Author's note: **In the end

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"How is Taehyung now?", Yoongi asked Jin hyung and he shook his head in negation. Taehyung is a stubborn guy and it's not at all helping his health now. 

"He is refusing to eat anything Yoongi. I am scared if something happens to him. The doctor said that his condition might get critical", he informed and Yoongi clenched his fists, getting up. They can't afford to lose him at any cost. The loss he had in life is more than enough.

"Being aggressive won't work on him, hyung. All of us know that, so don't think of anything like that", Jimin piped in, holding the scan reports of Taehyung. He forwarded them to Namjoon, who adjusted his round spectacles to view them better.

"They are injecting fluids directly into his blood since he is not taking food. PDnim is so worried about him", Hoseok landed on the couch holding his head. They didn't expect Taehyung's health to go down so bad. 

"It's not even a week that I have landed here and the rotten luck already hit us. I guess I am the iron leg in the group", Yoongi simmered, loathing himself for not being of any help to his dear Daegu brother. 

"Hyung, we are already in enough distress. Your words are not helping at all. Please don't talk like that again.", Jungkook spoke snuggling closer to Jin. He was so scared seeing his V hyung in the hospital with many machines beeping around him. Never in his life, he expected to see his most cheerful hyung, his partner in crime, to be lying on the bed lifelessly.

"His situation will get better, don't worry. I have seen the reports and the treatment is working well. Let's just hope he will be well and to the most, be normal again", Namjoon spoke and we nodded in agreement. Taehyung is in a phase of life where he couldn't stand for himself nor does he want someone to support him. Yoongi understood him. 

Let this whole hospital thing finish, I will take care of him without closing my eyes, he thought to himself.

"I will be in charge of him today", Jimin volunteered but Namjoon shook his head in negation. Jimin is the most affected with Taehyung's health going down. He was with him all the time, abandoning his own self.

"You had sleepless nights for a week and didn't listen to any of us all these days. I know Taehyung is important to you, so is he to us. We will share the responsibility too, Jimin ah. We don't want your health to degrade in the process of looking out for Taehyung", Jin reprimanded Jimin's words and looked at Yoongi. 

"I will be in the hospital along with Yoongi tonight", he spoke and even before Jimin could speak something, Hoseok hushed him.

"Jimin, you can't say another word now. Jin hyung has decided and it's final now. Jungkook, take Jimin inside and make sure he sleeps", he spoke in a stern voice, and the maknae obliged taking a hesitant Jimin along.

"We will see you tomorrow then. Take care of yourself", Namjoon mouthed looking at the ground, guilt slowly killing him. Jin gave an assuring smile, squeezing his hand.

"I know it's hard and as a leader, you are putting the burden on your head. I don't know how to say this, but I feel so sorry and grateful to you Namjoon ah. Don't worry, everything will be fine and never think you are not enough. You are the strongest leader and we are so lucky to have you. Sleep well and we will call you if there is an emergency", Jin expressed his thoughts and Namjoon smiled. Yoongi was looking at them and as they turned to him, his lips curved upward.

"We will leave then. Take care of yourself and don't forget to check on Jimin. That stubborn fellow won't listen to Jungkook", he uttered and the 94' line bobbed their heads in unison.

• • •

"When are you planning on meeting her?", Jin asked Yoongi who looked perplexed at the sudden question. In a snap, he realized what his hyung is implying. Shaking his head slightly, he looked away. He doesn't want to talk about her. She has given him enough pain in his life and he can't take in any more.

"Why are you ignoring the question Yoongi ah? Is that topic bothering you that much? Then why don't you sort it out?", Jin spoke in a firmer voice than before and Yoongi clasped his fists, thinking about her. Everything about her still makes his heart flutter except for the fact that she cheated on him with his brother.

"Just don't ask about it, hyung", he grunted and got up to move, but Jin was stubborn. He wanted to ask Yoongi about Jin Ae ever since he landed in Korea. But situations turned out to be difficult and he didn't get a chance.

"You yelled at her and didn't even ask her why she is with your hyung. You just broke up with her without listening to her explanation. Did you even give a chance?", Jin voiced out his words that he wanted to ask for a long time.

"I have seen her with him, hyung. She looked shocked and more like being caught red-handed. I can see through her, hyung", Yoongi stomped his feet, his eyes turning red and tears threatening to escape any moment now.

"Wow! Is Min Yoongi a saint? I didn't know. Your short-tempered ass doesn't know how to think and I am sure there must be some misunderstanding. You just did something which I could I call massively ridiculous", Jin snapped, certainly mad at him. He didn't have the chance to meet her ever since he left Korea. Yoongi swore that he would leave the group if anyone tried to contact her and they refrained from making any move. But Jin was an exception.

"What do you know about her hyung? Do you even know how much pain she caused to my heart? Do you how broken I was in her absence? She betrayed me, hyung. Put yourself in my shoes and you will understand", Yoongi spat crashing down on the chair. He couldn't control his tears anymore. He hated himself for loving someone so much. He hated himself for being so weak for a person.

"What I don't know about her are the things you are stating, Yoongi. As far as I know, that pretty girl is someone who has struggled all through her life and doesn't give a fuck about the hurdles in her goddamned life. And you were someone she looks with all love and affection. She was always with you for two years, attending every concert in Seoul with her own money, coming all the way to our company building to cheer for the whole group, and calming you down in every tough situation. Why the hell should betray when she loved you so much. Did your pea-sized brain forget about all the things she did to you when you saw with your brother?", Jin asserted his each and every word in a stern tone and Yoongi flinched for once.

"I saw her hugging him...", he was cut off by the elder.

"I hugged her too, did you perceive that I slept with her?", he yelled and then realized that it was a hospital. He cleared his throat and tried to decrease his pitch. Yoongi never gave a clear explanation of what has happened between them except for the fact that they are not together anymore.

"Your mucky ass didn't even bother to tell us what happened exactly between the two of you. You locked yourself in the studio, and then in your room and swore that you would leave the group if we visit her. I thought it was a small fight at first but seeing your actions made me think it was dangerously serious. I went to her house for straight two days but she isn't present. And when I wanted to talk about this to you, you already planned on leaving for Paris. Did you fucking leave her because she hugged your brother? Shame on you Min Yoongi, I never thought you are so narrow-minded. I pity that innocent soul. I pity her so much for falling for a thoughtless asshole", Jin groaned and walked from there to breathe in air, leaving an already shattered Yoongi in sorrow.

"I just can't tell that I saw the money pouch to you, hyung. I don't want you to think Jin Ae stooped too low. I just can't...", he buried his head in his palms and let out light sobs. 

He misses her so badly that he even had a thought of going back to her and begging her to come back. His ego stopped him from doing that. All the time in Paris, he either practiced music or walked down the empty alleys to cry out.

The pain he held in his heart in her absence is as heavy as the thick scent in the night sphere. He didn't smoke again as he promised her on her life. He tried alcohol and that didn't even work the slightest to get him out of the titanic anguish

He strained himself to the extent of working 18 hours a day and there were days where he didn't even sleep, yet nothing helped. She has marked a permanent tattoo in his heart which he struggled to scrape off.

Tears rolled down his eyes remembering every single moment with her. She is the only one who could get into the heart of Min Yoongi breaking every barrier and walk out so swiftly. Four months, he was like a living stone for four months without his dear love. He could never hate her though he spat those words aggressively that evening. 

Every time he remembers that dreadful evening, a sharp pang of pain hits his heart. He wished he was dead but he knew that is not the solution. He can't kill the hopes of his group because of his selfish reasons. 

Her smile every time because of him, her soft giggles when something fascinates her, her light squeals on getting what she wants, and her loud cheers for him, he misses every little action she does and it was a back-breaking job to shove her off from his thoughts.

"I miss you so much, Sun Bear", he mumbled the words softly like a baby and raised his knees to the height of his chest, embracing them with his trembling arms. The isolated lobby was just making him feel more lonely. 

"I wish you miss me the same way I do"

• • •

"Abeoji", he spoke, nervously fidgeting with his fingers.

"Do you remember our existence now? Or did you call us to tell us that you are alive?", his father snapped at him and Yoongi took a breath. He knew this would happen. After all, he didn't call his family for four months.

"I am sorry Abeoji. I want to ask how you are doing. How is eomma doing?", he sputtered waiting for a reply.

"Don't call us abeoji and eomma. I never thought my son grew so much to insult his brother like that.", his father growled on the other side and Yoongi sighed. He didn't think his brother would take it to their parents.

"Abeoji", he was cut off.

"Talk to us after apologizing to your hyung", his father cut the call and Yoongi held his head in frustration. Why is everyone against me?

"Here", Hoseok passed him water and Yoongi accepted it without a word.

"It was you I depend upon every time I fall into a complicated situation. Seeing you in such a messed up state is making my heart ache, hyung", the younger mouthed, pitifully. Jin was not talking to him ever since they had that argument that night and Namjoon on knowing things did the same. Jimin and Jungkook were busier with Taehyung so they didn't involve much.

"I just don't know what to reply. My pathetic self would be an answer, perhaps", Yoongi spouted, sipping down the water.

"I don't know how you are feeling since I could never imagine myself in your position. Your pain is yours and only you know its intensity. But I am here to tell you one thing, hyung.", he paused and Yoongi looked at the younger with an expectant gaze. For the first time in his life, he wants someone else to tell him what he needs to do.

"Don't stay angry at a person even if they are. Life is uncertain. We may not have the same person after a minute and then it'll be too late to realize your mistake and apologize", he advised and the older nodded. 

"It's okay if you don't take these words to your heart.."., Yoongi intervened even before Hoseok could complete.

"I will listen. I will listen because....", he paused and took a sigh.

"I am a failure in love unlike you"

• • •

"Hyung", he called.

"Who is this?", the man on the other side spoke.

"Yoongi", he replied curtly and there was pin-drop silence on the other side.

"What do you want?", his brother snapped on the other side, clearly disinterested to have any slightest talk with him.

"I want to know where is Jin Ae", Yoongi cut to the chase and the elder one snickered. 

"Why? Do you want to confront her again of the imaginary accusations you plotted in your head?", his brother growled on the phone and Yoongi had to pull the phone far from his ears.

"I don't want to talk about anything else, hyung. I just want to know where she is. Even if she is with you, I want to talk to her. Don't worry, I won't come in between", Yoongi spoke and he could hear another mocking snicker.

"Why don't you just imagine the talk and satisfy yourself?", Ji Woon laced onto him aggressively and Yoongi tried his level best to control his nearly exhausting patience.

"Hyung", he blurted.

"Shut the fuck up Min Yoongi. Didn't you say you would never call me your hyung and are ashamed to have me as your brother? So why are you calling this bastard? And one more thing, if you want to know about Jin Ae, grow your balls and go to her yourself. Don't fucking pester me and I am blocking you", Ji Woon ended the call, making Yoongi shocked. His brother was never so angry before. He was a playboy and an asshole, he doesn't need an attestation to agree to that but he isn't the aggressive type.

"Fine then, I will choose the harder way", he sighed to himself and shoved the phone into his pocket. He finally decided to meet her and have a talk. He is ready to accept anything she says. Even if she is with his hyung or moved on with another man, he mentally prepared himself to accept reality.

Sitting and giving a thought about everything made him realize that he is craving to see her. He wanted to know if she is fine, doing well in her life and if she misses him at least, one bit. After all, he wanted to end things well.

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Clenching his heart, he stood at the door with his trembling fingers trying to reach the button of the doorbell. The whole area made him feel nostalgic, ringing all the beautiful memories in his head. Her voice swirled in his mind like a soft melody which brought him back to the present. 

He pressed the bell hesitantly and couldn't hear an answer. It was a Sunday and he knew his Sun Bear would stay at home unless she has taken a new job without his knowledge. He rang the bell again and he could hear a voice.

"Coming"

His heart pounded when he heard the voice and his throat became dry. His knees were going weak and he questioned himself if he can do it. Even before he could think of anything, the door creaked open slightly, making his heart almost skip a beat.

"Jin...", he stopped his words looking at the woman in front of him.

"Jina ssi", he uttered and the girl widened her eyes. She was about to close the door but Yoongi's action of stepping in between the door and the side frame made her stop.

"Jina ssi", he called her and she huffed in annoyance. She never expected her Sunday morning to become awful.

"Suga ssi, I think you arrived at the wrong place. Please leave", she pushed the door but he held it strong. He pushed it without hurting her and she clenched her jaw, trying to contain the vexation she is holding in.

"Jina ssi, I just want to see your sister. I will just talk to her and leave", he pleaded and she huffed.

"She isn't here, you can leave", she spat but he shook his head.

"At least tell me where she is. I just want to see her. I just want to know how she is. I just...", he was cut off by her snicker. 

"You can't see her", she replied curtly.

"Jina ssi, we didn't end things properly. I just want to have a small talk with her and know how she is doing. I...", he stopped in tracks when he heard another snicker.

"How will you talk to her when she doesn't exist in this world Suga ssi?", she snapped at him and his mind turned blank at her words. He was not able to process what she just spoke. 

"What are you talking Jina ssi? What do you mean by she doesn't exist? Just tell me where she", he asked getting restless.

"What the hell Suga ssi? How will you go to my sister when she doesn't exist in this damn world anymore? How will you talk to her when she isn't alive anymore?", she spat at him as her eyes turned red in both frustration and sorrow.

He was still not able to believe what she is speaking. His Sun Bear is no more, he thought to himself for the billion times in that one second. He was still perturbed with the sudden news. His heart stopped beating and the body turned cold for a moment. 

"Are you telling the truth?", he sputtered with a little hope that his Sun Bear might be still breathing somewhere.

"Why the hell would I fucking lie about my sister Suga ssi? I lost her. I freaking lost my sister months back. This cruel world has got rid of her", she crashed down and Yoongi had a mental breakdown. He clearly didn't want to hear this. He didn't come for this. 

He arched his back and bent down to reach his knees. Leaning down the wall, his quivering body collided with the ground. He didn't know. It was mortifying him to digest the fact that his dear love is no more. He still couldn't believe himself and wished if this was a nightmare in daylight. 

But no, his wish didn't come true. Everything is real, just like his tears rolling down continuously and the loud sobs by Jina in front of him. She held her head and groaned.

"You know why she died?", she asked in a fierce tone, still in the same position and he didn't dare to move. The fact that his Sun Bear is no more made him a stone.

"She fucking had a tumor, Suga ssi. That tumor which you didn't know.", she started and he looked at her in bewilderment. He knew Jin Ae had a tumor but he was also present when she is completely recovered from that.

"No, it wasn't completely treated. She discovered the tumor again when you are busy with the promotions of your new album. She didn't want to trouble her asshole boyfriend and lied that she is fine.", she looked at him with disgust and continued.

"And that's when Ji Woon ssi, the brother you hate with all of your blood appeared. He got to know of eonnie's condition with the doctor being his friend. Eonnie never wanted anyone's help but she is in need of money and your brother volunteered. He was nice to us since my eonnie is his pathetic brother's girlfriend. ", she revealed, digging a hole in Yoongi's heart. Every word she spoke connected the dots of why his Sun Bear was all tensed up and with his brother.

"She thought about you before her own self and that costed her life. Your brother was a nice guy, a more civilized guy unlike you. He was there with us, supporting us in every way unlike the irresponsible boyfriend my sister had", she grumbled pointing the finger at him.

"You never listened to her Suga ssi. You never gave her a chance. She was admitted to hospital and because of you, her condition degraded even more. Ji Woon ssi came to your studio, but you shooed him away. I came to your dorm but you guys moved. We searched for you everywhere Suga ssi, but you weren't there. You weren't there when the person who loves you needs you the most. She was gone. She was gone from this pathetic world", she confronted him, making his blood cold with each passing second.

Guilt crawled upon his body, making him want to bury himself alive. He was mistaken. He misunderstood everything and didn't even leave a chance. He didn't allow anyone to come near him. After all, they were trying to tell him the truth and the dying condition of his love.

"Please leave from here, Suga ssi. You have wrecked my only family enough. I can't bear to see you anymore. And remember, I will not hesitate to beat the shit out of you if you show your face to me another time", she spoke and got up to stand on her feet. He got up with a heavy heart, turning to leave since he knows he doesn't deserve to stay at that place for another second.

"Wait", she stopped him and went into a room.

"Take these and leave. I refrained from the thought of burning them since they mean a lot to my sister", she threw the sheets on his face and he exactly knew what they. He peeked in to see a clearer view of his face. They are her paintings of him. 

"Do you know what were her last words?", Jina asked with a painful smile.

"If you ever find my lil meow meow, tell him that I love him so much"

• • •

"After knowing everything, I know I have to be mad at you", Jin spoke taking a seat beside his broken friend. He knows his Yoongi was not eating for a week and didn't even speak a word since then. But there was a day where he broke out, where he revealed everything, and everyone's heart dropped hearing the news of their dear friend's death. They are all so close to her and it made their heart grieve in unbearable sorrow.

Yoongi's condition was the worst for he blaming himself for the death of his love. He completely locked himself in dark rooms, talking in the air with his SunBear and cried every night remembering every word that her sister spat at him.

He wished he was not born in this world and had never met her. He mourned for her death every second and inculpated himself for adding misery to her already dreadful life. He lamented in grief, downing deep in the guilt of her loss.

He called himself with all the profanities and even harmed himself with a blade, unable to forgive himself for the pathetic deed he had done. He wished to go back in time and set everything right but he knew nothing can be done.

"Hurting yourself and locking yourself would never wash away the guilt Yoongi ah. I am seriously so mad at you. I want to just beat you black and blue for everything that poor girl has faced because of you. But I know her loss is eating you up more than the anger we have for you. You are already dying in guilt and that is more than enough to torture you", the elder paused and took a deep sigh. Yoongi was already on the verge of tears and Jin pulled him for a hug.

"You must treasure people when they are around Yoongi ah. There's no use of watering plants when they are dead", Jin mouthed rubbing his broken friend's back, who wailed even loud with the pain in his heart.

"I am not able to forgive myself, hyung. I killed her. I am the reason that she left the world", the younger spoke in between his sobs.

"You didn't cause the tumor Yoongi ah. And you don't even know if she had one. Though your accusation is unforgivable, you are not the reason for her death", Jin spoke in a calmer tone and Yoongi sniveled in his embrace.

"I was still not able to be there for her when she needs me, when she loved me with all her heart. I accused her so wrongly and left her alone in the battle with her disease", he bawled and pulled out.

"You couldn't do anything then. Is there anything you want to do now? Is there anything Jin Ae wanted to do in her life that you could fulfill now? At least that way, you can make her soul rest in peace", Jin asked in an attempt to console Yoongi, and the latter thought for a while. He knew nothing could replace the loss of his love but a thought hit his mind.

"There is ", he blurted

"There is something which I could do for her to make her happy from above"

• • •

"They are paid, sir! Thank you", the cashier spoke and Yoongi smiled. He got into the cab and took a deep sigh. If not today, never, he thought to himself and gazed through the window. How he wished his Sun Bear to be beside him now. He painfully smiled at how his ego mocked him, curling him into a pathetic being for a lifetime.

"Sir, we have reached.", the voice of the cab driver snapped him out of the thoughts and he thanked him. Holding the papers in one hand, he let out a smile. He walked to the door and stood there for a minute.

"You can do this, Yoongi", he told himself for the umpteenth time.

Pulling out the Orange Candy from his pocket and shoving it into his mouth, he thought of her. She is his confidence and the sweetest memory of his life journey. With love dedicated to his Sun Bear, he rang the bell ready to walk into a completely new phase of the unpredictable life.

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Author's Note:

Well!! It has been a great journey till and I wonder how this book completed so fast. I am so sorry for this sad ending but sometimes, things don't end happily. And I want to convey that we need to trust in order to love, else things can go worse. I am really sorry if this isn't what you guys wanted!!!

I like to thank all the readers who enjoyed this plot. I know I don't have many views but I wrote this story with my heart and I am glad even if there are just a few readers. You guys are my motivation.

I can't believe this story ended. I am gonna cry now!! I can no longer update orange candy uff!! I should not be emo!!

Also, I might update a bonus part or an Afterstory, not here though. I will update in the end of Rainbow Series and probably in the book of Shrinking Violet!!!

Me trying to control my emo self be like

Okay, I am gonna miss this cute lil meow meow

Okay he is not just cute!! He is damn hot too

Okayy!! Bangtan is hot and cute too

Okay then, it's time to leave now. Bye Bye!!