Married Life Is Hard

Looking at the photos on my phone of me and my husband of just over five months, I let out a bone chilling sigh. I knew Spencer had a demanding job but he swore it would ease up a bit once we were married, I wish he was right. It seemed as if it only got harder now that we were married. I had so many things to tell him but he was on assignment and that meant he needed to be focused on work, not on his wife that was over a thousand miles away. The buzzer for the apartment rang, making me get up from the couch and buzz the person downstairs inside, I knew it had to be Penelope seeing as she texted me saying that she had something to drop off to me. I walked into the kitchen to get our cups of tea ready that I had been boiling for a long while.
"The door is open, Pen!" I shouted just before the door opened and closed behind me.
"I have to tell you, I'm glad to see at least one of team members, it's like I haven't seen any of you since the wedding. So what did you have to drop off?" I asked just before a very familiar pair of arms slid around to my front and a chin rested on my shoulder.
"You made me tea? How sweet, Mrs. Reid." Spencer whispered causing me to smile and turn around in his arms so there was no space between us.
"I thought you were on assignment." I said causing him to shrug and cup my face in his hands.
"I was, Hotch said that my talents were needed more here and I wasn't going to protest spending time with my wife." He said just before touching his lips to mine, in a quick yet passion filled kiss. I smiled into the kiss and pulled away as the water began to scream in the tea kettle.
"Well, I'm glad to have you back." I said turning back to the tea and pouring the hot water into our cups.
"I'm glad to be back." He responded as he leaned against the counter and watched my every move. We stood there in silence, the only words being spoken was Spence's small thank you as I handed him his cup of tea. I looked down at my cup, watching the water begin to turn a light brown color.
"(Y/N)?" Spencer asked making me look up at him and force a small smile. I was more than excited to see my husband but other things on my mind were taking over my emotions.
"What's wrong?" He asked as I walked into the bedroom with my cup in my hands and my eyes looking everywhere but him. I sat on the bed, my cup of tea now on the nightstand on my side of the bed.
"I love you." Spencer said, knowing that would make me look at him. I smiled slightly, seeing the nervousness in his eyes as to why I was so quiet.
"I know, I love you too." I said looking down at my hands that were resting in my lap. Spencer soon got down on his knees and kneeled in front of me, one of his hands reaching up to my chin so our eyes would meet.
"Talk to me." He said causing me to let out a watery laugh. I knew I had to tell him and I know how he would react but part of me was still scared.
"I'm pregnant." I said causing his face to break out into a joyful smile and my face to get peppered with kisses.
"When did you find out?!" He asked as now crawled up to the bed and sat next to me.
"Two weeks ago." I said letting a smile spill from my lips, happy that I was going to be a mother.
"Why were you so scared to tell me?" Spencer asked, causing my smile to disappear and my nerves to come back.
"You are barely home as it is, I know it's busy season but still. Spencer, I saw what the job did to Hotch and his marriage, I don't want that to happen to us. Putting a kid in the mix, just makes it worse, I know you always wanted to have a baby, as do I but it's just going to put us in a harder situation." I confessed making Spencer sigh and shake his head from side to side.
"Sweetheart, no. You couldn't be more wrong. Hotch knows what it did to him so he is only going to go easier on me and he is going to make sure the same thing doesn't happen to us, hey he is the one to told me I needed to come home. He knows how hard it is on you, on the both of us. Look at JJ and Will, the have Henry, they are married and JJ is away just as much as I am. They are so unbelievably happy. I love you so much and I will love our baby even more. I would do anything for the both of you and I will make sure that I will be the best dad that I can be." He said, making all my worries and fears vanish and a small smile begin to form.
"I'm sorry." I said causing him to shake his head no once again as I rested my head on his shoulder.
"Don't be, I would have acted the same way if I was in your shoes." He said rubbing my back softly.
"How did I get so lucky?" I said resting one of my hands on the nape of his neck, causing him to look down at me.
"I ask myself that same question every day. I love you, (Y/N) Reid." He said as we cuddled on the bed, knowing that we would have to get back to reality sooner than later. He both knew it was going to be hard but we would get threw it, just like we always did.