Eren's POV

After Levi left the room, my face was flushed red... I could tell. Mikasa chuckled and pointed at my face. "You're red, Eren." She chuckles with amusement as she sat on my bed with a binder on her lap. "You good?" She questions me.

Turning around in my chair, I nodded. "I-I'm good. Anyways, what did I miss?" On cue, Mikasa opened her binder and gave me a packet of History notes. Sighing, I took it and quickly skimmed through it. "Great... I need to take notes-" Once more, Mikasa was prepared for tonight. She took out her notebook and opened it to the notes I needed. "Thanks."

She smiles softly, something rare that I find from her. It actually... no, I must be getting crazy. No way... "Come on, you missed History. Good luck on the notes." She chuckles as she lays on my bed, almost claiming it. 

"What happened? You know, overall. I didn't go to class... what happened?"

Mikasa sighed. "Well... Armin and I did get worried when the bell rang... it wasn't like you to miss class like that. Not to mention when Ms. Piper had to take attendance and she was freaking out badly. It went up until the principal had to come down and sort things out. But we did take notes and other things while she was freaking out."

Taking her notebook, I started to copy her notes. With her pretty handwriting, I can clearly see what happened. Every piece of note was detailed to the smallest parts. "Wow... all because of me being missing?"

"Yeah. Apparently the school takes attendance real seriously now." She sighed, and after a moment of silence, she started to ask another question. "How was Iris?"

Family... all three of us bonded because we lost family. Finding out about my real dad... how he chose his other family rather than us. And my real mom lost her battle with cancer. Really torn myself after Levi did me a favor... helped me find my real parents. Mikasa... her parents were murdered and the killers left her alone. Lone survivor... and she had no other family... and sent to an orphanage. An all girls' one. Then Armin... not a lot about his birth parents... but he did have a grandfather until he died of old age... sent to the same orphanage as me.

When Armin and I met... we instantly became best friends. Add Mikasa to the mix when we went to school together. We've been through hell together... and together we will keep going through it. They have good families now... adapted well. Armin was the only child in his family, Mikasa has an adopted little brother... and I... I have 3. They all adapted to their new lives... and where was I? Doubting my own place in my family- no... they aren't blood. I was adopted.

"Iris... she was... scared and ran straight for me. Well, she waited in the woods... and when she got paranoid there, she ran for me at the school." I'm the only one that supported her... and that fight... I helped her with that. "And I am the cause of it..." I muttered under my breath. 

"Eren, what are you talking about? You weren't there to cause the fight. Did you ask Iris about the details of the fight?"

Shaking my head, I told her the truth. She was one of the only people I can truly talk about family. If I tell Hanji or Levi, they'll both convince me that I belong, like parents normally do. But I'm not their biological son... "I didn't want to pry. But, I know that earlier this morning, I told her to fight back... just like I did back in elementary school. But... I guess that got her scared... and terrified. If I didn't tell that to her... she wouldn't be in this kind of trouble."

"Eren... you can't blame yourself for that, okay? You didn't mean it... and besides, you would do anything to make sure she was safe and a strong fighter. Like you."

"I-I guess. It's just hard... you know, having 3 adopted siblings. I mean, Armin lives as an only child and you have a sibling who you're not really related to- how do you handle it? Please... just help me."

Mikasa sighed and took my hands before looking into my eyes. I see her eyes, a bit cloudy and stormy... very much like Levi's. I would say they were father and daughter... but they're not related that way. Levi's only children were with Hanji... my adopted siblings. "Eren... they love you as a real sibling... and that's good enough-"

"It's not good enough... I'm lying to them constantly. They call me the biggest brother ever... the best one there was. And who am I? Not their own flesh and blood... I'm adopted and they should see that from me. But I have to lie and smile to them... it doesn't feel right..."

She nods in acknowledgement. "I felt the same way about Jakob. But... you'll see that they are family. Blood or not, they grew up with you as their older brother. Let them have that moment."

Once more, I kept thinking about if I wasn't there. "Mikasa... if I wasn't there... Iris would be the big sister. Not some jerk like me. I entered their life... and changed their nature. I shouldn't be there... not really."

"Eren, please... listen to me, okay? Iris loves you as an older brother. The chaotic twins love you as their older brother. Come on, okay? Let them call you their older brother. Even though you may not know... it's actually an honor be called that, okay?'

Rolling my eyes, I looked back at her. She won... and it's true. There's no way... I could actually beat Mikasa. Now... to surrender. "Alright, fine... I'll let them call me their big brother, happy?" Even though she smiled at me, I felt her full of happiness and joy. And yet... I felt the complete opposite. "Anyways... History. Help me with the notes."