CHAPTER 8

It was easy. Arthur believed his story and everything was back to normal. Except for the fact that he was expected to betray Arthur, betray Camelot, and betray his destiny. He had only been back for a week and the guilt was killing him. It was hard to joke around with Arthur and call him names when he knew eventually he would take over Camelot with Morgana. He hated the thought of it and shuttered at the thought of sitting on the throne. The only thing that kept him going was the thought of seeing Morgana tonight. He HAD to make Morgana happy.

"Anything on your mind Merlin?" Gaius asked

Merlin looked up at Gaius who was sitting across the table. It had been especially hard to talk to Gaius; who was basically a father to Merlin. It was hard to look him in the eye. The thought of the disappointing him was almost unbearable.

"No really" Merlin replied "What gave you that idea?"

"You have been starring into you breakfast for twenty minutes." Gaius said

"Long week." Merlin replied "Arthur has been working me to the bone."

Gaius nodded.

"Speaking of which I should get to work before the King throws a fit."

Merlin excused himself from the table and went out the door. As he walked he pulled out the note he found under his pillow last night. He sensed the paper was lined with magic. Only Merlin could read it. It had no name but it was pretty easy to tell who it was from. He already read it a million times and it kept him going.

Merlin, how have I missed you. Remember we must meet soon. Don't mess up. I love you and stay strong.

He shoved it into his pockets as he walked into the Queen's and King's bedroom. Gwen's maidservant was already there waiting outside the door.

"You are late." she whispered

Merlin ignored her and walked into the bedroom. They were asleep with their arms around each other. It was sweet. Merlin envied it. It was the impossible love that eventually played out. He wanted it to be the same with him and Morgana. He shook away the thoughts as he forced a smile onto his face. Time to play servant.

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Morgana waited for Merlin. She smiled when he finally appeared. She nearly ran to him and throw her arms around his neck. They kissed for a long while before pulling away only to kiss again after a few seconds. It was still a strange idea to think that she was kissing her doom, but she had him wrapped around her finger. Plus he was not the only one hopelessly in love.

"I missed you." she whispered

"Longest week of my life." Merlin agreed while cupping her cheek in her hand.

It had been a hard week. Morgana quickly got used to Merlin spending the first days with her that it was a dramatic change. It was hard to keep him off her mind and she wanted nothing more but to have him by her side. Yet, she not dare sneak into Camelot again. The only way she got the note there was using a spell and burning in fire so it appear in his room. Sadly, it was a must if she wanted the kingdom.

"What news do you bring?" she asked

He said nothing and looked at the ground avoiding her eyes. Morgana knew he did not want to betray Camelot and part of him must have still be fighting. She had to convince him. She kissed him again and wrapped his arms around her.

"Please Merlin." she asked

He sighed "The neighboring kingdom *Insert name of kingdom here. To lazy to google.* and Camelot are not getting along to well. The king is coming to Camelot and a few days and Arthur is trying to reason with him. Plus there is a monster in one of the villages that has already killed five of his men. Arthur is sending more in the morning."

War could be helpful. Especially how it would weaken Camelot. She could diffidently use that to her advantage and having the king's servant on her side was a major plus. Instead of Emry's working against her he would be helping her. She would have to have a talk with this other king.

"Thank you Merlin. I need you to keep gathering as much information as you can. Go back to Camelot." She kissed his cheek and pulled out of his arms.

"When will I see you again?" he asked, grabbing her arm

She hated to leave but the longer they were together the higher risk they had of being caught. She pulled away.

"I will send you another note soon. First I must make plans. Go back and make me proud." she said

Then turned around and started walking away without sending him another look. If she looked back she would only want to stay longer. It was hard enough leaving already.