Sodapop told me what he wanted, and he told me he wanted me, but I'm not sure if I can take it anymore. I'm not if I should give up on us and walk away or continue on seeing if I can take much more. I don't know if I can take all the flirting, Claire, Elizabeth, or all the girls who want him. Anything can happen to make him want to give me up and I hate when I'm not in control, I always have. 

I love Sodapop, there's not doubt in my mind or heart that I love him, but am I in love with. Are we gonna ruin our friendship in the long run or make it stronger? Are we actually gonna get married? Am I really gonna become Lucy Curtis?  Are we gonna destroy everything? 

I remember what Sandy said to me a while ago right after I caught her cheating on Sodapop.

Flashback

"Sandy!" I yell as I look at her sitting in a booth at the Dingo making-out with some guy, that's not Sodpop.

She turns around and stands up. "oh my god, hi Lucy."

"What the hell was that? You have a boyfriend who happens to be my best friend!" I scream at her angrily. She can't do this to Sodapop, he loves her.

"It was nothing, just please don't tell Sodapop," she begs.

"No way! I'm gonna tell him as soon as I see him, I just hate  being the one who has to give him this shitty news," I roll my eyes as I walk away.

"Wait!" She yells desperately.

I turn around, "what and make it fast I have to tell Sodapop?"

"You're not telling Sodapop," she smirks wickedly.

"And why is that?" I scoff.

"Because, I know more stuff about you than you think. I know all the damage you will do later," she smirks. "I know if you stay around things will get bad, but you won't be able to look behind yourself long enough to see all the damage you'll do. You are too busy getting into everybody's business causing problems. You might wanna look at yourself before you start pointing fingers and ruining lives."

"Why is that gonna stop me from talking to Sodapop?" I ask confused growing even more annoyed than I was before.

"Because, if you tell Sodapop you guys won't be friends," she winks. "I have more controls over Sodapop then you will ever know. I'm gonna go see Sodapop and you're gonna go back to the Curtis and act like nothing happened."

Flashback Over

Soda and I, we've been best friends since I was ten. It was like we were meant to be, but lately I just don't know. He flirts with Claire, Elizabeth is always getting in the way, all the girls are falling all over him, and we fight over a lot of things. I don't want to ruin our friendship, but by being together it is. I remember when we little things were so simple. I don't want to risk it all, but how do I save us at this point? I don't know what to do. Do I stay with Sodapop or just give up. Will it save our friendship or not. I remember how he made me feel though. He made me feel so special. He made me feel like I was the only girl in the world.

I know my choice, now I just have to find Sodapop. I run downstairs to see the gang laughing, smiling, and talking, but when I come into the room it falls silent. I haven't come out of my room since the break which was a few weeks ago. "Lucy," Sodapop stands up. "How are you?"

I run over to him kissing him passionately as we pull away I look him in his blue eyes, "I just want to be with you Sodapop. I love you, like married couples and I don't care about anything else. I love you Sodapop."

"I love you too Lucy, like married couples," Soda smiles as the whole gang cheers.

I sit down in my normal seat next to Ponyboy and he leans over whispering, "welcome back Lucy, we've missed ya."

"Good to be back. I missed ya'll too," I whispers back smiling. This is where I'm meant to be. Right here with the gang. This is my happily ever after. 

This is NOT the last chapter. :)