.

"Go ahead and try."  He said menacingly making a move to grab me. I ran to the bedroom avoiding him and locked the door.  Tae yelled, "open the door, Jinny!"

I cried my hands shaking as I looked around for my phone.  I was scared of Tae and what he might do to me.  I could see the door rattle as he shook it violently, banging on it with his fists.  I came closer and hung on to the door nob.

Tae kicked the door furiously unintentionally knocking me down in the process.  I instantly felt a stabbing pain in my abdomen that took my breath away.  Tae picked me up and dragged me to the bed pinning my arms down.

"Stop!" I pleaded. "It hurts so much! Stop!"  Taking shallow breaths I held on to my abdomen as soon as he let me go.

Tae sobered up immediately his eyes wide with fear.  "Jinny, I'm sorry my love. I'm sorry."

"I need to use the bathroom,"  I said trying to get off the bed.

Tae helped me as I bent over in pain, tears falling down my cheeks.  He noticed the blood and got scared, "What can I do?"

"Tae take me to the hospital. I think I'm having a miscarriage and it's very painful."

"Miscarriage?  Are you pregnant?" Tae said with a weird wonder in his voice.

"Yes, 10 weeks,"  I said.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"I wanted to tell you in person," I said my voice alarmingly light.

"Is it mine?" He asked looking very serious and grave.

"Yes." Jinny said sorrowfully, "I heard the little heartbeat in the hospital yesterday. But today... It's like the baby knew it was unwanted."  I cried inconsolably the pain racking my body along with the inconsolable guilt.