warning: may reference some triggering topics such as murder, sexual desires, and manipulation
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↦ when Jungkook would start showing interest for you he would keep it private, in highschool he would be known as the quiet handsome but intimidating boy. very different from your usual cluster of weird perky friends- that seemed to all have quite similar interests and personalities. his friends almost seemed dark and gloomy, yet attacking the hearts of most girls in the school.

↦after realizing he had an interest for you it would start to become a nagging thought at the back of his mind for him. soon enough he treated teasing you as a game, the thought of making you feel something because of him gave Jungkook satisfaction. even if the way you felt about him was negative, he still didn't care.

↦during the rest of highschool he would usually be the dark spot of your days, his endless annoying pranks and teasing would always get on your nerves. wanting to punch that arrogant smirk off his face was a usual thought.

↦it was surprising but also not new news when you realized you both would be going to the same collage. he was smart and you kept forgetting that, thus the both of you were admitted into one of the top collages in Seoul together.

↦when you both met by chance at orientation, he seemed like a completely different person. sure he was still quiet most of the time, and his looks only enhanced over the summer. but he didn't even glance at you, the usual flirtatious remarks were gone. for the first semester he barely glanced at your direction.

↦second semester came by and he was your math partner, seated together for one hour a day was enough to change the non existent thing you had grown accustomed to. now he actually talking to you on a daily basis in class, and he seemed normal. he didn't smile much and was unemotional at times, but you grew used to this friendship that depended on your personality to lift up his.

↦it was a normal friendship, and overtime he opened up more to you. you had grown used to his blank faces and emotionless yet charismatic character. you both would sometimes text but most of your conversations revolved around math class and occasionally off topic scenarios when you would tutor him at the library.

↦until of course you got a boyfriend, that's when everything seemed to change and crumble. when the life you looked through a blurry glass was covered by lies and distortions.

↦when he first asked you about this it had been two weeks after Jimin and you had started dating. Jimin was a shy fellow, unknown on how to properly address his feelings. his anxiety was something you related to, making you both try to help each other push against the standards society threw down at your shoulders. when you both started to develop feelings for each other it was as if you were walking on cloud nine. one of the happiest times of your life, where you could find simple joy in the texts he would send you in the morning and before bed. the long talks you both had under the bench by the collage park.

↦t was surprising when Jungkook asked about how you and Jimin's relationship was going. how he brought it up without much interest, just letting the question float amongst the math conversation you both were currently discussing.

↦it was confusing at first but you eventually explained a bit about how you both got together, he could see the light from inside of you spark when you spoke Jimin's name. as if only that word brought you joy, brought you feeling. Jimin was taking away the feeling you once gave him, and he wasn't too glad about that.

↦jealousy flared and sparked inside of him, seeming to eat his soul out until he just felt empty and broken inside.

↦he thought it would be a phase, that your feelings would wither and die. he wanted it to fade to become nothing so that he instead could take the place of something.

↦it drove him insane on how a simple girl like you smashed and turned his world on its heels, dangling him above the mass destruction in his head that seemed to eat him alive.

↦he didn't feel right, he didn't feel okay. he felt bewildered and confused all at once. this wasn't love or a crush, this was madness and lust taking over every single moment of his ticking life.

↦one year passed and you were still with jimin, yet he waited giving you another more chance.

↦two years passed, three years passed, the fourth year anniversary was coming up and he begged himself to stay put together.

↦when the rumors of a wedding starting going around he thought he would go berserk, he wanted to claw you up into a mass of bloody pieces for still grasping onto his heart- when yet it was evident you were completely and utterly fine with someone else that wasn't him, and would never be him.

↦the madness consumed his every breath, his every movement. he woke up to your face in his mind, to your charming words and personality playing in his head- he went to sleep with sexual thoughts of your body at night.

↦he visited the doctor after a few months, but not just any doctor. his friends knew what was going on, they knew Jungkook would lash out soon; and so they directed him to a special doctor. To relieve the torment that beat him down every step of his life, from the moment he set eyes on you.

↦he was diagnosed with something he chose not to believe in, he didn't want to refer to himself as someone like that- some thing that didn't have the right to be called human.

↦yet he proved himself wrong, because once he walked down that hallway- when he heard Jimin talking about a ring, when he saw you kiss him good morning- placing those lips that were his onto that disgusting creatures face...he couldn't not do what was expected of him.

↦what was expected of his kind

↦so he did the one thing he forced himself not to do, he took like life of the person that gave you feeling.

↦yet who was there to pick you up after you were crying at Jimin's funeral?

↦who was there 'protecting' you from every decent guy that wanted to get to know you, because apparently he made you believe that they wouldn't love you like he or Jimin would.

↦who was your best friend? Your only friend?

↦him

↦who did you confess all your secrets to?

↦him

↦who helped you forget over time the feelings you had for Jimin- by sucking every single memory he could find of the boy out of your mind?

↦him

↦who seemed to look after you and care for you?

↦him

↦who did you move in with after collage?

↦him

↦who would you eventually marry?

↦him

↦and it would always be him, because Jungkook wouldn't allow another more important thing to step into your life except him. because he had the ability to wipe out anything that would stand in between you both.

↦if the day came that you yourself would step in the way between the obsession he established for you- then you would be wiped out just as fast as anyone else.

↦I do, he said

↦I do, you said

↦ to hold from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and health,

↦until death do you part