Whatever you're going through, I hope that doesn't bother you for long.
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One month after Caratland, had passed in a blink of an eye.

And guess what? We were in the middle of preparing for a huge and special stadium tour. And it was worth it.

Holding concerts in such huge venues was a great achievement for any artist. And we had finally earned this opportunity.

Finally, we were achieving whatever we had once dreamt of.

These things used to seem way too far away in the beginning. But now we were getting closer to them, one by one and all we could say was that, this was just the beginning.

But standing in the middle of the practice room, all I could imagine was Coups hyung's and Jeonghan hyung's content smiles to see us achieving everything together.

They wanted us to succeed as much as me and every other member wanted to.

What did they do to miss this experience? Why couldn't they see this happening? Why weren't they here to be a part of this immense achievement?

"Hey, where are you lost?" Joshua hyung nudged me.

"Nothing, hyung." I sighed.

"Wow, stop lying." He gently rebuked me.

"Seriously hyung." I assured, "I'm just proud of all of us."

"That's true, we all are."

Right, we all are. Imagine if during those few points of time, we would've decided to give up?

But, we didn't. Our hardwork, will power and dedication brought us here.

Now, that I look back, I'm glad that we decided to fight against all the odds and stand up once again.

We were too broken, too shattered and too dejected at times but our team remained intact because we were a great team.

When I recall those days, they still manage to give me goosebumps.

How everyone just wanted to be surrounded by darkness.

How everyone was always in tears.

Along with being broken down on the fact that two members had left us, I was also very scared for the members I had.

Because, no one was sane enough to think right.

We were at the most dangerous phase because we were emotionally at our worst.

Probably, we still are.

But as they say, experiences give you lessons.

And the biggest lessons come after the greatest downfalls.

There were those few words that were always lingering in my mind.

"Even if I'm not there to hold you, please don't fall because it would eventually hurt me wherever I would be."

"You know I can't leave you guys. Will I ever be able to escape your hearts?"

The words of my hyungs. I could now feel the weight of those words.

Yes, Coups hyung, we didn't fall apart, I hope you aren't hurt.

Yes, Jeonghan hyung, your memories never escaped our hearts.

We still missed them a lot.

The only difference was that now we didn't have tears in our eyes but a grateful smile.

If they think we'll forget them then they're very wrong.

With time, I realised that we don't have a say in life and death. When it has to come, it comes. No one can stop it.

The only thing I regretted was the fact that they left us at a wrong time.

They left us with agony and pain in their hearts.

Because in those times, a few arguments were always going on among us.

I just hope that in their last moments, they didn't think that we hated them.

Even if we weren't there for them, I just hope that they knew how much we love them.

Or else, it won't be easy for us to forgive ourselves.

If we get a chance to go back in time, we would definitely take back all the hurtful words that we had unintentionally threw at them.

"Yah you shut up." I heard Seungkwan's voice. He was bickering with Dino. A smile crept up on my face as I could see things slowly turning back to normal.

Umm okay not exactly back to normal but yeah about seventy percent? It was enough, to be honest.

"Put your phone down!" Seungkwan continued.

"Wait a minute, just one." Dino whined while focusing on the screen.

Seungkwan snatched his phone away and laughed while running away.

"Seriously hyung?" Dino stood disappointed, "I know you did this so I won't beat your highscore."

"Yeah whatever, take your phone." Seungkwan handed him his device.

"Okay guys enough, let's get to practise." Hoshi hyung declared.

"Get in positions, we're practising Rock With You." Jun hyung stated.

We stood at our assigned places and waited for the music to start.

Take nothing for granted, you're all I got
Won't let them break your heart, oh, no

Yeah because we knew what heartbreaks truly are. And now we just wanted to extend help to anyone and everyone who was going through it.

If our music is helping someone out there then it's a win for us.

That was something we had always wished for.

Anyways, the stadium tour was nearing and I was ready to experience that. The loud cheers of uncountable fans and enjoying with them.

I just knew, the stages were going to be successful. I was confident because I knew how much we had worked for it.

And true efforts, with right intentions, never go in vain.

I was just waiting for that day to arrive soon. It wasn't easy to make it till here so I didn't want any complexities now.

All we had was a pretty dream in our eyes which was slowly coming to our vision. All those endless, sleepless night filled with heart wrenching cries, no one of us has forgotten them.

We're just good at hiding our emotions.

We were once only thirteen people but now? We had millions of carats along with us. So when I say we're together in this, I mean that we all are together in this.

That's the reason why we are ready to face everything. Because we know we're strong when we're together.

Yeah, a team who went through a lot of things which it didn't deserve. We might not say this often but those petty laughs still echo in my ears. I still can't forget how we were looked down at, how everyone had just assumed that we won't succeed.

Why did they do that?

Nevermind, it just fueled our passion. It just made us stronger.

And now we were amidst our journey where one by one, we were proving everyone wrong.

Hyungs, bless us, and please, I wish you'll join us too!

I hope you'll come to see us, I really do.