Love
My heart is heavy
Yet it some how still finds it's beat
When even I can't find myself.
My love
I walked out of his life
with a smile that wanted to cry
They say love heals all,
but I think it does the opposite
it breaks the best of friends
and tears apart families
I used to have it all
but I was ashamed
ashamed to call myself a greaser
When I knew I could be a Soc
but love
it drew me in and pulled me close
just to tear me down
No tears or words
can describe how a heartbreak feels
when you lose the ones you love
-Lucy Romeo

Lost
Greasers
Socs
Lovers
Best friends
They're all labels
They tell us what we are
But who decides
Who decides who I am when
even I can't
I used to be so sure
Until my walls were rebuilt
Now I don't recongnize myself
not even with a mirror
I feel
the only person
who knows you is
your best friends
but what happens when you lose him
Do you have to
lose yourself too
Like I did
Like my best friend did
When we went our separate ways
-Lucy Romeo

There's a quote and every time i read it all I can think about is Sodapop, "days will pass and turn into years, but I will always remember you with silent tears."

I said goodbye to them a week ago and have stayed away since and it was the worst decision of my life.

Time Travel
If I could go
If only I could go back
and restart from the time
I said goodbye
I would end with a kiss
instead of a goodbye
we would be dancing in oceans
and flying across skies.
Welcoming evergreens as
we laugh at the clouds
sleeping on grass
watching the sunset
saying I do
as I sob out my vows
But you'd be there to catch all my tears
that like two years ago
when I called you mine
we'd be together to watch
Our kids grow
as we grow together
just like we always dreamed
we laugh the days away
with smiles on our face
and fire behind our eyes
we'd be called the lucky ones
the gang would come over
for Sunday night dinner
Our kids would play
and fall in love
just like we did

If I could go back
If only I could go back
I'd kiss you
instead of saying goodbye
I'd say I love you
instead of goodbye
I'd call you mine
Instead of my ex
I'd tell you I've missed you
instead of I have to go
-Lucy Romeo