Addie sighed quietly as she propped her phone up, clicking on the record button. She was in Betrayaltale, clearly her old room. It looked just like it used to, just more dusty. Rundown. Faded. She stared into the camera, smiling faintly. "Hey.." she murmurs, smiling faintly. She pulled off her jacket, showing her arms. No new wounds, just old death marks from the others. Her arms looked cut to shit... "Before you ask, I am fine. I just need some... time alone to help with my mental state. Everything's getting to me. I'm getting a bit more... anxious... insane..."

She gazed away slightly, pulling her jacket back on. "There's no need to come look for me, but if you want to then I am in betrayaltale, my old room." She quietly sighed, gazing around the room before back to the camera. "There is... something you guys aren't aware of. What happened when you died. I wish to fill in the gaps. You deserve to know the truth instead of me just saying 'I have no idea' or 'I will tell you in time'." She sighed, guilt on her face. "I'm sorry for hiding this. It..  ain't even that bad. I just... didn't find the reason to say.. I'll start from the beginning.."

Addie adjusting the bureau on her head, biting her lip. "I knew that Demented would kill us before he even started. In my eyes, it was clear. The... dark looks.. the insanity flashing in his eyes... the way he gazed us all up and down like he was a wolf, and we were his prey." She sighed, biting her lip. "I knew I had to act but... I didn't know how. I was simply a demon. A pathetic demon at that."

The girl gazed away, sighing quietly. "I took the human souls in underfell, and I killed Frisk. I had the souls. I could make a wish." She smiled faintly, biting her lip. "I disconnected my soul from Maniac's. I put all the souls in one jar whilst I was in underfell. Mercy appeared." A small smile tinted on her lips at the memory  a chuckle escaping her mouth. "I made my wish. My wish was for, if you all died at the hands at Demented, you would return a month later connected to my soul. You would be my demons... fallens...  angels... fallen angels... whatever you turned out to be once you died..." She sighed gently, gazing down. "I said of because I thought I could save you all. I couldn't..."

Addie gazed away, tears brimming in her eyes. She had never cried before... "Demented... he found me in underfell... he attacked me after I made the wish. He presumed that.. if he killed me, then the others wouldn't come back. He had me pinned, no way to escape, knife to my neck. I made him faulted just long enough to shove him away and escape. I was much quicker. Much faster. He didnt get me. He instead got you guys..." the whimpered pathetically, wiping her tears away.

"If you guys think for a second that I abandoned you, you were wrong. I tried my fucking hardest to save you guys. To stop it happening.. The closest I got was Sans and Mentality." Addie muttered, forcing herself to continue. Her voice was frail now since she was close to tears. "I tried to heal them. I couldn't. I held their hands as they died..." she whispered, scratching her arm anxiously. "I failed you all..."

She took a second to wipe her eyes, biting her lip. "Now, this is where you guys would question why I would say a month later. Well.. I needed to punish myself.. for not being able to save you guys..." she laughed weakly, staring at the floor. "You don't want to know what I did but... just know it's bad.." she cleared her throat, staring at the camera. "You guys connected, stayed in my head. That's all you guys remember.. but you guys connected to my soul you forgot I could feel what you guys feel. I know what happened in hell or heaven for all of you. I know some of you continue."

The neko sighed, gulping weakly. "You know who you are... please... this was none of your faults... in fact, it's mine for not saying anything... so I need to punish myself... again.." she bit her lip, staring at the floor. "You guys won't feel it. I'm clever about my punishments, unlike you guys... please... stop cutting... and... I don't blame you guys for hurting me after hiding what happened..." she muttered. There was only a glimpse of a knife in her hand before the camera turned off and was sent to the group chat she had with all her lovers. Oh Gods, what was she going to do to herself...

(dryriahriah)