Cas POV third person

Cas got up in a skippy mood , to his surprise he saw Blaine right up with him , changing his tunic. Did he really mean that he wanted to become close to Castiel?

Cas couldn't help to think that it was history repeating himself with a not so messy ending. He couldn't help feel his heart leap forward again just like it did three years ago before everything went to shit.

"Do you want to walk together ?" Asked Blaine with a smile .

"Sure", said cas .

He could do this , he can survive prison , get Blaine again , and leave Dean Winchester .

Dean Winchester .

Once again Castiel felt his heart leap but this time it felt like it was falling. Leave dean here? Castiel knew himself better than that , he couldn't do that . He was growing feelings for the Winchester and that always makes things complicated.

Castiel shook his mind from these thoughts. Regardless for his feelings for Blaine and Dean, in six months, he was out of here. It was time for him to start over , for him to start to think about himself instead of others . He will leave this world behind him, Dean and Blaine, because in the end , he only has to live with himself .

Castiel sat down with Blaine , the angels table being empty since they were one of the first inmates to get their breakfast . 

"So how long are you in here for", asked Castiel.

"I got 3 years ", said Blaine . "I was supposed to be here earlier but I was in a coma for four months. Head injury"

Well that explains the absent memories .

"What do you remember ", asked Cas carefully.

"Stuff when I was a kid, like long termly I'm fine. But it was more of my adult life and my job I can't really remember yet. The doctor said it may never show up or it will, but he said to move on , so that's what I'm doing", said Blaine .

Castiel felt the need to just tell him , tell him everything. It's not fair to Blaine , Cas couldn't imagine what he went through.

"Blaine I have to te—", Castiel started when a large hand on his shoulder interrupted.

"Hey ", said Dean, and here came the rest of the alphas .

"What was it Castiel", asked blaine.

"Never mind ", said cas .

Castiel spent the rest of breakfast in silence while he watched Dean talk to Benny , while Benny loving all this attention he was getting. He even saw dean touch Benny's leg. It didn't bother cas until he saw Benny turn his head to find a huge hickie on his neck.

He looked at dean obviously hurt, while dean ignored him.

"What the fuck was going on ?  ", thought cas .

You know what cas didn't give a shit anymore , fuck Dean Winchester.

And with that he got up and left early , Dean was never his and he was never dean's . He was done playing with Dean's games . Of course he knew that dean was never his, but why is it fair for dean to claim him while he can go fuck around with Benny .

His feelings were everywhere , and he needed to clear his head . He honestly didn't know what was right anymore .

Do I want to be with dean ? Do I want to be his one and only? Do I want to forget about Blaine ? Should I forget about Blane ? Is me being with Blaine going to put him and I in danger when we both get out?

"Castiel", shouted dean .

He decided he wanted none of it, he wanted nothing to do with Dean Winchester or Blaine Polen.

He will only cause mess in Blaine's life and Dean will only cause mess in his.

And with that he didn't look back , he just wanted to be alone .

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Luci POV 1st person

I studied Sam's features while Sam studied his book at breakfast . I'm pretty sure Dean has given up on trying to separate us , or by the looks of it he has his own boy drama.

I watch him chase after Castiel after he walked out dramatically.

Yeesh.

I return to my thoughts about the gorgeous man across from me.

I just want me and Sam to be happy together , that's my greatest desire . Should I throw away this perfectly good healthy relationship for revenge ? How selfish am I?

"Come with me", I blurt out.

Sam looked up and raised his eyebrow.

"Come with you where?", asked Sam .

"Ummm come back with me to the cell", I said . I'm officially a dumb ass.

"Okay..", said Sam narrowing his eyes . "You're acting weird".

I am acting weird. I think about the beginning my true intentions on why I wanted to be with Sam. They have all erased now, I want to be with Sam because he makes me want to be a better person. The thing is , is that a good thing?

We make it back to my cell, I know I have to tell him I have to leave him. If I was going to break his heart, I'm going to have to at least tell him what's going on.

"Sam I ", I said . "I have to tell you something , something I've been giving a lot of thought to relating to why I got into this place to begin with".

Sam grabbed my hands and replied ," lucifer whatever it is, I'm right here . I'm not going anywhere".

"Before I got myself out of this place, me and my brothers tortured and killed a man which landed our asses in prison. He was part of the same crew who murdered our baby sister , Anna. They raped her , he raped her , and after using her, they left her. They set the place on the fire and left.  She died a painful death, and I will avenge her ", Lucifer said tears forming in his eyes .

"Gabe , my brother , has found a way to get out of here, my other little brother Amenideal , has found the leader who has been hiding out all this time. I have to kill him Sam, I have to make him feel pain. But that means I have to leave you , and I need you to know there is no talking me out of this. I will leave you here"

I searched Sam's face to see any emotion present , anything.

All I saw was sadness form in his eyes.

"Let me come with you ", he said .

"What about dean", I said surprised.

"Please lucifer don't leave me ", Sam said. "I love you".

"You shouldn't ", I said . "I am not a good man".

"Yes you are ! You are one of the best guys I know other than dean ! I need you to listen to me!" , yelled Sam , his tone taking me back .

I've never heard him yell before .

"He already took your sisters life. Why are you letting him consume yours? Don't let him , don't forget him but he will get what is coming Lucifer . Without you killing him, without you getting into more trouble than you are in right fucking now! ",
Yelled Sam .

"I do not care! This was my plan way before I was with you and I will go through with it. You do not understand ", I yelled back .

"I've seen what revenge gets people, there is no satisfaction . It's not gonna being her back" , said Sam . "Your sister wouldn't want this".

My mind became closed off and my eyes hardened along with my emotions .

"I'm not asking for your support, I told you because I simply felt bad if I would hurt your feelings ", I said. "This is all a game to me anyway".

I saw Sam start to tear up," a game?"

Stop talking lucifer stop talking.

"Yes", I spit. "I only  wanted to play with my new toy, a distraction from this terrible place ".

Maybe if I break his heart leaving will hurt less.

With that Sam grabbed his book shelf and threw it to the ground.

"Fuck you"

And with that he left taking my heart with him .

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I know I haven't updated in two years but I'm going to finish this book. I promise- gabby