I just wanted to say that not everything is going to be what you expect it to be. We may miss friends or family we have lost but we haven't lost them. All they want you to do is stand up and be strong. They want you to remember them and think positive. We all know and we all think that we aren't being pressured and we aren't barely.

But as for me... I can't think positive, I can't remember the positive things I did with my lost loved ones... I can't stand up for myself... I can't do anything right... I'm here getting pressured! I'm the one getting hurt while trying to protect you! Why am I still here? Why am I alive? Why do I have to be pressured! This doesn't only go to my friend's... It goes for everyone. I might be the one to talk you out of stuff but I can't do the same for myself. I'm in to much pain to do anything... I can't focus, I get hurt by bullies... I get flipping pressure! I CANT DO IT

What am I to you?

A bad person?

An annoying person?

An asshole to you?

Tell me now and be honest!