(A/N surprise more matsuno brothers!)
3rd person(??) pov
Asher sigh looking at himself in the mirror he thought he looked horrible and felt it too he lived alone asher visit the matsuno brothers a lot tho that's nice but he think they're starting to get annoyed with him he grasped the sink growling at himself"idiot why are you like this?"he mumbled to himself looking up in the mirror again he was shaking feeling like he was gonna throw up words coming out of him"why are you so annoying why do you have to be so stupid"he whimpered"they hate you the matsuno and everyone else would be better off if you weren't here......"asher felt his throat closing up a burning in his chest asher felt a rush a anger "...YOU'RE WORTHLESS A PIECE OF GARBAGE WASTE OF SPACE!" he punched the mirror growling panting afterwards his hand slid down the mirror looking at the fractured pieces with tears in his eyes fell on his knees crying"why do I feel like this I know better so why"he cried to himself after 10 minutes he calmed down wiping his eyes sniffing leaning on the wall "god the fuck just happened?"he mumbled to himself looking up at the ceiling relaxing his phone went off because karamatsu just texted him "shit "he picked it up text from karamatsu: hey asher are ok you said you'll be here by now me and the rest are heading over now we're worry he stared at the text for a sec"FUCK" he cleaned up and took the mirror down and hid it asher bandaged himself up and at that moment he heard jyuishmatsu knock "coming give me a second guys!"outside of asher house karamatsu looked at door worried"you think he's ok?" Ichimatsu looked at him"he's been acting weird for the past couple of day something is off"he mumbled osomatsu laughed it off"he's ok probably just tried probably"todomatsu crossed his arms "yeah!" The door open showing asher who was dressed as ichimatsu currently with sweat pants and a hoodie and no shoes todomatsu looked at asher suspiciously"sorry just woke up"asher said fake yawning jyuishmatsu hugged asher spinning around"ashy!!!"asher giggled and hugged back"heya jyuishmatsu!"asher and jyuishmatsu laughed together karamatsu smiled walking in with the others osomatsu looked around grinning"wow we haven't been here in a longggggg time ash I guess you cleaned up and decorated?"
Ichimatsu pov
I watch as asher nodded smiling"yeah I really didn't like my uncle's taste you know"he rubbed the back of his neck grinning like a madman I looked at him closer seeing the bags under his eyes he was paler then usually "hey asher you good?"I asked his clothes was bagger then normal "yeah I'm fine why do you ask?"he tilted his head I just now noticed his eyes where red he's been crying I looked down seeing his hands were wrapped up "you've been acting weird is all"I mumbled he patted my head"I'm a-ok ichi"I glared at him bullshit I know when someone is lying asher may be the best at acting like he's ok but I can see past his walls asher eyes give him away "if you say so"I'm not good with people and emotions I have to talk to jyuishmatsu or karamatsu about it they're better at this stuff asher took us to the living room my brothers eyes went wide seeing the huge couch that can fit all of us"whatcha wanna watch guys??"todomatsu looked at the dvds"oh how about scream??"everyone agree we sat down as the movie started"let's gooooo"asher smiled he likes scream I pulled karamatsu close and whispered about how I think asher is feeling down karamatsu looked over at asher he pulled asher over to him smiling a couple of hours later I got up everyone else was asleep I opened a door to one of the many rooms and saw a mirror with a piece of fabric on it I pulled it off seeing a shattered mirror I looked at it close seeing blood"did asher break this??"I mumbled worry looking around the room I saw a journal "I shouldn't read it"I decided to read the journal and I learned about all of the self doubts he had and how he decided to draw on himself instead of self-harming the door open"ichimatsu.........

To be continued??
(Should I make a part two)