The scream that tore from my throat was that of a banshee as I watched you plummet down.

Down.

Down.

It felt as if the first second of eternity had passed.

You shot through the sky like the morning star, Gods banished angel with broken wings no longer able to save you.

Arresto Momentum!

The incantation ripped past my throat, my soul was trying to escape me.

You froze just mere centimeters from the ground.

When I heard you laugh I nearly crumbled with relief.

Anger overtook me, why was it always you?

No one knew how to break me like you did.

People you care about aren't supposed to do that.

My steps thundered, rupturing whatever calm was left in the empty courtyard and I stopped in front of your drunken form.

I hated when you were drunk.

You said such mean things.

You rolled over and I felt like crying at the look of amusement on your sharp features. You wreaked of whiskey.

Beautiful timing.

What is wrong with you?

I bit my lip to stop myself from crying, your grin only cutting me deeper.

Deeper and deeper.

Were you trying to burrow your way to my heart to caress it or rip it out?

I never knew.

I never knew when to stop you, either.

I didn't want you to.

You sat up on one elbow, bitterness reigning over your features now. Where's your boyfriend?

What happened to the boy I met all those years ago?

The one who was rude in a playful way. The one who still got excited at Quidditch matches. The one who enjoyed my hellos.

You thought you could hide your emotions so well, I found it endearing but now I didn't know anymore.

Abraxas you frighten me.

I'm not suicidal.

I beg to differ since I just saved your arse.

I had it handled.

You're unbelievable.

I turned to go, hoping you'd reach out for me. Praying that you'd apologize.

Just this once you'd say you're sorry and mean it.

Say it, say it please.

Make it your mantra and I'll stay, or I'll leave you alone.

I just need to know you mean it.

With each step away from you it felt like something was severing.

My dear Morningstar, have I lost you already?