Hiya kittehs. Before I start this chapter, I wanna tell you something.

I have suffered from depression. After two years of therapy, I'm much better, but some days I still feel utterly useless and pointless.

In this story, I'm gonna be exaggerating it for the point of good story telling, but I want to say something.

Depression is not cute. It's not romantic, or poetic, or anything. It's awful. And it's a disease.

So on that happy note, on with the chapter!

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I sighed as Sam walked off to the Principal's office, yet again. Honestly, that girl is something. Kakashi cleared his throat, and then began the lesson. We did some vocal warm ups, and then Kakashi told us about the school play. We were going to be doing Alice in Wonderland. But, of course the High School kids claimed that Alice in Wonderland was 'boring' so instead we were going to be doing an adaptation of the new Tim Burton movie. At the end of the class, he posted a sign-up sheet, if any of us wanted to audition. I went up and started to write my name beside Alice, and I noticed that Karin and Ino had already signed up for her role, as well as five others.

Karin noticed where I was writing and sneered.

"Wow, you think you actually have a shot at that role? You can't even sing." She said to me. I stared back at her, making direct eye contact.

"Well, Karin. If I recall, you were booed off the stage of our middle school talent show, right?" I asked. Karin and I both came from out of town, and we both went to the same middle school, same as Ino. But, they had moved earlier than me, right after the talent show incident, and when I moved here a year later, I had discovered that Karin already ruled the school.

"Whatever." She sputtered. "I-I'm a lot better now! I'm taking vocal lessons!" She said, her voice cracking at the word 'lessons'.

"Is that so?" I asked. "Cause your voice still makes me want to rip my ears off." She growled at me and grabbed the collar of my shirt pulling me in close.

"I wouldn't act so tough. Remember the last time you tried to stand up to me?" She asked. Obviously not wanting an answer, she continued. "That's right. Your little adorable boyfriend Deidara left you for me." She finished.

"Well, he left you too." I said, but she had won and we both knew it.

"Doesn't mean I can't do it again. How about I go after Hidan, hmm? That's right. I know about your little crush. And I'm already way ahead of you. For starters, he actually knows my name."

She let go of me then, and walked away, leaving me alone with the sign up sheet. With a shaking hand, I picked the pen back up and finished my name. Then, after a second of thought, I wrote down Sam's name beside Red Queen. I knew she would like that role. And then I wrote down Haley's name beside White Queen with Manga in brackets beside her name. No one had signed up for that role, so it was practically guaranteed. I knew Manga would want to just do background work, but this would be good for her. She really is an amazing singer. I hear her sing in the shower sometimes.

My head started to feel a little woozy, and I widened my eyes in fear. My medication. It had been two hours since I had taken it. I ran to my locker and opened it, fumbling around in my bag until I produced a bottle of anti-depressants.

I unscrewed the cap and shook the last two pills into my hand. Great. I would have to get some more from the drugstore.

Just when I was about to toss the pills into my mouth, someone slapped them out of my hand. I looked up to see Ino smiling down at me.

"What's this, freak? Your happy pills?" She asked, laughing.

"Ino... please don't." I said, feeling absolutely helpless.

"What was that?" She asked, as she raised her foot. "Don't what? This?" She asked as she brought her foot down and ground the pills into the floor.

I felt tears brimming up in my eyes, and fought to keep them in.

"Aww, what's wrong? Is the sad little freak gonna cry?" Ino asked laughing.

"Hey! What the f*ck are you doing?" Someone yelled. I looked up to see Hidan walking over. Ino jumped. Hidan was now beside us, and towered over Ino. "Why are you still here?" He asked. "F*ck off!" Ino made a sound somewhere in between a squeak and a yelp, and darted off. Hidan offered me a hand and I took it, getting up and dusting myself off. I wiped away the stray tear that had run down the side of my face, but a new one quickly ran down to replace it so I didn't bother.

He pointed down at the orange dust on the floor that was once my pills.

"What are those?" He asked. I bit my lip. Not even Manga or Sam knew I had depression. I wasn't sure I wanted to tell someone who didn't even know my name.

"Just... medicine." I said. He rolled his eyes.

"Obviously. I mean, what kind of medicine."

"... Prozac." I said, nervously. I knew he was probably gonna judge me like everyone at my old school. He narrowed his eyes.

"Prozac? You mean anti-depressants?" I nodded, unable to say anything. "Well why didn't you say so? Come on, let's go get some more." I let out a shaky breath, but it hitched and turned into more of a sob. He looked worried.

"Oh god, why are you crying? F*ck, did I do something wrong? F*ck!" He said, running a hand through his silver hair. I shook my head.

"No, I'm just relieved." He looked at me confused.

"Relieved?" I nodded.

"I was worried you might treat me like a freak. Or some fragile thing." He stared at me, the same confused look on his face.

"Why the f*ck would I do that? Any way, let's get you some medicine." He said walking down the hallway. I walked beside him. "You're the new member, aren't you? What's your name, anyways?" I smiled and laughed quietly.

"Lucy. Lucy Naito. Don't you forget it!"