'Derek....' I whispered watching him storm away after crying in my arms.
I ignored the blood dripping down my arm and ran after him.

'Derek!' I said louder and he stopped in his tracks not fully turning around
'Leave.' He ordered
'No.' I said
'Now.' He ordered
'Derek just let me-' he cut me off
'Jessica shut up!' He yelled fully turning around and I flinched.

I stayed quiet

'You don't get it. You're a little girl you haven't felt loss!' He yelled
'What!' I yelled angry.
Did he forget about my mom?
'My mother died! Don't you dare talk to me about loss.' I yelled
'Your mother died.' He then scoffed
'My mother died. My father died, my sister....my whole fricking family!' He yelled with his alpha eyes
' and I just killed my beta. Like I killed Paige.' He said.

Paige?
Oh the human girl.......

I opened my mouth but nothing came out.
'Just let me help...' I whispered and he walked so he was in my face and I could sense people behind me.

'Your just a human. If you stay I will kill you.' He said between gritted teeth and gripped the top of my arms tightly making me Yelp considered it had practically been impaled.
'Derek your hurting me!' I whimpered
'Good. Be afraid!' He yelled and he transformed right in my face.
'Go!' He then said through his fangs.

I was actually absolutely terrified of the love of my life.

I was frozen to the spot.
The only noise in the room being my small whimpers and ragged breaths.

'Fine I'll go!' He yelled And with that he stormed out the room leaving me like a piece of garbage.

When it was finished everyone ran to me.

'Jess!' Stiles yelled
'What?' I asked impatient
'Are you ok?' Scott asked
'....no.' I said looking at my arm and then Cora came with Peter and bandages in her hand.

'Cora I'm fi-' she cut me off
'Your not. Your hurt.' She said bandaging my arm and I felt like someone needed to bandage my heart.
'What if there's no point?' I asked and she stopped what she was going and looked up
'Huh?' She asked
'It's from an alpha.' I stated and I saw Scotts jaw clench
'No no Nope nope nopety no!' Stiles said
'You are not being another supernatural creature on my list!' He exaggerated
'I'm sure you will be fine.' Cora soothed

She let my arm go and the fact that blood was still running made me happy.
Is that weird?

'If worst comes to worst....' I trailed off
' if worst comes to worst...what?' Stiles asked
'I want to die.' I said.

I mean I don't want to be a werewolf.
I don't want that life and I certainly don't want to be different.
I'm happy as a human and I will die that way.

'You stupid girl why would you wish that!' Scott yelled
'Because I want to stay human.' I said between gritted teeth.

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2 days later
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'Okay, so is two days standard, then, or are we thinking Derek's on, like, some extended getaway?' Stiles asked Peter.

Peter has just explained to us another horrifying story to Derek's past where they hid for two days in a dirty shed.....yeah.
So now we were Brain storming to see where he could of gone.
Me?
I was waiting for an agonising injury to occur from my ''mate bond'' or something.
Luckily that hasn't happened yet.

Yet.

My arm was still bleeding and my other arm was still broken.
Yay!!! Not.

'Why do you care?' Peter asked and I snapped out of my brain update

'Why do I care? Let's see because over the last few weeks, my best friend's tried to kill himself. His boss nearly got ritually sacrificed. A girl that I've known since I was three was ritually sacrificed. Boyd was killed by alphas, do you want me to keep going? 'Cause I can, all right? For, like, an hour!' Stiles yelled

'You think Derek can do anything about that?' I asked and stiles sighed
'Well, since he's the one everyone seems to be after, it's more like he should do something about it, yeah.' Stiles yelled.
Yup he was mad at Derek.

' I don't know....' Cora pondered in thought for a second
'There's something different about him now. He wasn't like this when we knew him.' This perked my interest

'What was he like?' I asked looking between Peter and Cora who exchanged glances
'A lot like Scott, actually.' Peter then said which caught me off guard completely

'What!' I yelled
'Hmm.....A lot like most teenagers unbearably romantic, profoundly narcissistic, tolerable really only to other teenagers.' Peter gave me more info
'And so what happened? What changed him?' Stiles Asked.

I knew this answer!

' something that changes a lot of young men... A-' I cut him off

'A girl.' I chirped in and Peter stared at me alarmed.

''Paige'' I mouthed to him and he nodded
'' you know?'' He mouthed back and I nodded, he nodded back.

You're telling me some girl broke his little heart? That's why Derek is the way he is!' Stiles seemed baffled by this idea
'Do you remember Derek before he was an Alpha had blue eyes? Do you know why some wolves have blue eyes?' Peter questioned stiles and stiles did the dumb face
' i just always thought it was, like, a genetic thing.' He answered and I rolled my eyes
'God stiles your so stupid.' I muttered

'If you want to know what changed Derek, you need to know what changed the color of his eyes.' Peter said and I sighed
'Come on then.' I said and he looked at me
'What?' He asked
'Spill the details.' I stated and he coughed dramatically before inhaling

Peter went on to tell is the story of how they met.
It was pretty cliche cute if you ask me but I'm not complaining.

'Okay, so if Derek was a sophomore back then, how old was he? ' stiles asked and then a question crept into my mind.

'How old were you? How old are you now?' I asked
'Not as young as we could have been, but not as old as you might think.' Peter answered and I glared at him.

'Okay, that was frustratingly vague.' Stiles sighed
'You know what. One day Peter I'm going to tie you up and beat you until you promise never to be vague again! Like seriously just answer questions!' I exasperated and he chucked
'I'd like to see you try....' He mumbled but I heard him

'How old are you?' Stiles asked Cora and she looked up at him from biting her nails 'I'm 17.' She answered
'See, that's an answer. That's how we answer people.' I stated and stiles nodded while the hales raised there eyebrows.

Is this stilinski VS hale or something?

'Well, 17...how you'd measure in years?' Cora then asked and I rolled my her
'All right, I'm just gonna drop it.' I said plonking onto the couch

'What happened to Derek and the cello girl?' Stiles asked
'What do you think happened? They were teenagers. One minute, it's, "I hate you, don't talk to me. The next, it's frantic groping in any dark corner they could manage to find themselves alone for five minutes.' Peter answered and it took everything not to walk out of the room after that ''frantic groping'' explanation.

'Their favorite dark corner was an abandoned distillery outside of Beacon Hills.' Peter smirked and I then real aliased that he was narrating Derek's tragic love story.

'All right, hold up.
How do you know all this? You just said that they were alone?' I asked

'Back then, I wasn't just Derek's Uncle.
I was his best friend, his closest confidant' Peter answered and I could see the longing in his eyes.

They would never be like that again.

Peter carried in narrating....
Bla bla bla

'They were all there Ennis, Kali, Deucalion each with their own packs, before they'd killed them all and decided to form their little all-star team.' Peter said

'But they didn't all live here, did they? ' stiles asked
'No, but there was an exceptionally powerful Alpha who did live here.
She had a capacity to shape-shift that was rare among her kind.
That made her something of a leader, the kind of person that they would go to for advice and guidance'
'Talia Hale.' Peter said
'Derek's mom.' I stated and Cora looked down
'My mom.' She whispered

Poor Cora.

Peter then went to explain how they started a war and when he was deep in thought he went up to the condensated window and drew a swirl.
'Our mark for vendetta.' He explained

'Man, you guys really take that revenge thing to, like, a whole new level, don't you?' Stiles said and both Peter and Cora glared at him
'It's not just revenge. Losing a member of your pack isn't like losing family. It's like you lose a limb.' Cora explained and I then realised why Derek was so mad earlier.

Metaphorically his leg had just been chopped off.

'I don't get it.
What does this have to do with Derek? ' stiles asked
' Everything. It's never just a single moment. It's a confluence of events.
Personally, I looked at Ennis' circumstances, I saw a profound loss. Derek saw something different...' He trailed off
'He saw opportunity.' Peter said
'Opportunity? To do what?' I asked
'To always be with her.' Peter answered

'The thing was, he had this constant fear.
He was obsessing over it, thinking about it all night, all day, always on his mind.' Peter carried on

'kept telling him not to do it. Not to turn her.  Every day the more he thought about it, the more convinced he became.bYou know teenagers. I bet he even blames me.
He's probably convinced himself the whole thing was my idea.' Peter shrugged deep in thought but I had a feeling that this ''confluence of events'' was going to end in not only Derek killing her but also it was going to be for a horrific reason.

'Do you know the myth of Lycaon?'peter completely changed the subject there'
'I know it's where we get the word "lycanthropy.'' ' stiles answered
'According to myth, some Greek citizens believed they owed their lives more to prometheus than to the gods of Olympus.
And some followers even took names to honor the titans instead of the gods.
Like Deucalion.
The son of prometheus.
Lycaon didn't just refuse to honor the gods.
He challenged them.
He invited Zeus to a banquet and then tried to serve him the flesh of a human being.
Angered, Zeus blew the place apart with lightning bolts and then punished Lycaon and his sons by turning them into wolves.
The part that's lesser known is how Lycaon sought out the druids to help turn him back to human.' Peter told the story

'Why druids? ' I asked

'The belief was that the ancient druids knew how to shape-shift.
They couldn't make Lycaon and his sons human again, but they did teach them how to shift back and forth.
And so the druids became important advisors to the packs.
They keep us connected to humanity.
But they're a secret even in the pack.
Sometimes only the Alpha knows who the emissary is. Derek and I had no idea about Deaton Or his sister, Morrell.' Peter said and I was suddenly shocked

'She's an emissary too!' I yelled
'For the Alpha pack.' Peter added
'Our guidance counselor? ' stiles asked
'Why the hell don't you people tell me any of this stuff, huh? I shared some really intimate details with her.' Stiles whined

'And did she give you good advice?' 'Actually, yeah.....'

'That's what they do.'

'That's what Deaton used to do for Talia.
While I admire your willingness to extend an olive branch, I have to tell you, it might not be welcome. And I'm not sure that Gerard is the one to accept it.'

It's true. The Argents have a matriarchal leadership.' Cora said
'Actually, I was speaking about the fact that he's a complete psychopath. The man cuts people in half with a broadsword!' Stiles yelled
'Do the two of you really have so little faith in people?' Peter scolded us and I shrugged
'I don't have faith in you for a reason.' I said and he rolled his eyes

'You think Gerard isn't worried about the deaths on his own side? ' Peter asked the question
'Yeah duh.' I answered but he ignored me
'Do you know the story of the scorpion and the frog? ' he asked
'I have a feeling I'm about to hear it.' Stiles said
'When the scorpion asked the frog to carry him across the river, the frog said, "how do I know you won't sting me?" The scorpion replied, "why would I do that? Then we'd both drown, So the frog agreed.
Halfway across the river, the scorpion stung the frog.
When the frog asked him why he did it, since now they would both die, the scorpion replied "It's my nature.'

'Why would you choose him? ' I asked
'Why not? Ennis needed a new member for his pack. Paige was young and strong.
Doing a favor for Derek meant Ennis would be in good with Talia. Back then, everybody wanted to be in good with her.' Peter explained
'He doesn't remember it was Ennis, does he?' Stiles said
'If he does, he keeps it to himself.' Peter shit that down
'So then what happened? Did he turn her?' I asked but I knew the answer
''Almost.' Peter sighed and I closed my eyes shaking my head.

'He came at Ennis.
A 15year-old boy against a giant.
There was no reason for him to fight.
She'd already been bitten.' Peter said and my heart broke

She didn't take to the bite.
Did she?

'So did she turn? ' stiles said
'She should have.' I answered
'Most of the time, the bite takes....' Peter said
'Most of the time.'

'When you offered it to me, you said, "if it doesn't kill you.' Stiles said

' if.' Peter pointed out
'It didn't matter that she was young and strong. Some people just aren't made for this. But she fought. She struggled desperately, trying to survive.' Peter paused

'I remember taking her body from his arms, to the woods, to a place where I knew that it would be found another in a long line of Beacon Hills animal attacks.' That was it.
Say goodbye to my heart it's just broke.

'And what about Derek?' I asked
'Taking an innocent life takes Something from you as well, a bit of your soul darkening it, dimming the once brilliant, golden yellow to a cold, steel blue like mine.' Peter flashed his eyes

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'What? What's this what's this look on your face? ' Cora asked stiles and I was leaning against the wall away from them but still hearing.
What if me loving Derek resulted in that too.

'What look? The kind of look that makes me want to punch you.' Cora said angered and I chuckled lightly
'Oh, my God. You are so Derek's sister.
I forgot!' Stiles yelled
'Well, what is with the look? ' Cora asked gain
'I just don't believe him. All right, in Ms.
Blake's class, we're reading heart of darkness, and it's in first person, right? Narrated by Marlow.
The thing is that he's he's an unreliable narrator.
You know the details of it have changed, you know, just because of his perspective.
Well, then we heard the story from Peter's perspective.
Right, and I don't think we got the whole story.' Stiles said and we walked to them
' So, what, Are you just gonna ask Derek about the girl he fell in love with and then killed?' Cora gasped
'If I have to Yeah.' Stiles answered
'No you won't!' I yelled
'Why?' He asked
'Because to like if he asked us why mom died on our birthday.' I said and his face dropped.
Coras face dropped.
Peters face dropped.
'That's different.' Stiles said
'It's the same heart ache.' I answered walking out of there.

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I tried to use my mate senses as I walked an empty path I was unfamiliar with.
'Come on.' I muttered walking with hey eyes shut.

Clang!
'Shit!' I head butted a wall.

'Who's there.' I heard and I looked around t see that I head head butted the door to an old farm house factory thing?

I slowly crept in only seeing the dim lit reflection of a person.

'Derek?' I asked and the person stepped into the light.

'Jessica.' He said and I stayed still.

What do I say?
''How dare you insult me and my mother.''
''How dare you hurt me!''
''I'm so sorry!''
''Will you kill me?''

I said them all.

'Howdareyouinsultmeandmymotherandyouhurtmeandimsosorryaboutpaigewiklyoukillmetooiloveyou!' I said it all in a ramble and he walked closer trying to study my words.

After he puckered his lips adorably he settled with 'your arm.' He walked and examined the bleeding bandage.
'I'm sorry.' He said
'Me too.'

'Where you been?' He asked
'Peter spilled the guts about your Paige.' I said and his face dropped
'She's not mine.' He stated and I shifted uncomfortably
'Ok you want to be alone I get it I'll just go.' I muttered turning around and my eyes filled up.

Why am I crying?!

'Hey!' He grabbed my arm and spin my around seeing the tears in my eyes.
'Don't cry.' He whispered
'I can't help it you've been through so much and I hate you and I love you and I don't know what to do about everything!' I cried
'I feel it.' He said hugging me
'What?'
'Your pain.'
'I'm sorry I'm being selfish.' I whispered
'Never' he replied and we hugged in the metaphorical grave yard.