Onimikeler Oneshot:

Satisfied

Plot: Maybe if they had never originally got together, Onity would be able to live happily in such a time line, but he'd experienced a love that he can not simply let go. He will never be satisfied.

Based off of: Song titled Satisfied from the Hamilton soundtrack

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It was a blur, what had happened. Onity relived that blur over and over, trying to find a way to stop it. The blur was an event so horrible, so tragic, and yet, so unstoppable. One moment he lives happily with his husbands, two amazingly imperfectly perfect humans, and it seemed like nothing would dare threaten their lives. The next moment, through some unknown cause, everything is being stolen from him. He's being stolen from them. Their happiness is being destroyed.

Onity used a great deal of magical energy, a larger amount then he's ever had to use, going back in time, over and over, to try to prevent their futures from being harmed. In one time line, they moved, in another, they kept their secrets from even the closest of family. No matter what was changed, Onity found that the event happened in some way or another.

There was nothing he could do to stop it.

There was nothing that could keep them all satisfied.

"Onity?"

Onity looked up at Mike, who looked concerned.

"Are you okay?" Mike asked.

It was a day before the event would occur in this time line and it appeared to Onity there wasn't any way he could stop this. In this time line, he'd managed to convince them to move in with him, and so they sat in one of the rooms in the mansion. The mansion looked so much more beautiful then before, having been cleaned and stuff.

Mike probably noticed the expression on Onity's face, as he was in deep thought.

Onity couldn't hide it, but he could hide the cause. He shifted on the couch he sat in. "Tired. Would you like to sit with me?"

Changing the topic quickly, Onity moved to let Mike sit beside him.

"You looked worried." Mike said, taking Onity on his offer. Onity rested his head on Mike's shoulder. "I should know what that looks like."

Onity nodded his head.

"What about?" Mike asked in a soft tone.

Onity paused, and Mike could hear him breathing.

"If you could go back in time, is there anything you would change?" Onity asked.

Mike shook his head. "No. M-my life has never been perfect, but all these good and bad things have lead me to being able to live here with you and Tyler."

"Oh." Onity couldn't find words to say, just enjoying this time with Mike for as long as he could.

It wouldn't last. He'd go back, he'd change something, something that didn't need to be changed.

"Would you change anything?" Mike asked, beginning to feel more worried over Onity. His tone seemed so different.

Onity shook his head. "Never."

There was one more thing he could change, but the thought of it brought tears to Onity's eyes and Mike notice.

"H-Hey, what's wrong?" Mike turned to Onity and their eyes met.

Now that he even thought about it, changing that thing would make the most sense in preventing the event from ever happening.

It would save them!

But he-

he would never be satisfied.

Onity wiped the tears away.

"I love you." He replied, hugging Mike.

-...-

Rewinding was hard.

Acting unlike himself so that Tyler would never fall in love with him was difficult.

Trying to keep Tyler and Mike together after that was punishing.

But he did it to save them.

And it worked.

-...-

Their wedding was so unlike his wedding. The wedding that never happened, that is. The wedding only Onity will ever have a memory of. Standing in a crowded hallway, Onity looked down at his own hands, ringless. He had a glass in one hand with some sort of alcohol but he didn't drink much of it.

He remembered being the only one there to see the two exchange vows and rings, and then he remembered going home, and the two giving him a ring, and the three, together, married. It was a memory that used to bring him great joy, a memory that would make him feel better when he felt down. Now it was painful.

Onity shook his head, trying his best not to think about it. He'd be okay. Mike and Tyler were still very much happy, and as long as they were happy, he'd be happy. He was sure of it. He'd like to be, at least. It was great seeing so much of their friends and family here. Onity talked a bit with Jeremy and even Rose.

But nobody else here was his family.

Onity missed having Rose and Amy and Diego as family. He missed knowing Tyler's aunt and uncle and crazy grandmother and all of his distant family. He missed having a better connection with Gavin, and he missed being included as family. Maybe Tyler's parents would talk a bit with him, but not as open, as loving and caring, as they would have before.

He wasn't their son's husband. He was their son's roommate.

Onity tried to be happy for Mike and Tyler as they married, and he smiled for them, and he cheered for them. He helped out a lot with the after party and he walked around to make sure everyone was happy. He helped Jeremy clean up when he spilled his drink, he helped Tyler's 8 year old cousin Wolfie when he found a frog and got scared. He helped Rose set out the food, the poor woman seemed worried about everything.

At one point, there were speeches. Rose gave a speech, and so did Gavin. After that, it was his turn. He'd been asked to give one, and Onity felt like he was more qualified than anyone in that room to do so. Onity put so much time into this speech. In his pocket was the paper, but Onity had memorized it all. As he stood up and all eyes feel on him, Onity took a deep breath, and he talked. He appeared so confident, so happy for them, and nobody, not even the two who knew him best, could tell how much he was falling apart inside.

  "A toast to the grooms, from your roommate, who is always by your sides. The hope that you provide me matches the level of nothing else in life...  

"Most of you don't know me, I'm Onity Cheri, Mike and Tyler's roommate. I've lived with them for years, and it's so difficult to convey to you all just how much these two mean to me."

Onity smiled to Mike and Tyler, who watched him. For that moment, it felt like the three of them were the only ones in the room, and that Onity was talking to them, only them.

"I was at my lowest in life when they appeared. I'd lost my family, I had no friends, I lived in an unclean house with no electricity, no warmth, nothing but books I had read thousands of times over. It scares me to think about how I would have continued living such a secluded life. But then they appeared, and nothing about me or my situation scared them away. They became my friends, they did anything and everything to help me, including giving me room in their own home to live more properly. Because of them, I am healthy, I am happy, I am successful in life, I am alive."

He paused.

"I know Mike and Tyler like I know my own mind, you will never find anyone as trusting, more as kind.

"I have seen them at their worst, and I have seen them at their best. They have a love and a connection and an understanding of each other that no other couple can compare. Mike Schmidt, a man who has struggled so much in life, who still struggles, who has found someone with whom he can finally be satisfied living with. At your darkest times of where anxiety and terrible thoughts cloud your mind, Tyler is able to clear them away. His love and care for you has done so much more then any medical help. Tyler Schmidt, a man who has never been sure of what his future holds, but takes it all head on. A man who may seem hot headed, but in truth is one of the most caring and open minded of all.

"The two together are imperfectly perfect, working with each other's positives and negatives, and caring for the other without fail, willing to do anything for the other in order to preserve their happiness.

"Together, standing there, two of the most trustworthy men on Earth. You could trust them with your life. Living with them, knowing them from a perspective unlike anyone else, I know there is nothing but happiness in their future. No matter who comes and goes, no matter where they live, may you always be satisfied."

There was cheering, and Onity sat down, and he could tell Mike and Tyler loved his speech. But as his speech was over, the attention was quickly pulled from him to something or someone else. Onity sat at the table, his hands in his pocket, his eyes staring at his glass. His right hand was shaking in his pocket against the paper. He was shaking.

Onity could hear whispers from people around him, he could hear people that used to be family, whisper things.

"They have a roommate? Still?"

"Don't you think years is enough time to build yourself back up and move out?"

"Maybe he's mooching off of them."

"Come on, maybe they have a reason. You don't know anything about him."

"Exactly, I don't know anything about him."

"Besides, the two are getting married and a married couple should have a home with privacy."

"True."

None of them understand. No one in this building, in this wedding, knows. Onity can't move out, he has a secret, he is not human, and Mike and Tyler know this, but they don't hear the negativity from their friends and family, they are not standing close enough to hear. They aren't there to stand up for him. To put everyone in their place. It's not like they have to, though. They're Tyler and Mike's family now, and Onity is only a roommate. Onity is below family.

Onity excused himself while everyone ate, and he left the room in the direction of the bathrooms. As he walked, as he thought, it became harder and harder to be happy. It became harder to even pretend. Every step became heavier and every second at this wedding became a haunting reminder of the happiness that he left behind in other timeliness.

He felt selfish. Mike and Tyler were happy and if their happiness was all that mattered to him, why couldn't he be happy! Tears came to Onity's eyes as he pushed open the bathroom door and locked it behind him.

He didn't face the mirror, he walked to the other side of the small room and sat on the tiled ground, back to the wall, his head hidden by his knees and arms. His arms and legs shook. His tears fell, his sobs couldn't be hidden. He couldn't take this time line, this ending, but he had to.

He had to face the fact that he would never be satisfied.

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