I was in love with the portrate that clary had made and i t showed everything that i had ever wanted whenever i looked at my parents and there love  for each other i always dreamed of a sweet family of my own
At this point my anger all dissappeared  and in its place i felt longing  i  folded the parchment and  put it in my pocket.

I then climbed on the bed and i slowly started  opening  clarys fingers and i  then slowly took the portrate of andre but as i pulled it i noticed that it was on a chain while pulling it more  clary had woken up  and i just froze as her peircing  blue eyes stared into mine its then i heard her  chuckle and say

Clarissa-" I wanted to say forgive me your highness Prince Derek  and please don't be too hard on queen isabella  i asked for the portrate when peirre told me about it and about the chain pierre told me of how you have fallen in love with the picture of  your son  and how you hate parting from it as you go  night class so i askrd peirre to buy a chain and  hook  so you could wear it on and take your son with you everywhere you go"

Prince Derek -" clary  why is it you care so much about how i feel and what about the family portrate"

Clarissa-"your highness please do not be  mad for i had not meant to step over my boundry lines  i just drew this  so i could mourn  all the things that i haved longed to have but i know that i will not be alive much longer to see all my dreams come true"

Prince Derek -"Clary why is it you drew me as your better half please do not fear for i will not get angry"

Clarissa-"Your highness  i never drew you as my  better half   but i drew myself as julliette  the love of your life i know that you are still in love with julliette til this day  and i know that you,peirre,your parents  and princess celia  all see me as julliette and not clary i know that you all care for me as her and if i had not looked like julliette   then you and peirrw would never ever give me a second glance"

Prince derek -"Why is it you think like this clary we all like you  as clary and not juliette and  ok you look like julliette but that does not mean  that we all care for your just because of your face"

Clarissa-"your highness Prince Derek  i wish that your words hold a truth  but i may have been isolated my whole life  it does not mean that i do not know of anything i know in ny gut that you all see me as julliette.

I also had this proven  the day i fainted in the girls toilets  when you and peirre had walked in and you both saw me  you both screamed Juliette  not clary  and i know at that time i reminded you  of the day that juliette had died for me its a truth  and when i finially die  i know my tombstone will read juliette and not clary"

Clary fell asleep  with tears in her eyes  after she told me of what she felt i  left her room  and went back to my room and i sat on the  bed looking at the  portrate  that clary had made but instead of julliette i began to see   clary  i looked at andre's portrate and guilt at e at my insides and i  began to hate myself because we live by the rule that we respect  women  but by keeping  clary with us just because ahe looked like juliette was even more disrespectful.

I left my room and ran to the mountain and screamed at myself in anger and then i broke trees  i hated myself so much and i could belive that unknowingly we had hurt her so deeply as she lay sick and dying i screamed to the sky  asking why the gods made another women look so much like julliette.