I am so depressed that I try to find everything funny.

I want to cut.... But this bed is too comfy to leave so I can go to the bathroom, haha.

*sigh* And it isn't even random, long pieces of time that I feel depressed and then happy at certain moments. Pain all the fucking time... Even when I am with my friends and laughing.

There is nothing I can do, haha.

Heh, I'm really pathetic...