Did I mention how much I love Taehyung?

Well, that was when I was gazing at him like a dolly doodle when fantasies played in my head. Now, well... Nothing's wrong with Taehyung. I still love him... But the problem? We all knew it was me.

I hate spending time with him because of one simple reason...

Knowing that he can't love me back the way I do is practically unbearable by now.

I have been kicked out of the picture. Not completely, though. Taehyung still let me have my share of being with him, but he wouldn't ever talk to me. Why? Oh, because his new girlfriend was always there.

I was in the background. Tae would only talk to me when she had to go or if she couldn't come, but even then, he was so much in cloud 9 over her that he'd talk to me about advice on what he should do to make her happy.

"Like I said, she'd like flowers. I think she'd really like movies, too. Being polite is also a given... Like complimenting her every day." As always, I'd help. Any sort of advice I thought of, I'd tell. Taehyung really appreciated them which were enough for me to be happy.

What I didn't tell him about the advice... Were things I did to him to be happy.

"Thanks Hoseok, you always have the best advice!" Tae grinned and I felt my heart both throb and flutter. "Hey, tonight's the night you come over to help tutor me. Can we go early? I'm having a lot of trouble with our homework and I think it's going to be... a while until I get it."

Taehyung looked so deflated, how could I say no? "Of course, Tae! I'm always here to help!" As always, I smiled and Tae giggled back, placing his hand into mine. I flinched and lost all traces of faking my happiness; this was truly a shock to me.

Taehyung seemed to notice my look of distress and let go of my hand. "What's wrong?"

How could I ever tell him? How could I tell him I wasn't used to this? How could I tell him that I loved the touch we did just now? "Just saw a bug! I hate bugs with a passion. I'll literally scream and have a heart attack." I pushed a smile back on my face and watched as Taehyung seemed to think for a minute – like he could see something was off.

"Okay..." Taehyung gripped tighter on my hand, nodding with confidence. "I'll protect you, Hobi!"

I fucking love this boy.

Slowly, I feel my own hand squeeze around his. It feels so good and it makes me so happy... "Thank you."

-  -  -  -

"Tae, for the fifteenth time, I don't understand how you don't understand what you don't understand." I was getting a little frustrated by the vague answers I was getting. I knew he was going to be a handful tonight, but not this much...

Tae, probably even more frustrated than me, seemed to have a puffy face and looked down with a discouraged expression. "I don't know okay?"

"Just..." I rub my temple, trying to think back. "How about here?"

"I don't know..."

"Here?"

"I-I think it's before that."

"How about here?"

"..."

"Tae?"

"I... I don't know anymore."

I sigh, closing my eyes. "Tae, it's not that hard. Just tell me what you don't understand, it's that simple."

"I-I don't understand anything!" The boy slumped in what seemed like an angering defeat and self-hatred. "I told you I'm stupid..."

"Hey." Without thinking, I bring my hand to his chin and gently lift it to face me. Tae's eyes widened in surprise, yet they never left mine. Inside, I felt tingly and I felt like the world slowed down. "I told you not to think that. I told you, not everyone gets it even after the hundredth time! I understand you don't get it..." I notice his face softening, looking away with a look of guilt but reassurance.

"Sorry, Tae." I slip my hand away, "I was being selfish." Tae seemed flustered, looking back down at his homework. "C'mon, let's give it one more try. Then we can take a little break. What do you say?"

Tae puckered his lips, and then nodded with a sigh. "Okayy..."

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I felt something soft against my nose. It felt like a soft fan that pushed warm air against my skin, cutting every few seconds and pushing more warm air onto my face. I felt very warm and most definitely comfortable. Thinking it was perhaps the morning I opened my eyes slowly and tried getting a view of my surroundings. Yet... All I saw was another face blocking my view.

It wasn't a fan. It was breathing.

With an audible gasp, I jump up and examine the situation I was in. My head, and Taehyung's head, were both against the table that had Tae's homework book on it. I saw the boy's noticeable drool form on the wood, which I found cute but I didn't pay much attention to that at the moment.

D-did we fall asleep?!

And we were inches... Barely inches apart.

I glance down, feeling something strange against my lap; it was Tae's hand caressing my thigh securely. His own leg was right up against mine, giving it a sense of warmth that I liked. But I was panicking because this wasn't right. As much as I loved this, I couldn't taste it.

"T-Tae... Wake up." Gently I push the boy shoulder, but he didn't even budge. I shake him a little more. Still nothing. What the fuck, does this boy need an anchor thrown on him?

What time was it? I pick out my phone, which was nearly dead, and refrained myself from throwing it against a wall.

It was 8... AM.

"Kim Taehyung if you don't wake up right now you are going to have to do math for the rest of the day."

Taehyung jumped up and looked around with a sleepy face. I burst out laughing at his whacky hairdo which got him finding my face with his droopy eyes. "Wha-I don't wanna!" Taehyung whined.

I ruffled his hair out of impulse and heard him growl under his breath. "We slept all night. It's almost time for school now..."

Taehyung huffed and placed his head back on the table. In only a matter of seconds, I could hear soft breathing coming from the boy.

"God dammit- Taehyung!" 

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OOP 

hoseok might not be able to hold back as much as he thought he could