I felt like i was dreaming when prince derek kissed me the second time deeper and passionately after i told him  i loved him  but i felt so scared telling him this  because I thought he would hate me and accuse me trying to make him try to forget julliette but i was so happy that he had  not gotten angry.

When prince derek apologised to me for always seeing me as julliette and not clary  i felt awful that i had made him think like that because in my mind i had been selfish even after i knew how much he cared for julliette i told him that he should not have to apologised and the fault was  mine  because i was feeling bitter about dying and not being able to find love ,get married and have a child.

A few days after i had gotten better and  prince dereks kiss i went back to the night academy and before every class  me and prince derek  always stole kisses  we also  got to  know each other  he told me  that  he was virgin up untill him and juliette made love and i told him that i had never made  love or had boyfriends or  even learned about sex .

Prince derek listened to me  and not once did he laugh he told me that he was always a romantic when it came to girls and how he created perfect dates i listened to him   and we talked more about likes  and dislikes  he would always  buy me flowers  tohe asked me how  i became  interested in drawimg i told him being locked up i never had much to do but draw.

We often under the cherryblossom trees  and  talked  somtimes we would tease each other and  the other good news was that peirre had made it offical with  celia  and they were engaged  and were getting married at halloween.

  Me and derek were thrilled at the news and  we both helped to try and organise the wedding queen isabella told us that we would  have a 18th century  wedding  so i needed to practice the traditional  ballroom dancing i bega to get nervous and i spoke  with celia telling her that i  did not know how to ballroom dance  celia giggled and promised she and her brother  derek would teach me .

I took a deep breath and agreed to learn so over the weeks leading up to the wedding  whenever i got free from organising  ceilia had taught me about  the   fan dance where i would  hide my face with the  fan and then  if i was asked to dance  i would close  my  fan it sounded easy  but it was not easy  it tooka few weeks for me to  perfect it then  peirre taught me to let the male  lead the dance  before i lead .

I had gotten used  to it but then Queen isabella told me that in there family there was a  tradition  that after vows  the married couple  did the dance that  they would start off with  them not holding  or touching  but as the music  got deeper the groom would bow putting his hand out  for his bride to dance  with him and once they started to dance  then any other male wanting to become a girls suitor  would  approach the girl and ask her to dance.

Queen isabella told her  that  if there union was meant to be then the cherry blossoms would be  carried  by the wind  and it would create a spiral  around the couple caging them  in and  if there union  was not meant to be then  then cherry blossoms would just fly into the sky  i found this idea so romantic  but as i smiled at this tradition queen isabella dropped another bombshell she told me that i was to dress like i was from tje 18th century and celia told me  that she would  help  me  tie my corset.

The day of the wedding was close and queen isabella had to make the final preperations  she had  invited her freinds and family  to attend celias wedding i had celia's hand maidens  tie my corset  and do my hair how  they did it in the old times.