"I hate watching my bestfriend suffer everyday, telling me and asking me if there's someone missing in the troupe or if there's someone that he have forgotten? I can't keep watching that everyday! They finally found each other but why separate them!"

"You even made Jericho's voice disappear inside three years, that's probably where he heard Y/n's name. Is that why you had him killed?" Shizuku ask.

Who is Y/n? And why would they remove her from my memories? Shalnark mentioned that she was special, if she is why can't I remember her?

"Yes it was and I'm sorry, but I can't let allow you to give Feitan's memories back..." Chrollo trailed off and I felt my head spinning. "I made a promise to Y/n that I won't be the one returning her memories or anyone else in the troupe. What's done is done."

I heard Chrollo standing up so I hid in the corner.

"Damn it, I saw her today and she changed a lot. Him and Feitan had the same reaction with each other. They loved each other so much but they can't remember each other. They're so close! So close with each other yet they're so far away! This is so frustrating!" Shalnark also left his room and that was enough for me to know that this Y/n has a connection with me.

"Sooner or later Feitan will find out who she is and when he does, we're all going to be in a big trouble."

After they all left, I went out of my hiding and I couldn't believed everything that I just heard. After all this time, they've been hiding something so important. Three years, three years had past since I had that dream of Y/n kissing me.

I always told them about my dream but they kept telling me that it was just a dream. Three years I felt as if something was missing in my life, is that what it was? Is Y/n the thing... no, someone that's been missing in my life?

Who was she and what did we do in the past? On top of that, why is Shalnark so desperate to get my memories back about her?

"I hate watching my bestfriend suffer everyday, telling me and asking me if there's someone missing in the troupe or if there's someone that he have forgotten? I can't keep watching that everyday! They finally found each other but why separate them!"

Whatever it is, whatever they are hiding, I am going to find out. I have to see Y/n again, I have to know what's so special about her.

I have to remember everything! And the only way to do that is to see her again!

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The next day I went to the same place of where I last saw Y/n. I waited outside the dairy and sat on the bench which was on the other side of the road. An hour had past, two hours, three hours, six hours until closing time, she didn't show up.

I sigh to myself as I did not see her today. I went home and did the same thing the next day, waited for her from the opening of the shop until it was closing time, still no sign of her. I did it the next day, and the next day and the following day but she didn't appear.

I don't know why but I have this desperation of wanting to see her again. I don't even know her, I only saw her in my dreams yet I have this urge to see her again. I wanted to know if she was really someone special in my life, if I'm suppose to know her.

The next day, I did the same thing but it was the same result. It was night time already and the shop was about to close in five minutes. I sigh to myself, thinking if I am a fool or not. I've never done this in my life before, waiting for someone the whole day just to see them.

Never in my life sat in the same bench for a month just to have the same results over and over again. I am not a patient person and I hated when people make me wait but... but why am I doing this for someone whom I don't even remember.

Chrollo said that she was the one who ask to erase herself from my memories, it was her fault of why I can't remember her now so why am I even trying to wait for her? If she was really special to me, why would she want herself to be out of my life?

Maybe I did something bad to her? Sure I always find it pleasuring to kill people and I say bad stuff so maybe I've offended her in a bad way for her to do this to me? She doesn't deserve to be waited the whole day, she doesn't deserve anything from me at all.

In fact, she doesn't deserve everything that I'm doing for her now. The owner of the shop put the Close sign on the door and I sigh in frustration. I stood up from the bench and started walking away.

If she doesn't deserve anything, why am I still doing this? How am I desperate to see someone who would throw something so special? From now I don't want to see her face ever again!