Tony Pov

It was the following Monday morning, (it was like 5 O'clock in the morning), and I honestly didn't want to get up and go to work, (as that meant that I had to deal with sulking teenagers at like half 8 in the morning knowing that most of them kind of don't like you), (which isn't fun at all, regardless of what students think teachers get out of it).

Daisy came into my room, and she looked so worried, (which I didn't want her to be, especially at 5 years old), so I sat up as I wanted her to know that I was awake at least, (I don't know why I thought that me sitting up would change anything, but here ya go).

"Hey Baby"
"Hey Daddy, are you ok?"
"Yeah Baby I'm ok, (kisses forehead), are you ok?"
"I'm not sure Daddy"
"Ok Baby, do you want to talk about it?"
"Yeah"

So I gently pulled Daisy towards the left side of my chest, as that the side with the heart, and hearing my heartbeat always calmed Daisy down, (as she had started crying and that was the only thing I could think of to do), I tried to just rock us both slightly as it would help Daisy calm down.

"Daddy"
"Yeah Baby"
"Is your breathing going to go fast again?"

There it was, there was the problem, I knew that there was going to be consequences to Daisy seeing me have a panic attack, (like it woke her up so I didn't have a choice here), but I didn't think that it would be this bad, (not that I thought about it much as it really worried me).

"I don't know Baby, but I hope not"
"Are you dying?"
"No Baby, I'm not dying"
"Then why does that happen?"
"Well, it usually happens when you're worried about something"
"What are you worried about Daddy?"
"Lots of things Baby, but you don't need to worry about anything, ok, I'm the adult therefore it's my job to worry about everything"

Daisy's crying had gone down to sniffles, but I didn't think that she was in any fit state to go to school that day, so I kept her off school, (as we both needed it if we're being honest with ourselves here), I felt awful that she saw me have a panic attack, (well actually I still feel awful that she saw that even now, and she's now an adult).

"Are you ok Daddy?"
"Yeah Baby, I'm ok, I promise"
"That's a very big thing to promise Daddy"
"It is Darling, you're right, but as long as you're ok then I'm ok, (kisses cheek), are you ok Baby?"
"I don't know"
"That's ok Sweetheart, that happens sometimes, do you want to talk about it?"
"I don't know"
"Ok Baby, ok"

So I just held Daisy for a while, hoping that it helped Daisy even a little bit, (though I'm not sure if it did), she eventually went back to sleep and I just held her, as I knew that if I went to put her in her own bed that she would've woken up for the day, and it was still quite early for that yet.

A couple of hours later and it was a bit more of a reasonable hour of the morning, Daisy was still asleep, (not that it lasted much longer but it was more sleep than she had been getting), I hadn't really slept but it was weirdly peaceful, (I really tell you why that was, as I didn't know why).

Anyway, Daisy then woke up, I didn't know if she felt any less anxious about the possibility of me a panic attack again as I wasn't going to open that can of worms at any time of the morning, but she didn't seem too upset so I took that as a win here, ok.

"Hey Baby"
"Hi Daddy"
"You slept ok?"
"Yeah, of course I did, you're comfy Daddy"
"(Chuckles), I'm glad that I'm comfy then Sweetheart"
"Are we going to school today?"
"No Baby, not today"
"Why not?, I'm not sick"

Of course that was the one time she questioned the fact that she wasn't going to school that day, any other time she would be bloody ecstatic but not that day it can't have been that day even though she doesn't like school, she questioned why she wasn't going to school, so I answered that inquisitiveness the best that I could.

"Well, you know that we didn't go Friday because Daddy's breathing was faster because he was worried about stuff"
"Yeah"
"Well, we're staying off today because you were really worried about my breathing, and that's called having a mental health day, (kisses temple), and it's ok to need them sometimes"
"Ok"