I studied the map of the base that was laying on the small wooden desk. The base itself has four floors, the basement not included, six wings and over a thousands rooms. Then we have a huge lobby at the north side. An entry way for 'normal' people and you have the back entrance that leads to an underground garage or to the hanger I was the previous day with Ratchet. The Autobot hanger and main hanger were marked on the map and so was the cafeteria, training room, shooting range, the gym, archive, medbay and the gear room. Every section of the base was given a letter. A to I. The cafeteria was marked on the second floor; B2.000. Not too hard to find I guess. My room had number D3.405. I had to walk all the way through section D and C, take the staircase and to head for the cafeteria.

On the map, it didn't seem like a hard task but in reality it was. This base is like a maze and all the people wandering around made me really nervous. They looked at me with envy and it told me that I didn't belong here. So after ten minutes of wandering through section D, I took note of how hopeless this actually was. I felt like an complete idiot for trying. This is out of my comfort zone and what did I expect? That I can just march in like I own the place and people won't look at me? As I was thinking about this, I hadn't noticed the twins sneaking up behind me. Although, it wasn't really sneaking up, I just hadn't heard them coming because I was lost in a chain of thoughts about how stupid this idea actually was.

"Amethyst?"

I yelped and jumped, turning around. "I am sorry, I am sorry. I didn't know how to announce myself," Sideswipe said and flashed me a friendly smile. "It's fine..." I replied and stepped back. "Where are you going?" Sunstreaker asked. "Out. Back to where I belong," I replied. "The streets?" I shrugged and groaned a little in pain as I did so. "You're not in a very good state, are you sure about this?" Sideswipe asked. I nodded, "I feel fine. Just a few broken ribs and cuts but nothing major. It will heal over time?" I assured them but I was a mostly reassuring myself and reminding myself it will be okay. In fact, I have been really scared and stressed.

"Isn't there anything we can do?" Sideswipe asked. "No, not really. Thanks for the food you gave me the day prior but you didn't had to do it. People don't have to waste their time and money on me. I can look after myself. I will figure something out." Sunstreaker cocked his head to the side. "You have no money to buy anything and your parents don't really seem to feed you either. You can either day of starvation or from illness," Sunstreaker stated in a matter-of- fact tone. "They're kit my parents. They are my foster parents for five years. My biological parents dumped at the side of the road. I know how to survive because that's all I have been doing since I was five years old. I am not stupid and I don't want other people to feel bad or whatever. I just want to be left alone."

"We get it, you had a rough start and so had we but you must understand that you can't always fix things on your own. You need to trust people, it can be hard but it's crucial. Especially in your state?" Sunstreaker explained. "I don't trust other people for obvious reasons, I can fix this on my own. As soon as I have a job, I will make money and I can look after myself properly," I stated. "Ah, of course... have you tried already?" Sideswipe asked. "Yes, I have." It sounded snappy and irritated but I was mostly mad at myself for failing every time. "Okay, well... good luck."

Sunstreaker passed me but Sideswipe kept standing where he was a little bit longer. "You where to find us if you need any help, okay? We gladly want to help you despite what your Sophie is saying," he said. "But you believed everything she said, isn't it?" I asked. "I don't judge that fast. I am really easy going with others and we haven't met officially before so I didn't am strong opinion. All I took note of was the fact you're always hiding and never wanted to do anything with us. I wondered if it was because of Sophie who forbid you or because you have an anxiety disorder that caused you to feel that way."

"No, I just want to be left alone and there are just a few people I trust. I don't intend to be a criminal, smoke, use drugs or drink. All I want to do is just find a legal job and make some money so I can finally live the life I want and I know I can do that. I just need a little bit of time. I have a job interview next week. I will figure something out." I stated. "You don't have to justify yourself, Amethyst," Sideswipe stated. I gave a small nod. Sometimes I do make money, but the little money I make goes to Edward and Jade. Sideswipe patted my shoulder and passed me. I turned around and watched him walk off, into the direction his twin brother just disappeared to catch up with him again.

I sighed and headed back to my room, watching some TV. I will try later to find the cafeteria again but now I just want to relax and think about what Sideswipe said. He's right and so is Sunstreaker but over the years I developed the fear of being rejected. It all started with my parents and now my foster parents. I am scared to get hurt for that matter and I know I can figure something out.