Random late night thoughts 

I'm so tired 

My arm is swollen  

I miss him..

Why? Did it have to end like that 

Think of the positive Joshua 

How can you think positive 

Joshua you like one of them and you love other 

Why can't it just be a three way? 

This is why you shouldn't have started shit 

You ruin shit

You had an a-okay life 

But nooooo

Shane Dawson has ryland 

Who do I got- nobody 

Can I get over it? 

No..not now...

You're friends right? Think positive 

Yea right..you fucked it up, and you ruin everyone's lives

Ugh...

I like people who push me away, hard to get..I like the chase

But I also like people who care and are there most of time..

Why can't I just decide..

Can't have one, but you can't live without the other 

Hurting is fun

Act like you want to be friends and nothing more 

Maybe it'll work out 

Will it really?

I'm so confused 

He still loves him...what chance do I have 

They're both so beautiful..

why you gotta fuck everything up josh? 

Ignore this, it's stupid random thoughts