-It's not the best chapter, please bear with me.

{Harry}

Another day in hell.

My eyes are heavy and my skin is hot. I give a few kicks to remove the covers from my body, I'm sweating. My breath stinks just like me. My head hurts and maybe I want to throw up. God, the hangover had never felt so awful.

I sit on the bed and my muscles are gently tense. I sighed rubbing my hands against my face and then I stand up.

My room does not look as always, I had to get rid of some belongings and other things I destroyed. After the disaster I had to replace a few things, it was not so expensive and that was a good thing about it. Still I had to clean the mess and that's why I hate Louis.

The room looks a bit empty and clean up if I might say. A desk, bed, tv, wardrobe and a shelf that has some things in it. In my drunk state I ripped the posters and a picture that was on my wall, I broke the lamp and other things. To sum up everything was a mess.

My stomach is tightened and I think I won't be able to eat something right now. I have drunk a lot lately and I think if I continue this way I probably would die young but who cares, we have to die of something right?

I walk over to my desk and took a seat in the new chair because I broke the old one, thank God I didn't hurt Sherlock. The hamster is in his cage and as always he's running on his hamster wheel, I wonder if he is stressed or scared of me after what happened.

"Sorry if I scared you Sherlock, it was not my intention," I sighed, and the animal kept running. I bow my head to his cage and it does not smell good.

"You stink, like me," I crinkle my nose and I laugh alone. The hamster runs towards the water fountain and I stared at the animal while he's drinking small sips. "We'll have to take a shower; I'll go first and then you."

I grab my towel and clean clothes and I rush to the bathroom. The hot water helps me feel better and bring me back to the real world. I think is is the third time I get drunk and it has been a not so great experience.

I wash my face for the second time and then I brush my teeth. First my body and then I dry my hair with a towel and I feel like new when I have my clothes on. I feel more refreshed and less waste. Finally I got up from the world of the dead drunk.

I don't know how to bath Sherlock so I search on youtube a video about that.

"Ready for your first shower? God, I'm a terrible father," I grabbed the little animal in my hands and ignore the fact he is biting me.

I put a plug in the sink and let the water run to a level that does not drown the poor animal. I left Sherlock in the sink and he runs around while he gets wet with water. I laugh just because he's running to try to escape of the sink but the water doesn't allow it. He looks silly but I love this hamster.

I grabbed Sherlock and wrap him on my towel and start to dry gently. I kick down the sheets and leave him on my bed and the animal stay in my pillow.

My head hurts but I try to ignore that annoying feeling. I grabbed the cage, a plastic bag and then I sit on the bed while Sherlock is lying on my pillow.

"I'll try to clean up the mess you left," I say to the hamster but I know I will not get any answer.

I get rid of hay and the stools and then I clean his cage with a cloth. I give Sherlock some seeds so he doesn't move from the pillow. I clean his pot of water and food and then his house and the hamster wheel. I feel like a mother caring the baby, it’s weird but I'm really having fun.

"You know Sherlock," I sigh as I put the things back to the cage. "I'm a bad person. I'm going to hell for the things I've done,"

I look up to the animal and he's sleeping! I swear it's the sweetest thing I've seen in my entire life. I think so far I had never seen Sherlock sleeping. I grabbed the animal in my hands and he wakes up scared, I stroked his fur and then I let him in the cage. He goes quickly into his house without even saying thank you.

"I'll be more careful with you," I say depositing the cage on my desk. "I didn't take care of...of Lucy and now I can't do it but I will try to change for you, I promise," I muttered and nostalgia is expands in my voice and soon in my whole body.

I couldn’t do it and it's too late for that. I destroyed the girl and I think the guilt is consuming me by small but strong bites.

I shake my head and ignore the feeling. I am a bastard. I get rid of the trash bag and then I go downstairs. The lads are at the table playing poker.

"The drunk is here!" Zayn mocked and Louis repeatedly banged the table with his hands. The sound increases my headache; I walked past them and straight to the kitchen.

We have a drawer with some pills and medicines. I put a pill in my mouth and drink some water. Although I don't want I return with my friends and I sit with them to play.

I play cards to kill time; I have nothing else to do. Months ago I used to spend all my time with...Lucy but now that is all over she has left empty spaces in me and I don't know what to do with that time. I swallow the lump in my throat and I play my turn.

We all stop the game when we heard a loud knock on the door. Lately I'm the one doing it but now that I'm sober I don’t know who it is. Another knock followed by a female voice, my sister?

"Open the fucking door!"

"Sounds like you Harry, I hope she is not drunk too," Louis whispers but I ignore him.

I walk to the entrance and open the door. I was about to say 'Hi sister' but Gemma didn't let me. She kicked me in the balls with her boot and I curse as I fall to my knees. My hands covered my jewels and I swear a tear stream down my face as the pain expands over every fiber of my body.

"You monster!" She screams and I'm still on my knees without understanding.

The following events happen very quickly, she slaps me right on the face and then her nails scratch my cheek and I feel the burn in the open wound. She kicked me in the stomach, sinking her boot on my skin. I've never seen such violence in my sister and before she can hit again Zayn grabs her arms.

"Get off me Zayn, get off me!" She squeals as her body fights against Malik's grip.

I'm on the floor with pain pumping through my veins. I don't think I'll be able to have kids.

"Calm down Gemma, what happened?" I hear Horan's voice above my sister screaming profanities.

"Son of a bitch! How dare you to hurt Lucy!? You have no heart, you bastard! " She barks angrily. "You are all shit! What the hell is wrong with you guys? How could you do that to the poor girl?" She yells at us and her voice cracks, is she going to cry, for Lucy?

I let out a soft growl, my fingers rest on my cheek rest and slide down my wound. A bright red color stained the tip of my fingers. I'm bleeding.

"She was perfect for you, she could have helped you with your crap life but you ruin everything Harry, you always do the same!" She spits and the saliva falls on my shirt. "Maybe Mom and Dad screwed our lives but was our decision to the best we could but you did the opposite! You're a piece of shit; I'm embarrassed to be your sister! "She spits again and her face is red, for the rage.

"This is very interesting,"

"Shut up or I'll kick your balls too Tomlinson, big son of a bitch!" Gemma shouts filled with anger.

I wipe the blood from my cheek with the back of my hand and I sit slowly on the cold floor. I can't get up because my balls hurt as hell.

What Gemma said sadly is true. Maybe Lucy told her what happened that night and well, one day she would find out anyway and her reaction would not have changed. But there is one positive thing I can rescue of this, I know this will cause disgrace in the life of my sister and that will tear her heart but I will do it for her best.

"I didn't do it because I wanted!" I cleared my throat and she looked at me, she has tears in her eyes just like...like Lucy that night. Focus Styles. "Do you know who told me to do it?" I gave a defiant look and she furrowed her brows. "Your dear beloved boyfriend Taylor"

Her expression changed immediately, anger suddenly disappears from her face and eyes threatening to shed tears.

"No, you're lying!"

"No, he is not, Gemma, I swear," Liam is talking now, he stands in front of the table and his expression is serious.

"You're lying!"

A wicked smile crosses my face despite the pain I am still feeling.

"Why don't you find out yourself? I take my responsibility as the others for what happened to Lucy but he was the one who started all this,”

I see on Gemma's face feelings that are too familiar to me. My heart tightened in my chest as I see sadness, disappointment and I know her heart is broken. This is too familiar, her expression, her feelings, her face and tears, the memory of her face is blurred to me but seeing Gemma just makes me think about one person: Lucy.

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You know what they say keep your friends close but keep your enemies closer.

I rest the cigarette between my lips as the smoke clears around me. I'm in a room with my friends and other guys I know. It sounds odd but we are in a meeting, not of school or friends, but working.

I don't want to, but we will have to steal. Taylor has something planned, someone is threatening his business and also they share rivalries and the only way to stop it is threatening. The boys and I didn't want to do it but we are working for him and we have to face the consequence, besides we still need the other half of the money. We always dedicate to drugs but unfortunately Taylor 'trusts' on us and we assigned this mission.

"We need someone to tell us the exits of the place, I think a spy would be the right word," Tomlinson said before exhaling the smoke from his cigar.

"I will seek people for that, a prostitute in that place will be easy to buy as a spy," Taylor answered as he pulled a small bag with a white powder. "Does anyone want?"

Zayn was about to rise his hand but I gave him a look of "if you do it I'll kill you" and he keeps his hand to himself. We don't do that, cocaine is dangerous and honestly I can't understand how we ended up not addicted to it.

My eyes land on Taylor while I smoke my cigarette, he has some scratches on his face and that was for the fight with my sister. I told her to find out for herself and that's what she did. Taylor would not lie to Gemma or so and I think he told the truth. I think Gemma hit him in the same way she did to me. I hope she also hit him in the balls, I swear it still hurts; damn that girl really knows how to kick.

It's all over between those two and even though my sister is suffering is the best for her. I want her to find a real man, perhaps a teacher or a doctor if she aspires for more, someone that earn his money fairly and can keep her safe and Charlie.

Taylor has been doing lately more cocaine than normal, this is not good, although he is a kind of enemy for me I don't want him to die. Death is too easy but suffer the pain slowly is the best wish for your enemies.

"When will we do this?" I asked as I gently shake the cigarette, the ashes rain and fall to the ground.

"In a couple of weeks possibly, depending on how his business is going and how fast I can find spies in there,"

We all nodded at his words and there is a gray cloud, really foggy.

"The demand for LSD is increasing, we need more," Niall speaks with a can of beer between his fingers.

"Really? I'll see what I can do with it, lately is difficult to find a good source to provide us with good LSD, "Taylor sighs while forming a white line with a credit card.

"Marijuana is in high demand but we need more variety,"

"Everybody wants it and everyone wants to try different types," I say, rolling my eyes.

"I'll take care of that," says Freddy, sitting next to Zayn.

Taylor snorts the white line and rests his back on the seat with his eyes closed.

"Is that all or is there more to talk about?" Zayn said with his cell phone in his hand.

"I think that is--"

Ashton interrupts the conversation bursting into the room. His eyes land on Taylor and then on me.

"Styles, someone is asking for you,"

"Really?" I raise an eyebrow and hold the cigarette between my fingers.

"Yes, he has asked for your name a while ago and I tried to contain him but is not happy, he threatened me so I had to come here,"

"Threatening? Whatever, Styles take care of that and if there is a fight I'll be watching you, "Taylor says and makes me a gesture to get the hell out of here..

"Do you know who is it?" I ask Ashton as I close the door.

"No, I didn't ask. They are four guys." I have no idea who may be. It's 6 pm and the bar is not working right now.

"They can wait, do you want a cigarette?" I offer to Ashton and he accepts.

We smoked a cigarette in the hallway and after that we headed to the exit. It is a long corridor we have to walk before reaching the entrance that connects us to the bar. Ashton pushes the wooden door and I got into the bar to meet four guys. I recognize two of them right away but there are two other guys I have never seen before.

"Son of a bitch!" He screams and I know why the boy is here.

"Hello Adam," I smile and sit on a table. "How are you?"

"Don't act that way, you're a piece of shit!" He says and tries to approach me but his brother Josh grabs him by the arm.

"Why are you here? Come here to punch me on the face? Anyone want to smoke?" I asked pulling my pack of cigarettes and my joke doesn't seem funny to anyone but me.

Adam is wearing a sweater and jeans, he looks awful. His face is red and his jaw is tense.

"She didn't deserve this! How could you do that!? You are a sick person and I don't want to see you again with Lucy! "He screams and I think this is funny. I don't care about his threat but I don't like hearing the name of Lucy from his mouth. "You never deserve her and I knew it from the beginning!"

"Still I had Lucy and you don't," A victorious smile plays on my face and I hold with the cigar in my fingers. My words have the effect I wanted, Adam is mad and I love doing this. "How does it feel to always be in the friend zone?" Good point Styles! I dislike him because he is in love with Lucy.

"Harry you're crazy, you're a bastard," Josh speaks this time, Lucy told me he knew both since they were kids.

"So you came here to beat me up or what?" I pretend to yawn, this is boring me. Josh released Adam's arm and I think it's time.

"Looks like we have a party here," I hear Tomlinson's voice and he stood next to me and he's not alone, Zayn's here too. These two guys love to fight.

"Now we are ready," Zayn speaks, we are three to four and I don't care, that leaves me to Josh and Adam. I'm more concerned with Josh because I know he has been involved in some fights.

"Come back here girl!" We hear the scream of the security guard outside the bar.

The metal door opens, pushing it hard inside and my eyes widened as I spotted the small body of Lucy enter the bar. She's frightened, she looks both ways until her eyes found her friend.

"Adam no, please, no!" She says but the security guard grabs her arm and starts to drag her out.

Ashton looks at me and I nod. Irwin approaches the guard and briefly they share some words. He lets go of Lucy and she stares at Ashton a few seconds before running towards her friend.

"Adam, let's get out of here, please, please," she begs and she's about to cry.

"No, stop Lucy, I need to do this!"

She is begging, about to cry what he says no? I'd obey Lucy if I were Adam.

"This is not necessary, it doesn't matter, let's just go, please,"

"Enough, he needs to learn, Harry deserves this! He thinks he can always win but that's not how things work!" Lucy loosened her grip around Adam and she takes a few steps back.

Her eyes wander through Josh and his friends and suddenly land on me. I completely froze under her gaze. I barely have seen her during these months, and now we are close and I have a chance to see Lucy she's different, very different from how I remember her. Being so close to her almost has me in shock, I swallow the lump in my throat and suddenly I'm vulnerable under her gaze. She breathes heavily and I wish I could...I could talk to her. We are no longer the same people we were at the beginning; there are no more Lucy and Harry together in the same sentence, now we're just two names and two very different people.

I don't know what to do; I don't wanna fight, not in front of Lucy. I lost the desire and all I want to do now is get close to her and carefully observe her face, I don't know how she looks so different in such a short time. I step forward and Lucy steps back, as if she were guessing what I wanted to do.

I shudder when a body falls to the ground; Louis is hitting one of the boys, which means the fight has begun. Damn Tomlinson. For a moment I forgot he was here.

Lucinda grabs Adam's arm to stop him leaving Josh for me. He walks like a beast to me, I managed to dodge his punch and I punch him in the jaw. He steps back and then attacks again. I can't dodge in time and he hit me with his elbow in the stomach. I start coughing and ignore the pain the best I can.

I stop his fist with my hand and my knee smashes his balls. Josh groans and falls to his knees. Adam is released from Lucy's grip and she screams when he friend runs towards me. She doesn't want me to hurt him, I don't want to do it because she's here and I can't think straight at all while Lucy is just a few meters away from me.

Adam tries to hit me but I see his weaknesses immediately. I dodge his fist, he bumps into the floor because of with my foot and I kick him in the stomach. I try to be not so rough with Adam, I could have kicked in the face but I can't help thinking that Lucy is here.

Josh catches me off guard, pushing me and my body falls heavily to the ground. I hear the cry of Lucinda and her voice is a torture for me, it hurts. Adam's brother hits me in the face twice, I feel dizzy, a little sick but nevertheless I manage to support my hands on his shoulders to shove him aside. I kick him to times on the face, right in the nose, and I manage to get up tripping. I spit and I see drops of blood falling to the ground.

Lucinda tries to stop Adam but he pushes her before running towards me. He pushes and Lucy stumbles and falls. That bastard pushed Lucy and she fell. He is dead to me. I see him coming, it is clear that he wants to hit my face which frees the rest of his body. I avoid his blow, I bury my elbow hard into his ribs and then on his ugly face. I hate Adam and I wanted to hurt him because he shoved Lucy but she's here and I don't want her to witness this. Instead I decide to do something that would be more embarrassing for Adam; I grabbed him by the hair and threw him to the ground. He falls like a doll and I try to stifle a laugh. This guy can't fight.

"Harry, please Harry!" Lucy's voice reaches my ears when my foot was resting on Adam's hand.

His nose is bleeding a bit and he groans at the pressure of my shoe on his skin. I didn't want to do this at first place but he asked for it.

"Harry!" Lucy's voice brings me back to reality and Ii withdraw my foot from the hand of her friend.

I turn to Josh and Liam is here, he's containing the boy so he can stay away from me. My eyes land in Lucinda and something is not right. Her face is pale, too pale for my taste. She stands with her fingers clinging to the table closest to her and her free hand rest on her chest. She is coughing a lot. She looks at me for a couple of seconds and I think she's asking for help, her eyes close and I see almost in slow motion as her body loses strength and falls. I can’t breathe.

Lucy, on the floor, unconscious, I swear my fucking heart just stopped.

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