Taehyung's POV

(A/N. K I'm gonna see if this works and has no issues. Hopefully nothing bad happens🤞🤞)

I wanted to tell him how much I cared about him, but I couldn't.

I didn't want to be an asshole, but I had to.

I'm a disgusting person, I know.

He deserves someone better than me.

I deserve nothing.

I'm just a weak being.

No one would care if I left.

No one would care if I stayed.

They ruined my life.

My mom doesn't even care about me anymore.

I'm nothing.

And that's what I deserve.

He's something.

And he deserves the best.

I want to tell him how beautiful he is.

But I can't.

Not anymore.

Because I'm selfish.

Because I'm disgusting.

If his mother was to find out what I've been saying to him, she'd be very disappointed.

She'd hate me at the snap of her fingers.

And it's funny.

Because she's the only one I have.

She's the only one who believes I'm not as bad as I seem to be.

Yet deep down in her heart, she knows.

She knows what she thinks is wrong.

Yet she sees more than what her eyes can handle.

She sees past my facade.

Past the act.

Past the lie.

Past what people call 'the bad boy'.

Her son used to be that way.

Soon she'll end up hating me just like him.

Is this really worth it?

Having the people you care about hate you because people you don't even know will think bad of you, yet the people you know will just think more highly of you.

Yes, yes it is.

It's not like we were anything special.

Just two friends.

Nothing more.

Nothing less.

So, what's the point?

I've only just met him a few months ago too.

It'll be like we never met.

When life was easy.

Yet not as exciting.

Or happy.

Man, I'm gonna miss that kid.

His smile.

His soft skin.

His laugh.

His plump lips.

The way he talks.

His whining.

His aegyo.

His height.

Everything.

But it's for the best.

I know it is.