My eyes widened in shock when I felt Applejack smash her lips on mine. Even though I tried to push her away, she kept on pulling me back to her body.

This feels so wrong.. But it somehow feels so good. I was loosing myself at the time so.. I kissed back, placing my hands in her shoulders while Im standing on my tiptoes since she's taller than me.

After a few minutes of kissing passed by slowly, I immediately pulled away from the kiss as my cheeks were still reddened same like hers, Aj on the other hand placed her hand behind her neck while looking into my eyes.

Rd: "A-applejack.. Why?"

Aj: " I cant help mah self no more Dash.."

Rd: "W-what? What do you mean?!" I asked, backing away from the cowgirl.

I was feeling so confused at the time since this is my first kiss. I usually dont think about a love life not until I met Applejack, something about her sparked my soul..

Yeah I maybe boyish but why would anybody fall for a girl like me? A loser like me?! Is Applejack just playing with me? Suddenly, my thoughts vanished when she finally spoke up.

Aj: "Ah.. I like you Rainbow."

My eyes widened in pure shock once again when she finally confessed. My whole body was literally shaking because I feel so confused yet so.. Happy?

Rd: "A-a.. As- a friend?" I stuttered, looking the other way to avoid eye contact.

Aj: "No.." She started before pulling me to her body again, making me look back into her emerald eyes.

"I like you even more as a friend.."

Rd: "Applejack I.."

Aj: "You what? Do you feel the same thing too shrimp?" She said with a grin while cupping my cheeks.

Rd: "Applejack.."

The cowgirl gasped in shock when she realized I was tearing up. I was so confused at the time that panic over thrown my whole body.

Aj: "Woah why are you crying? Did I do somethin' wrong?" She asked worriedly before wiping my tears away.

Suddenly, I just snapped..

I pushed Applejack away from me with all my strength, causing her to fall on the ground.

Aj: "Woah Rainbow!" She gasped in shock.

Rd: " Why are you doing this?"

Aj: "Doin' what sugarcube?"

Rd: "Why are you doing this to me? You make me feel so weak inside!"

Aj: 'W-what do you mean..?"

Rd: " Ever since I first saw you back at the tournament.. I used to envy you! Your height, your skills, and the fact that your perfect! But now you try to play with me? I thought you hated me!?"

Aj: "Dash.. Can you just listen t-"

Rd: "All you do is make me feel weak and confused all the time.. Remember the time when you pinned me back at the tournament? When you punched me in the stomach for club applications? I tried to be nice to you but you kept on hating me! And now.. I still hate you.. "

Aj: "I changed now goddammit!" She growled back, getting back to her feet. "The only reason why I was being hard on you because I envy you!"

Rd: "You.. Envy me?" I asked surprised.

Aj: "You dint notice?! Oh Celestia your dumb.."

Rd: "Screw you! And why do you have to envy me? I dumb and weak right?" I replied with a broken voice.

Aj: "I.. I envied your passion for volleyball, your great team, your skills, and I envied your dreams for being the next Ace.."

Rd: "Then why kiss me earlier if you truly hate me that much?!"

Aj: "Because I changed.. You wanna know the reason why I attacked you last year? Because you are the reason why my tosses kept on missing.."

Rd: "Why me? Your just dumb enough to toss the freaking ball to high right?"

Aj: "Shut up and let me explain!" She growled in anger after he grabbed my shirt, making me gasp in slight fear.

Aj: "I get so confused and out of focus whenever I see you.. I was young at the time so I dint know what love is! That's why I attacked you in the bathroom because I thought to myself that it was jealousy.. Not love, but I was wrong and I just realized it last month."

"And now I realized that I was slowly falling for a jackass like you.."

Now It shocked me that she finally confessed why she had anger towards me for 2 years, we were just envying each other.. But I had no idea of it until today.

I then growled back in anger after I grabbed her shirt to face me, making her slightly bend down to match my height.

Rd: "But.. Why do you fall for a girl like me? Im weak right? I asked with a forced smile while my tears freely drip down my face.

Aj: "I- I was just kidding about that Rainbow.. If I'll be honest right now, you are the most strongest person I know. Your passion towards Volleyball and everything really inspire me to play with you."

Rd: "This is so messed up.. I cant be lesbian for you.. Im so sorry."

Aj: "B-but when we kissed! I felt you kissed back!" She nervously yelled back.

Before I could even answer her, we both heard a familiar female voice from the back so we both looked back and saw my mother on the front door.

Ww:" Rainbow? Sweetie what's going on?"

Rd: "Mom!" I yelled in nervousness before letting go of Aj's shirt.

Ww: "Is there something wrong dear? I thought I heard some yelling over here."

Rd: "No mom.. It was just a few kids who passed by." I lied while slightly bowing my head to avoid letting her see that Im crying.

Ww: "Oh, well hurry up and saw goodbye to your friend. Its time for dinner!"

Rd: "Okay mom! I'll just go inside okay?"

After my mom nodded and went back inside, I lastly gave Applejack a mad look before running inside my house.

Aj: "Rainbow.. I.." She stuttered but I ignored her.

As soon I got inside, I immediately slammed the door shut and ran up to my room, making my mother watch me in confusion.

Ww: "Honey its time for dinner!"

Rd: "Im not hungry mom." I answered.

I then got in my room and locked the door before seating on my bed. My feelings were so mixed up that I can't even describe how painful it feels.

Rd: "What the hell is wrong with me? That's chance to tell her the truth.."

I was too blind to see that hurting you was also hurting me..

Rd: "Danm.. Im not good at this sh*t called love!" I yelled in anger as I grabbed my ball and threw it on the wall.

The ball then deflected of the wall and went directly into my face, making me fall down in bed.

Rd: "Good f*cking Celestia!!!" I yelled in pain.

After a few hours of raging out passed, I eventually calmed down by practicing my tosses on the bed. Suddenly, I stopped throwing it when I saw the door opened.

I then sat up and saw my little sister peeking at me.

S: "Heya big sis.. Feeling okay now?"

Rd: "I never been better scoots.." I lied with a forced smile.

S: "We literally heard your screams and cusses from downstairs." She laughed after seating next to me afterwards.

Rd: "Did mom also hear it?"

S: "Yeah she did heard you say a couple of bad words but she's somehow fine with it."

Rd: "Thank Celestia.."

S: "But luckily Dad did not hear you because he's still at work."

Rd: "Yeah I think he's gonna kick my ass he he hears me cuss." I laughed.

S: "Yep! Oh by the way I saw you make out with that cowgirl."

Rd: "YOU F*CKING WHAT?!"

S: "Woah relax sis!" The twerp yelled back.

Rd: "You weren't supposed to see that kind of things! Your still young goddammit!"

S: "Bruh Im already 12 and your still kind of young to kiss a girl ya know?"

Rd: "Im 14 you twerp!"

S: "Yep your still young, but.."'she started, placing her hand on my shoulders afterwards. "Do you really like girls instead of boys sis? I mean you barely even show signs of your love interest in your entire life!"

Rd: "I honestly dont know anymore Scoots.. Its all so confusing."

S: "But who is that cowgirl with you?"

Rd: "Okay how the hell did you watch us?"

S: "From your bedroom window." She answered while pointing at the only window on my room.

Rd: "Goddammit your too young to be smart."

S: "And your too young to kiss a gi-"

I immediately covered her mouth when I saw the door knob being twist open.

Rd: "Hey mom!" I nervously greeted when she opened the door.

Ww: "Hi sweetie, you okay? I haven't ate your dinner yet."

Rd: "Oh Im fine mom, Im just talking to scootaloo."

Ww: "Oh what are you talking about?" My mother asked with a warm smile.

S: "Were talking about when Rainbow dash ki---"

I quick covered the idiotic sister'¢ mouth before she could even finish.

Rd: "Ki--- killed a cockroach on the streets! Yeah that's me.. Hehe."

Ww: " Wow what a weird topic to talk about but sure, I left you some ramen downstairs incase you get hungry dear. " she lastly laughed before closing the door.

After my mom left, I immediately smacked my little sister's head which made her gasp.

S: "Ouch why did you do that?!"

Rd: "You almost told mom that I kissed a girl!"

S: "But its great news isn't it?"

Rd: "No.. No its not. And to clear things up, I dint kiss her, she kissed me first."

S: "But I saw you kissed back." She teased while wiggling her eyebrows.

Rd: "Okay that's enough get outta my room!" I yelled back in embarrassment.

S: "But you haven't told me if your lesbian or bisexual."

Rd: "Im none of those.. Im just confused, for now. And dont tell mom about it please.."

S: "Ugh fine! Imma go practice my soccer now, wanna help me?"

Rd: "Maybe sometime scoots, I just need to rest for now okay?"

S: "Ugh your no fun!" She lastly said before running out of my room.

After the twerp finally left my room, I laid back down on the bed, staring at my poster of the Ace on the ceiling.

I cant stop thinking about Applejack.. She must be devastated right now.. I just hope nothing will change between us tomorrow.

Im sorry Applejack.. I should have told you the truth.