Jungkook has disappeared. You get the feeling he does that often, running away from his problems instead of dealing with them.

In the past, in memories you have yet to remember, you know this to be true. You can't pinpoint exactly when you found out, but deep down, you always knew, even now as you and his old friends sit in your living room.

Namjoon, of course, is sitting beside you but still tries to give you space. Taehyung and Yoongi are on the floor at the other side of the coffee table.

It's eerily silent. You wish someone would say something, anything. The silence is suffocating

Because they know everything that's happened. They know what Jungkook did you, and you're here as clueless as ever.

You had been so angry about it, but when you heard Jungkook from your bedroom, it all made sense. You hadn't heard the last of the dispute after listening in on why you had to remember it all on your own. Once you recollected it all, Jungkook would go back to what he was. He would be gone again.

You shouldn't care about him or what will happen to him. Taehyung said he put everyone in danger. He risked all of your lives, and you don't know what for. You suppose it doesn't really matter. It won't justify what he did, because trading out your relationships isn't worth anything else. They're precious, and whatever trouble he got himself into then didn't change that.

But it still hurts. You feel betrayed, abandoned. You had loved Jungkook, and strangely enough, you still do. You shouldn't. It's fucked up. It's toxic, but you love him.

Ever since he first appeared, you felt drawn to him, attracted to everything about him. You thought he was endearing and thoughtful. Turns out, that's only one side of himself he showed you. You don't even know if that's the part of him that's actually real. It could be a facade for all you know.

So that's the kind of headspace you're in right now. You're having an internal battle with your feelings for him, because as hard as you try to deny that you don't like him at all, you're just lying to yourself.

You love Jungkook. Just like you love Namjoon. You're sure you love them in different ways, but you can't really tell the difference right now. You're so confused. You don't know how to sort out your emotions when so much of your life is hidden in the depths of your brain. To get them all back was going to hurt like a bitch too.

The worst part is that you're going to hurt one or both of them when you do figure it out. You're going to have to choose, and you don't know if you'll be up for that.

You don't want to think about it anymore. You don't want to have these thoughts right now. They're not important.

It doesn't help that Namjoon has thrown you looks of concern multiple times in the span of an hour. You're trying to keep your feelings in check, but it's so hard to do when you just want to snuggle into his firm chest and cry your eyes out.

You have no doubt that Namjoon will let you. He's already proven that he will do anything to make sure you're okay. He's probably fidgeted often since you've all been sitting here, aching to wrap his arms around you in a warm and comforting embrace.

You definitely need a hug, but you can't get it from Namjoon. Just thinking about it makes you feel dirty.

Taehyung begins to mumble something to Yoongi. You can't hear what he's saying, but your brother swiftly nods in agreement. Namjoon, on the other hand, doesn't.

So lost in the chaos that has become of your mind, you didn't catch onto the beginning of their conversation.

"No, that wouldn't be fair to Jungkook." Namjoon shakes his head.

Yoongi scoffs. "I don't give a fuck. He's just going to do the same thing all over again. Why else would he leave?"

"He said he was going to fix things." You don't understand why Namjoon is defending Jungkook. Maybe it's because he feels guilty about everything you did. You don't really know, but you're curious. You want to know why.

You're about to ask when Taehyung does instead. "I know he's our friend, Joon, but he doesn't need you to protect him. Why do you keep taking his side?"

"I'm not," Namjoon responds forcefully. He obviously doesn't like it when Taehyung assumes his stance on the matter. "But we should let him try. He started this mess, so he should fix it. You tell Y/n everything, the problem isn't going to go away. You know they won't leave her alone until...," he trails off.

You want him to finish. Who's they, and what do they want with you?

"Shit," Yoongi curses in exasperation. "He's right, Tae. As much as I hate to admit it. We need to keep my sister's best interests in mind, not our own. No matter how much I want him gone, he needs to make amends. Let's do this the right way. We shouldn't stoop so low. If we do, we'll become just like him."

Taehyung groans. "Fine, but we can't leave them alone together. I don't trust him. We need to come up with a plan."

"That I can agree with." Namjoon arches a brow as his bites down on a corner of his lips. It's meant to look demeaning, but your stupid brain finds the action kind of hot.

You force yourself to look away. You shouldn't be thinking like that right now. It's neither the time nor place. When you return your gaze on him though, Namjoon is looking straight at you with a subtle smirk.

"What are you thinking, Y/n?" He asks in a low voice.

"H-huh?" He caught you staring. He knows what you were thinking about. Did he really just ask you that in front of your brother?

"About having at least one of us always with you?" Namjoon clarifies, but you know his initial question definitely held a double meaning.

Thrown off guard, your cheeks flush a soft pink. "Oh, um, yeah."

"Good," Namjoon continues, the smirk becoming all the more apparent. "I'll take the first couple of days then." He breaks eye contact with you and looks at Yoongi. "You can go next, and then Tae. If Jungkook takes longer than a week to resolve the situation, we can make changes where we see fit. For now, we'll each do 2 to 3 days. How does that sound?"

Yoongi sighs and concurs. "Sounds good. Keep us up to date though."

"You know I will." Namjoon leans back on the couch as Yoongi and Taehyung stand up. Something about the way he sits ignites something in you.

"All this tension has drained me," Yoongi comments. "I need some sleep, but you better keep an eye on her, Joon. I don't want to wake up to find that something has happened to Y/n."

"Nothing will happen to her while I'm around, I promise."

Yoongi's shoulders slightly relax. "You better not break it." He gives Namjoon one last threatening glare before turning to you. "If you feel even the slightest bit off, you better call me. Okay?"

"Okay," you say.

With that, Yoongi starts to walk out. To no one's surprise, Taehyung follows right behind him and quickly bids you and Namjoon goodnight.

When they're both gone, you train your gaze on the coffee table. There's something going on between you and Namjoon, and you're not sure what to do about it. A part of you doesn't really care and wants to see where it leads, but there's another part of you that says you shouldn't even be tempted.

The attraction between you two is undeniable. You can't believe that before all of this, you actually had been able to ignore it by coining Namjoon as a player. It was easier to resist if you did, but now, knowing that he actually wants you and no one else, knowing that you had a past, makes it so much harder to ignore.

God, is it wrong that you kind of want to kiss him right now?

"It's late. I'm going to bed," Namjoon pauses to lick his lips, and against your better judgement you meet his darkening gaze.

"Want to join me?"

a/n: ...and the battle of ships begins ;) you're not going to know who you want y/n to be with lol i'm going to make it really hard for you to decide, because jungkook is a redeemable character, and despite their best efforts, it's obvious their plan is going to fail and y/n will spend some alone time with jungkook. the real question right now though is do you think y/n is actually going to sleep with namjoon? or do you think she'll be able to stay strong and resist? i know i wouldn't be able to lmao