TRIGGER WARNING : body shaming

DM between alicee & jsp

my idiot :  hey

my idiot : u k?

alibear :  i don't know 

my dork : oh. ok.

IRL :

Alice's POV :

I lay in my bed just staring at my ceiling, i cried a few time re-remembering my 4th year.

flashback 

Alice's 4th year at hogwarts :

"eww.. you're so ugly" Jessica Crow insulted Alice

"OMG Jessy!! ur so right! she's like soo fat" Marrylin Dirch laughed after that (Jessica;s minionsd) (recap : Jessica is a bully , she in her 6th year and she has 2 minions named Marrylin Dirch & Veronica Merling) (bullying younger students. low life. ik)

Alice was cornered in an empty hallway. She was getting bullied a lot this year, puberty hit her hard on summer break and when she came back to school, she is 10x hotter than before. (p.s. ur hot 2 ;)) And made more girls hate on her & more guys hitting on her. She dislike all of the attention she was getting.

"did you put on weight sweetheart?" Veronica asked in a sickeningly sweet insulting voice. Alice doesn't cry on public, she looks tough as hell, but words hit her deep.  Alice did actually put on some weight, but it didn't really show..

Then there were footsteps echo pounding the empty hallway, the girls left.

Alice decide to ignore the bullies and mean comments..

2 months later....

Alice put on some more weight and it started showing, bullies and the press hated on her even Matt did (She had a boyfriend named Matt Dickorson (a/n idk y i named him that myb bc hes a dick?) )

Daily Prophet

(A/N i don't know how to write an article/news/newspaper. soooo... basically daily prophet containing like hatred towards Alice putting on some weight and body shaming :/ yeah..)

Alice was walking in the hallways alone, until somebody pull her into a janitors cupboard.

Alice made a sound of surprise, as a hand covers her mouth. "hey chill out" Matt said, she relaxed as soon as she knew who it is.

He grabbed on Alice's wrist real tight, making her tear up a little. It's totally gonna leave a mark. "Alice you need to fucking loose weight! i don't want to  have a girlfriend that doesn't match my standards! fat b*tch" Matt suddenly snapped (in a whisper way?) he mutters the last part, even though Alice still heard it. Matt let go of her wrist then left.

Alice cried silently, as she slowly slides down to the floor. She pulled her knees to her chest, she just looks down the floor and kept crying, words spinning in her mind 'fat bitch', 'she's like soooo fat'.

She thought Matt was the 'one', she gave all that she got to him. She spent time with him, kissed him, skipped so many things for him. She thought it was true love. 

Ever since that day it changed her brain, she felt like she needed to be skinny no matter what it takes. She felt as if she's not skinny the world would hate her, she would have no friends, her family would hate her. 

She started to train harder on quidditch, sometimes skips meals, and exercise more often. Sure it makes her more skinnier but her health got worse and kept on getting worse, she starts to starve. 

Her parents decide to take her to the doctor, where the doctor sent them to a psychiatrist. Alice has been diagnosed 'anorexia'. (for those who doesn't know, it's an eating disorder and a mental health issue) She took her medication, and return to her normal weight.  Her parents and friends cheered her up, and told her that she's perfect just the ways she is. She tried to take those words in, but she was never cured, she did became healthy but she still have the urge to always be skinny.

End of flashback

'CLINK'

She ignored it.

'CLINK' 

she groans, still ignoring it.

'CLANK!' 

'what the hell!?!' Alice thought. She got up and came to look outside her window. It was James.

She rolls her eyes but open the window anyways.

James got a ladder and put it down so he can climb up to her bedroom. 'where the heck did he get a ladder?!?'

He climbed up and hugged her. Alice melts into his touch.

James didn't say a single word he just hugged her. That's what she needs. Dom and Roxanne did hug her, but they spoke, they gave her advice, tried to cheer her up. But all she needed was someone to just hold.

Alice and James have been dating (secretly) ever since their first kiss when it was new year

AAAAAAAAHHH

that was cute :))

heyyyy 2nd update coming at ya!!
thanks for the readsss luv y'all!!

update : in the future

(^ that's triggering)