A small piece I published on my Tumblr account

Hope y'all enjoy<33

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The stars twinkled in the night sky, their faint light visible through the foggy dust of clouds. Winds blew, and a gentle breeze whispered, caressing the brown hair strands.

Dazai smiles, his back leaning against the railing. He tilts his head slightly, and his smile never wavers.

-Do you love me, my Belladonna?

You're almost frozen in your place. Looking at him, with that bitter smile on his face. All of this toxic relationship have been wrong, ever since the first day you two met each other.

-Well, what will you do? Are you willing to stay and save me, or are you choosing to leave, and I'll take this final step?

You could feel your nervousness forming a pit in your stomach. No, no, you should hate him - obviously, you hate him.

You hate the way he always get on your nerves. You hate the way he was pissing you off every second. You hate every single word that comes through his lips. You hate his smile, you hate his everything.

-Osamu, please, I can't...-

-Y/n.

He cuts you off. The velvety sound echoed and replayed in your ears, haunting your every second alive, and god- it was stupidly addicting as hell.

-Do I still mean nothing to you? Even.... after all the things we've been through?

The brunette's voice comes out almost above a whisper, chocolate eyes staring into yours. You could feel your heart beat faster, and your body was shaking slightly. Is this because of the cold wind of the night or something else..?

-W-wait, Osamu, listen. I just... I just think that this toxic relationship will end up hurting us both...

He laughs, and you couldn't quite tell if there was a hint of sadness under it.

-But do you think that I'll be better if you turn and walk away now?

He lowered his gaze; Osamu Dazai had never begged for anything or anyway in his entire life.

But now, he is doing it. For the first time of his life, his pride crumbled into pieces because of a love-hate relationship.

You both knew that this hatred is like cocain to your veins, hypnotizing every cells of your brains, screaming out loud the lust from the bottom of your soul.

And seems like it have been eating both of you alive.

-Osamu, please... stop saying that...

"Because I still love you, somehow."

That's what you've been holding back, even until now.

Dazai's eyes widen because of the sudden contact. Your fingers intertwining with his, and for a second, time stop flowing.

-I know a way that we can stay together and forever, Y/n. You could stay with me forever, and I won't have to lose you over and over again...

A flash of stars glimmering in the darkness, the wind soaring. You could feel your body falling apart, and you could hear his soft chuckle before your vision went blurry.

You could have just run away from him, but you didn't.

You could hold onto your dear life, but you didn't.

And oh how ridiculous you're feeling right now. The last thing you saw was his stupid face, which you hated the most. The last thing you feel against your skin is his warmth, which you can never push away. You could never resist melting in his arms, you could never stay away and watch him falling down from above.

And yet, you love the way you two both hate each other.

"I swear i hate that I can't stop loving you."