over 2,000 words, the longest chapter in this whole book. smut ahead, plus happy tears. thank you for 15k 💞

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the five minutes went by way too fast because before harry knew it, louis was easing his way into the room. harry gave him a nervous smile and louis sat down in the chair in front of him after harry directed him to.

"you gonna play for me?" louis asks, noticing harry's beloved acoustic sitting near him.

harry nods and sits down. "it's something i've been writing for a while now."

"yeah?" louis coos. "how long?"

harry blushes and looks at his sock cladded feet. "since we got together, actually. um..it's about you."

louis gasps softly. "me?"

harry looks back up and nods. "yeah, and i'm scared you won't like it but i've put my all into it. so atleast act like you like it, okay?"

louis chuckles and relaxes in his chair. "show me what you got, baby."

harry picks up his guitar and lets out a nervous breath, strumming his pick against the strings a few times and clears his throat, beginning to play some chords. louis stared at him in awe with how well he could play the guitar.

"your hand fits in mine like it's made just for me,
but bear this mind it was meant to be.
and i'm joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks
and it all makes sense to me," harry starts and louis absolutely melts. his voice was smooth like honey, and so relaxing that it could put him to sleep.

"i know you've never loved the crinkles by your eyes when you smile,
you've never loved your stomach or your thighs,
the dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine
but i'll love them endlessly."

harry looks up from his papers to see louis just barely tearing up. it took everything in him not to throw his guitar down and cradle louis but he wasn't even halfway through the song yet, there was still more to come. he was pouring his heart and soul out to this boy in just one little performance.

"i won't let these little things slip out of my mouth
but if i do, it's you, oh it's you, they add up to
i'm in love with you and all these little things."

louis chews on his lip and wiped his eyes with his sleeves. "fuck, you're making me ugly cry," he wetly chuckles. harry couldn't help but grin.

"you can't go to bed without a cup of tea
maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep
and all those conversations are the secrets that i keep
though it makes no sense to me."

"i know you've never loved the sound of your voice on tape,
you never want to know how much you weigh.
you still have to squeeze into your jeans
but you're perfect to me."

louis curls up and places his chin on his knees, hugging his arms around them. a small smile stitched its way onto his face and harry blushed once they made eye contact. he could still hear the nervousness in his voice but when he realized louis was enjoying it, he shook away the thoughts of him hating everything and kept going.

"i won't let these little things slip out of my mouth.
but if it's true, it's you, it's you, they add up to.
i'm in love with you and all these little things."

"you never love yourself half as much as i love you,
you'll never treat yourself right darling but i want you to.
if i let you know, i'm here for you
maybe you'll love yourself like i love you, oh," harry clears his throat and sees a stray tear falling from louis' eye. he loved it. he loved harry so much and the fact that harry wrote a whole song for him made his heart beat faster than ever before and he swore it was gonna blow up.

"i've just let these little things slip out of my mouth,
because it's you, oh it's you, it's you they add up to.
and i'm in love with you and all these little things.
i won't let these little things slip out of my mouth,
but if it's true, it's you, it's you they add up to.
i'm in love with you, and all your little things," harry strums the last chord and lets out a shaky breath. he sets the guitar down and makes his way to louis, sitting on his knees before the boy.

louis wipes his eyes and moves his legs, pulling some of harry's hair out of his face. "it was beautiful," he says. "i loved it. thank you, harry."

harry smiles softly and pulled a little box out of his pocket. "i got something for you, too," he says shyly.

"what?" louis asks, eager forming within him.

harry nervously opens the box and shows him. it was a simple ring with a small diamond in the middle.

"a promise ring," harry says. "this is me vowing to you that i promise to be the best boyfriend to you. i promise to help you grow into the person you need to become and to be here for you every step of the way," he swallows thickly. "i love you with all of my heart and soul, louis william tomlinson. you are the best boyfriend in the world and i want to give you everything you could ever dream of."

a small gasp came out of louis and he kept glancing between harry's face and the ring in his hand. "harry," he whispered. "you-you really did all of this for me?"

the man nods and takes the ring out of the box. "so, do you accept my promise?" he asked nervously.

louis nods, "i do," he says and harry slips the ring on his ring finger. it fit perfectly. louis looks at harry and cups his face, leaning in to press their lips together.

"i love you," he says to harry. "so so much."

"i love you more," harry promises and stands. he takes louis' hand and guides him to his feet before wrapping his arms around his waist to kiss him again. louis took it by surprise but fell pliant in his touch, hooking his arms around the man's neck and kissed him back like never before. he drowned out the world around him and focused just on him and harry.

"haz?" louis whispers against his lips.

"yes, baby?"

louis licks his lips and peeks up at him. "i'm ready."

those two words was all it took for harry to pick him up and blindly make his way to their room in the midst of louis kissing him with need. he pushed louis' back against the wall and the smaller boy squeaked once he felt a picture frame beside his arm and he tightened his legs around harry's body, whimpering when his boyfriend removed his mouth from his own.

harry's lips traveled from louis' to his jaw and neck, peppering kisses along the warm skin and he sucked love bites along the base of his neck, even leaving one on louis' sweet spot. louis grew flustered beneath him with rosy red cheeks and glossy eyes, digging his heels into the small of harry's back.

"don't drop me," louis pleads as harry fumbled for the doorknob.

"no promises," harry chuckles and carries him in the room. louis returned harry's share of love bites onto his neck as he walked to the bed and harry gently laid louis down, towering over him.

louis pulls his shirt off and digs his nails into his sides as harry kisses him feverishly. the older man pinned himself above the boy and bit on his lip before trailing his hands down to the hem of louis' own shirt.

"are you sure?" he asks softly, needing confirmation again.

louis gulps and nods. "positive," he says softly. harry nods and pulls his shirt off, feeling like time had slowed down. stripping louis of his clothes took too much time, but harry loved the revealance of his toned skin and his perfect flaws.

"i love you so much," harry says as louis reaches to help him take off his jeans.

"i love you," louis croaks and pops the button. harry lowers the zipper and louis lifts his hips, guiding harry's large hands to feel around him and get the pants off.

"fuck, you're perfect," his boyfriend states and tosses the article of clothing to the side. louis squirms as harry kissed down his body, nipping and sucking at the flesh and gasped when he mouthed at his boxers.

"don't tease," he begged. he craved harry's touch but the man could be a bugger sometimes.

harry apologizes softly and pulls his sweats off, leaving both men in just their underwear.

"promise that you're okay?" he asks, nervousness obvious in his voice.

louis nods. "i trust you," he says. harry nods his head, reaching over to the nightstand and pulled out a bottle of lube and a box of condoms.

"just in case you were ever ready," harry assures. louis notices both items were still sealed shut. he sinks into the mattress, a pit of nervousness filling in him and he gulps as his partner goes to pull down his underwear.

"i got you," harry promises. louis pushes his hands on harry's and peels his boxers off with him, laying naked and free underneath. harry took in the sight with glazed over eyes and a bitten lip, wondering why louis ever hated the way he looked in the first place. he was good in all the right spots, with his thighs hooked around harry's and his hips dipping inwards. harry ran his hands over louis' curves and bent down to suck endless hickies on his thick thighs.

"shit," louis groaned and grabbed his hair, pulling on it to encourage him to keep going.

"so pretty," harry murmurs before moving to the opposite thigh. "and all mine."

"all yours," louis whimpers, growing hard as harry's mouth roamed his body.

harry raised up and took his underwear off, making louis' breath hitch as his own erection stood against his stomach.

"spread," harry commands softly, guiding his hands to louis' knees. louis shyly spread his legs and harry squeezed some lube onto his fingers, guiding one to his hole and smeared a bit around the rim.

"ganna put one in, okay?"

louis nods and bites his lip, gripping the sheets as harry's lanky digit made its way inside of him. he thrusted it a few times before adding another and soon had louis pleading for a third, crying out in pleasure. but louis was still anxious, this was his actual first time. he had never made love to anyone, he lost his virginity to an assault but this was the first time he had ever had actual sex with somebody.

"are you alright?" harry asks once he pulls his hand away from louis' hole, trying his best to get the remnants of lube off of his fingers. unable to speak at the moment, louis nods and opened the box of condoms, handing one to him.

"i'll take care of you," harry swears and louis nods again, watching him tear the foil package open with his teeth and slide the protectant on himself. he lubed himself up before leaning over and lining his tip to louis' rim, dipping down to kiss him as he eased his way in.

"ow, fuck," louis hisses against his mouth and groaned as he was stretched even more.

"do you want to stop?" harry asks, halting his movements. louis shakes his head, slipping his hands up his body and dug his nails into harry's back, arching his body to where their chests were flushed together.

"just go slow," louis croaks and harry nods, dipping his head down in the crook of his neck as he eased his way completely in. he left louis speechless but still clinging onto him for dear life.

"you okay?" harry questions.

his boyfriend nods, tightening his arms around his body. "'m okay, haz."

"alright," harry murmurs. "just tell me when to go."

louis squeezes his legs around harry's waist, whimpering in nothing but bliss. harry was soon hip to hip with him, waiting for him to adjust and be pressed tender kisses along his skin to soothe him.

once louis gave him the go, he slowly bottomed out and pushed back in. he gave a few more thrusts like that before louis let out a small moan, cursing under his breath.

as louis slid his hands down harry's body, dragging his nails down his back, all he could think about was harryharryharry. not himself, not anything around him, just harry. he let out shaky breaths as harry thrusted himself in and out of him, pleading for him to keep going.

harry pinned himself above louis, hands digging into the mattress and he pulled out, teasingly going back in as slow as ever. he was working louis up and the smaller boy knew it.

"stop," louis whined. "stop teasing."

"sorry, sorry," harry kissed the corner of his mouth and louis dug his heels into the bottom of his spine, bringing him closer to him. "i love you, sweet boy," harry murmurs.

"i-fuck," louis moans. "i love you."

harry sped up his pace a tad, a sweet low moan slipping from his lips and louis groaned at the sound. harry never went any faster but he made nothing but love to louis, being as careful as possible. he didn't want to hurt or, worst case scenario, break him.

louis whimpered as beads of sweat began to drip from his forehead. "harry, fuck, oh my god," he cried out.

"tell me," harry moaned. "what, baby?"

"'m gonna come," louis hiccups. "'m close, feels so good, god-" a high pitched whine came out of his mouth as he raked his nails into harry's skin.

"me too," harry raises back up, moving to kiss him. louis kisses him with lust and hunger, craving more and the older man's hips begin to stutter as he buried himself in his partner, filling the condom up with his come. white ribbons eased out of louis' cock and onto their tummies, making their skin warmer than what it already was.

harry stopped his movements for a moment as he caught his breath before he pulled out. he tossed the used rubber in the bin beside the bed and he collapsed beside louis, leaning over to brush his hair out of his face.

"are you okay?" he asks softly, cupping his cheek.

"perfect," louis pants, gulping. "you're the best boyfriend ever, haz."

harry smiled at that and leaned over to kiss him gently. "i love you."

"i love you," louis whispered before kissing him again. harry felt the cool metal of louis' ring suddenly placed on his cheek and harry grabs louis' hand, lacing their fingers as he solemnly swears to be the best person louis could have, hopefully for the rest of his life.

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the chapter itself (minus both authors notes) has a word count of 2501. and yes, harry sings little things to him because i am a sappy fuck who loves cheesy moments like this.

thoughts on the chapter? how was the smut? once again thank you for 15k, you lot are amazing & i love you all very much. i am saddened to say that optional will be ending soon but i promise i will make up for it! nothing sad will be happening from here on out, it will be nothing but progression and i can vouch for it since yknow...im writing it. 😆

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